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Maggie~

I can not even begin to tell you how tired I feel. I am barely getting rest because I am trying to help Robert but then again...I really do not want to. I do not want to forget him. I do not want to go through the whole mess of falling back in love with him. I love him now...we should not need to go through that mess. I will not lie though I found three of those flowers that he needs but have yet to give them to him. Is it bad that I do not want to give them to him? Maybe it is still the words from Hamlet that is still playing on my mind but I fear giving him these and the Demi-Fae goes to work on my mind out of the thousands of people that live in this city. I mean how weird would it be to wake up next to the person you love and not realize that is who it is? I trust him when he says that he will do everything in his power to get me to fall back in love with him but why take that chance? Why not just stay away from those that want to hurt him and give them no reason to kill him? No...they try and harm him for no reason at all so no...this really is the only option for him. Damn rituals...how I hate them!

I will say that I hate not spending much time with him. Granted we do not need to spend every waking minute together because we both do work and we both have families/loved ones and friends to spend time with but with there being a threat to our relationship because of his work...I think there should be a little more for me to write in my journal about him other than I love him, he is a great guy, he has changed so much, our home is lovely, our little family is adorable (because Kaleidoscope and Noah are just amazing), and he is sexy as hell. I am trying to have reasons for why I love him so much to make this ritual crap easier. He is amazing though and he calms the voices in my mind but shoot...what telepath would not say that about someone that they care for because if they love another...they can ignore the voices (on some occasions but not all) when they are so focused on another. Oh god...this makes me sound co-dependent or dependent and that really is not the case. In fact that is part of the little fights we have because he tries to protect me and I am so stubborn. He keeps winning though...I mean hell...he has Maggie (the gun not you) in his possession with me not getting it back anytime soon.

Maybe tomorrow I will confiscate his ritual items and make him go out on a date. That is what normal couples do...right? Not just work all day like a couple of addicts and then work on plans for decorating the house... I still have to talk to Mother about all of this. I know how she feels about Robert but at the same time, I know that she wants me to be happy so a copy of the journal is definitely going to her and even against her better judgement...she would help me because she knows how happy I am with him. Though maybe I should sleep for a little bit before I go over... No...I am running out of time because even if I do not give him these three flowers that he needs, he will find more. I still need to out bid him on the Auction House for the one and hide that as well. He could always grab it before I can right before the auction ends but at least I can try...right?

Oh and I was listening to old music today...I found another song that made me think of him. It is called 'Songbird' by Fleetwood Mac. It is amazing though I needed to find a better copy of it as the ones I found on the internet are all terrible. Maybe I should hit up a record store but for now...I found a copy by this group called Glee who did an okay job. Though could they not come up with a better name for their band than Glee? Makes me think of being back in boarding school. Maybe that is their point but that is their choice. Here are the lyrics though...I think they are sweet enough that I would like to read them from time to time.


Alright well I need to run off to Mother's before I rest or I will never make it before tonight. I need to get these talks or explanations out of the way before it is too late and they can not help Robert and I. Then I can get some rest but only for a little bit. I need to run out and get more supplies for him before he wakes.

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

Maggie~

She has some nerve. That bloody twat has some real nerve. Sophia rolled up in that flashy car of hers while I was with Robert and hit him with seduction. In. Front. Of. Me. How dare her? She then played nice as if she was just trying to mend their relationship and move on to greener pastures between them. Bollocks! That woman must be high or out of her bloody mind. At least Robert now is aware of the difference or at least was able to verbalize that he knows the difference but can not help the thoughts...I can not hold him there, seduction is a tricky power as I personally know about first hand....sadly. She just makes me so angry and the stunt that she pulled this evening made it all the worse. Probably a good thing that Robert did not give me Maggie (the gun) back because I was planning on shooting her. I lied to him...for the first time ever, I lied to him. I told him that I just wanted the gun and one round to make sure that it still worked and yet...I was going to shoot that bloody twat and pray for a head shot.

I even thought to counter her seduction with one of my own to fix the situation and I failed. I never should have taken on the fadebeast but it attacked me first, broke my bones so I had to kill it...it just made me weak. I can not even tell you how frustrating that is. I am even in the process of making a list of everyone that I need to talk to about this situation because if Sophia persists...she is going to reap what she sows. So I hope that she is prepared for the consequences because now...she has just messed with the wrong woman. She can lie and act to Robert but I was not under her powers of seduction, I can see through her veil and I do not trust her. Hell I would trust Phoenix before I trust Sophia and that is throwing a dog one hell of a bone.

Oh and Roberto...Roberto... Seriously...Roberto? It is Robert....R.O.B.E.R.T...You bloody git. Robert. Get it right. I want to know what her game is. What exactly is she after? There is something specific and I am not sure if it just wanting to know all about Solace as there would be no need to seduce Robert for that, he would freely talk about Solace even with his enemies with the hopes that they would turn their life around so what -Exactly- is she after? I think I will call Pi if Sophia makes another move, she has a right to know and even get involved.

I will tell you though, Maggie...Robert was willing to come back to Mother's house. He is sleeping in my bed while I sit here and watch over him while he sleeps, making sure that he is safe since she is in a healing trance...she would not be able to act should the security alarm was set off. Though I am not even sure if Sophia has those sorts of powers but then again...if she was determined enough, I would not put it past her to get a shadow/summoner to get her in. No, I am going to try to stay awake as long as possible to keep him safe. I owe him that with the dark thoughts I had yesterday when the darkness was clouding the truth in my mind. I know that he would not leave me...especially for some trollop like her. I love him and I believe in him. I have faith in Lux. All of this is going to turn out just fine...this is just another bump in the road.

I will talk to you later, Maggie...I want to keep a close eye on him. I will let you know more later. Hopefully he does not leave before talking with me first but who knows...he might have some ritual that is a dire need and I do not have a ritual table here for him just yet. I am praying for the best and I can not even begin to tell you how much Robert and I are going to need a vacation after this.

Good-night Maggie,

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft


OOC note: When Lizzie is talking about being weak from the broken bones of the Fadebeast it's because she has an injury that is Willpower -7 putting her at Willpower of 1.))

Maggie~

Yesterday was a great day. Robert woke me up from the chair that I was sleeping in as I watched over him from Sophia's seduction. He carried me to bed and we talked. I convinced him to stay in so that I could ensure that he was safe...well at least for one day anyway. Actually...yes, for one day as she stuck her harlot fangs into him once again. I have faith in him and in us. I know that in the end everything will be okay. We did a lot of talking, much of it was very heart. There were words and feelings that I would forever cherish. I love him so much.

Now for todays events...I started off the day giving Robert items for his rituals. I had most of it but Kittens and Moonstones. I told him that I would be right back but on my way back from the shop, I got overly tired and needed to rest but only for a few ticks. When I was rested enough that I could get to him, he was gone. I thought it was strange but then again, it was not as he is a busy man. I did not think anything of it really after that especially when Rocklin called a Kaie-Carden meeting. I went to the meeting, listened and made comments were they were appropriate but I was distracted. Rocklin even confiscated my phone because I was playing with it but when he did that, I could not help but let him take it and then check the Crow. Now this is where it gets weird...there was a new message on the Croft CrowNet. It is so rare that there are messages that I had to look and it was from Robert.....about Sophia.

Robert Pratt wrote:Family - At least I hope I can call you that because that is what you are to me more than any others have ever been. I feel that we should ally ourselves with Sophia and help her in any way that we can. She has reached out to me and asked for peace and this is a huge step in her coming into the Light. If we can help her on her way then I think she will be an asset to us all. The woman is intelligent and brave, amazing and wonderful and I don't think you could ask for more in a friend. Lizzie has accepted her as a friend and she's actually the one who suggested I do this. Lizzie is amazing, my only, my love and I'm so proud of her and how far she's come on her path!

I have no idea as to what he was thinking here. I checked his memories and guess what I found. Sophia...******* Sophia. Yes, I know that I just used a curse word and I am sorry but I am just so angry with her. I will admit that I was happy to see that she had issues getting the power to take effect as she failed three times, then it landed. I am not sure as to why she used bewitch to attack him first and I am not sure why she used confuse on him but maybe that is why he thought I had brunette hair when we spoke. I am confused as to what is going on and I want to get Pi's opinion as to what she thinks is going on but Sophia...her intentions are not of a good heart and I want her stopped.

I am praying to Lux each day that we come out of this okay. That everything will be resolved and everyone that we care about will be safe and happy. Though I can not even express how much I hate...-HATE- the seduction power and I would never admit to Robert that it being used on him scares the ever loving hell out of me because I know what that power is like. I was active in the Worthington Bloodline when it happened to me and it ruined everything. I will state here and now that I would never take the action that Jacob Regan did with me as I could never walk away from Robert. I know that this is not his fault and I know that he can not entirely help himself but this is where his friends and family come into play to help and support him.

Robert is home and safe right now, though he came home with a fork in his neck. Not really sure what happened there but he could not tell me anything. I took care of the wound and then cleaned up the vomit on the floor that he so kindly put there. Noah and Kaleidoscope are cuddled up with him. I might go and see if Pi is at the Necropolis or maybe at her office while he rests. In fact...I get a lot of meetings taken care of while he rests.

I will talk with you later, Maggie.

Yours Always,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

Maggie~

Please forgive me...this particular entry is for Robert. I will write to you later. I promise.

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft




Robert~

After the small amount of communication that we had yesterday and realizing that I disappointed you yet again, I wonder how I can make things right without pushing you away or making you think that I will yet again slip. I have always thought that I was getting better and my path to enlightenment was bright but there are the unexpected moments that I feel that I have failed yet again. I try and do all that I can to better myself and make you proud of me but there are times that I struggle a great deal. I am not sure what to do?

I love you so terribly much that it hurts when you are in pain, upset, or even angered with me. There are the times that you are away and I think nothing of you while trying to focus on my work. I am not entirely complaining because I love the thoughts that I have about you and how you make me feel...warm and alive as if I was still mortal. It is bazaar but amazing nonetheless. The love I have for you, I feel that I can take on the world and conquer anything that my heart desires and yet...I do not want to do it without you because I want to share every exciting moment with you. You have given me so much joy and love in the short amount of time that I feel that one of these days I will wake and it has vanished but then again that is my paranoia and the thoughts from the Darkness lately have not helped with that so much. Just the love we have shared and expressed is so amazing and I am grateful for Solace as it gives us the ability to spread that love to others. There is so much good that could be done.

If I had it my way, I would not spend another waking moment without you but 1. I know that is unrealistic and 2. it sounds incredibly clingy which is not how I would hope us to be. Well...a little cling is okay but the attached at the hip to the point we make everyone around us want to vomit because we are too good and sweet together at all times. It would be entertaining but then again...I would feel compelled to clean up after them as it would be partially my fault and that is not so entertaining. Oh God...now I am rambling. So sorry. I did hear a song recently that made me think of you...it does go back to all that mushy lovey stuff but who cares...this is my journal right? I can say anything I like. I will share the words with you.



I am so sorry for upsetting you and making you disappointed in me. I am trying so hard to make you happy and proud but hopefully we can work on it together. I want to give you everything you deserve and much more. You deserve all that this world has to offer, why not reach out and take it. As I told you the other day, it is all love and compassion and I quote (as well from the other day) "Change is a good thing and just think. You can use this new feeling to enhance Solace. You can not effectively be peace-loving as Solace is to those in the city if you feel hate so often." Reach for the stars, my love and I will stand by your side as long as you desire me to do so. All I ask...is not be angry with me unless you tell me why you may be upset...I hate that you get upset and I am left in the dark as to why. I will always love you, here and now, always and forever, though thick and through thin. I am going to go as I feel that you are going to wake soon, you shift a little more when you are close to waking...it is really cute to be honest but gives me warning to expect you soon.

Eternally Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

((God-mod permissions have been given by Robert's player while they are away due to health and the holidays. If there are any questions or concerns, I can be reached via PM or yim and Robert's player can be reached after the 27th of Dec. Thank you!))

Dear Maggie~

Life has been quiet at home for the last week. It has been amazing and Robert & I have been able to spend the time together as a family that we should have already been able to do. The other day he started a fire in the library fire place and then we put the Christmas tree up. You should have seen Kaleidoscope and Noah playing with the ornaments and garland. So cute! Awfully playful too as I have to keep ID out of the Christmas tree. She keeps climbing it. I think she is more excited about the tree than Robert and I were. We even decorated the rest of the house and have a Christmas tree downstairs in the main room. Everything looks so festive and it is nice to relax at home with him. It is our perfect little life. I could not be happier.

Isidora is even thinking about staying with us which I think is a good thing. She needs family right now given that her and Liam put off their wedding for later down the road. She needs time with herself and family without having the pressures of outside forces trying to cause chaos and drama. I already set up the spare room for her and told her to let me know when she was stopping by so I could let her in.

Oh and great news!! I might have the art gallery by christmas if not shortly after because I am so close to getting it. It is fabulous news and I am getting super excited about it. I am even thinking of putting an apartment upstairs so that gives Robert and I another place to stay especially if the vultures are looking for him but West Tower will always be our main home. It has everything that we need.

Everything is falling into place and I really am in a good spot right now. I could not be any happier...at least that I know of because Robert surprises me with the little things each day. He really is an amazing man.

Well I am going to go. We have shopping to do and we might go caroling later. It will be so pretty with the snowflakes dancing around us since the weather man forecasted flurries tonight. It will be great!

Yours always,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft