“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.” ~ Steve Maraboli
Dear Lenore,
I know I surprised you with my quick note but I wasn’t prepared for what that simple gesture of signing my name and paying out money would mean. It was the end of something that had its beautiful moments.
Lenore, I can’t tell you what kind of a fool I’ve been. Grieving for something I never really had. When I left the first time it was so we could take our separate corners and work on things. We had to learn to talk not fight so a separation seemed in order. Apparently he took it as a divorce and went and started sleeping with her. I’m grateful that he admitted it and it surprised me that it didn’t hurt like I thought it would either. It helped me to see that had he truly wanted to work things out between us, his attention would have been more focused on fixing things between our sheets rather than running to hers. There never was a chance of fixing things I see now.
The only way relationships work is for the entire truth to be out there. Hidden things do nothing but cause distrust. The old adage, the truth shall set you free is true. It helped me to see Doc was right, about so many things and I deserved more. Vada and I promised one other to always be open and truthful, no hiding things from one another. It builds trust and we never want to distrust one another.
I also should be happy that I didn't meet all his needs for I found a man who is completely satisfied with me. I fulfill his every need. We have our friends but our friends never are more important than each other are. Our lives are balanced between friends, family and each other. Vada is everything I ever wanted in a man and more. He was a gift sent to me by God. He has taught me so much in such a small amount of time about accepting myself and forgiving myself and others but most importantly for seeing myself worthy of love and kindness.
Vada, I love him so much and no matter where our relationship goes, I will forever be eternally grateful for helping me to see myself as he sees me.