The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

13th July 2015

Yesterday we the raid did complete. Enver quite happy was. Though perhaps difficult it was for to tell if his mood due to our success was, as always affectionate with me he is. Unless arguing we are. Tactile as a couple we are. Our love making this night more tender was. Hurt I think he was. Good that is not. No more scars has he need of. Though interesting our time together was, as never before have we each other explored while against the ATM we were. Though perhaps need we do for to learn that the attic no place for our antics is.

[Keara Aithne]

16th July 2015

Learned that lesson we have not. Fear I do that we never shall. Instead learning we are for good use of our surroundings to make. While unusual it is not for amorous with one another to be while Enver crafting is, much use of the ritual table of late used we have not. Perhaps more aware we are that this the point is where our family tomes to does. Though honestly, distracted by them I may not be. Loose myself in my husband I do. When he hands upon me are, the world exists not for me. He my world becomes. More so. He my world always is, but much worse my attention becomes does when touches me he does.

[Keara Aithne]

18th July 2015

Leaving soon we are. Subjected then for a while our family shall not be to our presence. Know I do not how many us have seen when engaged with one another we are, but suspect I do that it more than I like to think is. So careful these days I am not. My home, my home is. Worry for my behaviour there I should not. Though that the point is not. Soon we a child shall have. That the point is. Behave then perhaps we should. But doubt we shall. The child so young shall not be. Best it is that they sooner the ways of the world do learn. Mind they shall not. Of that sure I am. Not with what offered being they are. Enver much to teach them has. Money not all is though. Love and protection from us also they shall receive. Family our son shall be.

[Keara Aithne]

20th July 2015

Leaving tonight we are for to another town in Canada to go. This the shortest of our journeys is. The easiest. Tomorrow night spy upon the child we shall. Though call it spying in earnest I do not. Observation important is. And while this task myself I could do, trust I Deanna this for us to do. So long from Enver I wish not to spend and the daylight hours for me once more problematic are. Yes. Deanna much wiser choice for this task is. Report she shall what learns she does. Setting off inspired I am. Sean this for me today did do. Like I do that tries he does for his presence known to make. Asks for nothing he does and yet so helpful he is. Find a way I must for him to repay.

[Keara Aithne]

22nd July 2015

Met with Caleb Shelton this eve we did. Know I do not what recorded here should be, as all his information in our file is. Perhaps the basics sufficient would be. The boy sixteen years of age is. Intelligent and loyal he is. Know we do of his personality and hobbies from our research. Deanna him yesterday did observe. A punk called him she did. Fully understood the term I did not but negative it sounded in tone. He a lot of friends has and said she did that women him especially do like. Much like Enver this one sounds to me, though think I do not that Enver this observation did make and voice it I did not. In some ways, not so much like my husband he is, as think he cannot for himself. Though Enver’s thinking not always correct is, capable of his own plans to make he is. Caleb no imagination showed, and think that important I do. Lacks also intuition I believe he does. But learns well he does. Hope for him perhaps there is.

Tomorrow to England going we are. Returning to my homeland I am. Too long from my land I have been. Enjoy this trip I shall. Hope I do that Enver time have for my part of the country for to see. That the plan was, but plans always changing are.

[Keara Aithne]

25th July 2015

Deanna this eve the second of our young men observing has been. Third, technically if tallied all must be. Second that upon English soil lives does. Jamie Allen yesterday observed was. Alex Cook tonight. Both boys of interest to us are, else be here we would not. Deanna’s input invaluable is. Thankful for my sister I am. Upset she is that she the time has not had for her own hometown to visit, but time has she tomorrow night for that to do. Present at the interviews she need not be.

Enver my home has seen. Though it my home was not. It the manor house was. The cottage in which resided my family did, destroyed by time has been. The landscape much changed has but the manor house survived did. National Heritage site now it is, meaning kept it is as it once was. Know I do not if much inside the manor the same is, as I little of the interior saw when alive I was. Still. Strange the sense of comfort was, for in my old lands to be. The forest that my home was, smaller now is. Much of the surrounding land developed has been. That to be expected was but still, sad it was for to see. Perhaps another time visit we shall and then explore the area more thoroughly I shall.

[Keara Aithne]

26th July 2015

Met this eve with both boys we did. Enver not so happy at the start of the night was. Shielding us I have been and upset he has been that able therefore he has not been, for me to inspire. While miss I do the constant present of his aura about me, with him I have been for every moment of my waking hours. Angry he could not stay. Though allow I should, for him time to have, for us too to protect.

Jamie – Jamie sixteen is. Of our desired traits only one missing he is; creative we believe him not to be, but perhaps nurtured that talent within him can be. Perhaps inspired to creativity he can be. Test this perhaps I shall if chosen by us he is. Deanna says that he a talker is. Verbose. Mind that I do not. Enver and I the same way can be. Likes him Deanna does. Says that he quick of mind is. Likeable. Normal. Not that normal much to me does matter.

Alex – He the youngest of the five at fifteen is. Loyal, intelligent, likes animals. Appreciates graphic art he does but no creativity of his own does he display. Standoffish he is, but an excellent mind possesses he does. Difficult I think our choice shall be when required to be made it is. Deanna concerned for him is, says she does that knows she does not if smile he can. So serious this child must be. If chosen he is not, his life easier we shall make. Find we shall a reason for him to smile. Help all the boys we shall for their potential to reach, as family they are. Perhaps Enver help me shall for the rest of my extended family to support, where needed it is.

Tomorrow leaving for Australia we are. This a long journey shall be. Thankful I am that we upon our private plane can travel. Worry we need not for time zones to cross, for daylight to see. Safe we are. This a very fine way to travel is. Most convenient.

[Keara Aithne]

27th July 2015

Flight good was. Long. But good. Enver in a better mood today is. Able to shield us both he was. Understand his frustration I do. Like it I do not when able I am not for him to inspire or protect. Learn I must for that disappointment to ignore, since shields all in the vicinity do protect, so only one of us this can cast. Though inspired first Enver could be, then I myself could shield. Though, then take I do the ability for Enver me to protect from him. More thought to this give I should.

[Keara Aithne]

29th July 2015

Bryson Walker today met we did. Also sixteen this boy was. Discern we cannot where his loyalties lay do. That a problem is. If child loyal is not to any, trust him we cannot that we his loyalty can earn. Sign we cannot Enver’s interests to one that untrustworthy is. Enver says does, that reminds Bryson like me is. Hope I do that this not entirely true is for my loyalties clear are. Think I do that speaking he is to the fact that Bryson focused and analytical is. His strengths to mine perhaps compared can be. Like him I do. Artistic he is. Deanna say that he in la-la land does live and that he issues has. Plays violent games he does. Attacked his own team he did, while watching she was. Hmm… Perhaps Enver right is. Some of that like me does sound. Though attack my team I would not. There nothing wrong with violent tendencies is. So long as productive outlet found for them can be. Lack of loyalty an issues is. Past that point I cannot see.

[Keara Aithne]

1st August 2015

The last of the five today met we did. He the oldest of the five too was. Reese Duffy, Seventeen, American. Enver issue with his hobbies did take. Deanna him as a geek described did. See that as a bad thing I do not. Deanna agreed not. Said she did that this boy her nuts would drive. Took this to mean I did that crazy the boy her would make. Again. This no issue for me would be. Though apparently too intelligent for his own good he is. Most compelling point that made my sister did, was that he our vision for the company’s differ may. Think I do that Enver control over his businesses like to maintain would. One that with him too much argue would, a problem for him would be. Shame. Highly imaginative this one is. So charming him I did not find and speaks in facts he did. Wonder now I do if more to nature over nurture there is. My blood in this one see I could. My blood in them all see I could. Think perhaps I do that seeing I was, what wanted I did for to see.