Diary of the Sweetheart

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

I can not even begin to tell you how tired I feel. I am barely getting rest because I am trying to help Robert but then again...I really do not want to. I do not want to forget him. I do not want to go through the whole mess of falling back in love with him. I love him now...we should not need to go through that mess. I will not lie though I found three of those flowers that he needs but have yet to give them to him. Is it bad that I do not want to give them to him? Maybe it is still the words from Hamlet that is still playing on my mind but I fear giving him these and the Demi-Fae goes to work on my mind out of the thousands of people that live in this city. I mean how weird would it be to wake up next to the person you love and not realize that is who it is? I trust him when he says that he will do everything in his power to get me to fall back in love with him but why take that chance? Why not just stay away from those that want to hurt him and give them no reason to kill him? No...they try and harm him for no reason at all so no...this really is the only option for him. Damn rituals...how I hate them!

I will say that I hate not spending much time with him. Granted we do not need to spend every waking minute together because we both do work and we both have families/loved ones and friends to spend time with but with there being a threat to our relationship because of his work...I think there should be a little more for me to write in my journal about him other than I love him, he is a great guy, he has changed so much, our home is lovely, our little family is adorable (because Kaleidoscope and Noah are just amazing), and he is sexy as hell. I am trying to have reasons for why I love him so much to make this ritual crap easier. He is amazing though and he calms the voices in my mind but shoot...what telepath would not say that about someone that they care for because if they love another...they can ignore the voices (on some occasions but not all) when they are so focused on another. Oh god...this makes me sound co-dependent or dependent and that really is not the case. In fact that is part of the little fights we have because he tries to protect me and I am so stubborn. He keeps winning though...I mean hell...he has Maggie (the gun not you) in his possession with me not getting it back anytime soon.

Maybe tomorrow I will confiscate his ritual items and make him go out on a date. That is what normal couples do...right? Not just work all day like a couple of addicts and then work on plans for decorating the house... I still have to talk to Mother about all of this. I know how she feels about Robert but at the same time, I know that she wants me to be happy so a copy of the journal is definitely going to her and even against her better judgement...she would help me because she knows how happy I am with him. Though maybe I should sleep for a little bit before I go over... No...I am running out of time because even if I do not give him these three flowers that he needs, he will find more. I still need to out bid him on the Auction House for the one and hide that as well. He could always grab it before I can right before the auction ends but at least I can try...right?

Oh and I was listening to old music today...I found another song that made me think of him. It is called 'Songbird' by Fleetwood Mac. It is amazing though I needed to find a better copy of it as the ones I found on the internet are all terrible. Maybe I should hit up a record store but for now...I found a copy by this group called Glee who did an okay job. Though could they not come up with a better name for their band than Glee? Makes me think of being back in boarding school. Maybe that is their point but that is their choice. Here are the lyrics though...I think they are sweet enough that I would like to read them from time to time.

'Songbird'
By: Fleetwood Mac

For you, there'll be no more crying,
For you, the sun will be shining,
And I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right

To you, I'll give the world
To you, I'll never be cold
'Cause I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right.

And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.

And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it from myself.

And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before, like never before.

Alright well I need to run off to Mother's before I rest or I will never make it before tonight. I need to get these talks or explanations out of the way before it is too late and they can not help Robert and I. Then I can get some rest but only for a little bit. I need to run out and get more supplies for him before he wakes.

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

I can not even explain to you all of the anger and sadness that I feel. I know that it is a power but it is a power that deals with ones mind and emotions. I do not like it and I do not like that it affected Robert. Maybe it was just how he just seemed that I was no one important. Maggie...he acted like we were just roommates even though I am sure that he assumed we would still share the same bed together. No...that was not going to happen especially if there was a possibility that he thought that I was Sophia.

Now Sophia...all of the negative thoughts that I hold for her are not even healthy. There are so many dark and evil thoughts that are running through my head that I am fighting against acting. I am even staying at Aure and Mother's place to ensure that I will not act irrationally but the more that his words play upon my mind, the more that I want to act out against her to find out what in the bloody hell she was thinking and why did she feel that she needed to use a power to know about Solace. Then how he described her assets as if they were God's gift to this world. Please, the thought just makes me sick to my stomach. I can not even believe that he thinks that she would even want to get close to him. Jesus...why did I not save my magical power to be able to try and counter the seduction with one of my own. Oh...I know why, I had not clue that this was going to happen and I was doing a job that gave me a $5K profit. Who would not use their abilities for such a gain.

Well...I am sitting here in Mother's home in Beta Towers...alone, frustrated, and boy do I just want to cry and scream at the top of my lungs while I watch the minutes tick by until he is back to normal. I want him to call, tell me that everything will be okay, but that will not happen anytime soon. Nope...his mind swirls of Sophia while I remain in the shadows as a roommate. Shite...I forgot...he can not call if he wanted too...I sort of broke my phone and the pieces are still in the hallway of the 4th floor here in Beta Tower.

Maybe if the seduction was only an enhancement of how he really feels...then maybe it is for the better. God no! I believe in him...I have faith in him...in us. Please Lux, give me strength to not let the evils of the Darkness plague my mind and feelings with the negative nature of this event. Give me the strength to make it through this night and welcome him in my arms when I wake as every obstacle that they throw at Robert and I is only going to make us stronger. Just protect us and watch over Robert, keep him safe since I can not right now. I do love him and I do believe that deep down he loves me too, he was just affected by a power that gave him no control of his feelings. Everything will be okay but I think I am going to get some sleep because the more I stare at the clock the more excruciating it is to watch how slow time really is.

Good night and hope for a better tomorrow.

Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

P.S. I failed to mention that Phoenix was in our home. Robert let her in but his head was so far up Sophia's arse to even realize it...even when I spoke directly to her. Let me explain, she was in the form of a fox. Good thing, I was not in cheetah form due to not having enough magical power to do so or that would just have been a mess. For once...I actually cared about what she thought or did and liked it. I do not trust the woman but boy did she get brownie points this evening. She actually received a great deal of brownie points so if he harmed her in anyway, he is getting shot because she was helpless with a broken leg. I do hope he put her on the couch though because she is not going to be comfortable in the dog bed when she shifts back and I hope to god that she lets the shadows consume her so Robert is not looking at her naked body, it would be inappropriate of a gentleman. I would not be surprised if he offered some of my clothes to her but I doubt they would be tight enough for her. Anyway...I am officially going to sleep now. Promise...

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

She has some nerve. That bloody twat has some real nerve. Sophia rolled up in that flashy car of hers while I was with Robert and hit him with seduction. In. Front. Of. Me. How dare her? She then played nice as if she was just trying to mend their relationship and move on to greener pastures between them. Bollocks! That woman must be high or out of her bloody mind. At least Robert now is aware of the difference or at least was able to verbalize that he knows the difference but can not help the thoughts...I can not hold him there, seduction is a tricky power as I personally know about first hand....sadly. She just makes me so angry and the stunt that she pulled this evening made it all the worse. Probably a good thing that Robert did not give me Maggie (the gun) back because I was planning on shooting her. I lied to him...for the first time ever, I lied to him. I told him that I just wanted the gun and one round to make sure that it still worked and yet...I was going to shoot that bloody twat and pray for a head shot.

I even thought to counter her seduction with one of my own to fix the situation and I failed. I never should have taken on the fadebeast but it attacked me first, broke my bones so I had to kill it...it just made me weak. I can not even tell you how frustrating that is. I am even in the process of making a list of everyone that I need to talk to about this situation because if Sophia persists...she is going to reap what she sows. So I hope that she is prepared for the consequences because now...she has just messed with the wrong woman. She can lie and act to Robert but I was not under her powers of seduction, I can see through her veil and I do not trust her. Hell I would trust Phoenix before I trust Sophia and that is throwing a dog one hell of a bone.

Oh and Roberto...Roberto... Seriously...Roberto? It is Robert....R.O.B.E.R.T...You bloody git. Robert. Get it right. I want to know what her game is. What exactly is she after? There is something specific and I am not sure if it just wanting to know all about Solace as there would be no need to seduce Robert for that, he would freely talk about Solace even with his enemies with the hopes that they would turn their life around so what -Exactly- is she after? I think I will call Pi if Sophia makes another move, she has a right to know and even get involved.

I will tell you though, Maggie...Robert was willing to come back to Mother's house. He is sleeping in my bed while I sit here and watch over him while he sleeps, making sure that he is safe since she is in a healing trance...she would not be able to act should the security alarm was set off. Though I am not even sure if Sophia has those sorts of powers but then again...if she was determined enough, I would not put it past her to get a shadow/summoner to get her in. No, I am going to try to stay awake as long as possible to keep him safe. I owe him that with the dark thoughts I had yesterday when the darkness was clouding the truth in my mind. I know that he would not leave me...especially for some trollop like her. I love him and I believe in him. I have faith in Lux. All of this is going to turn out just fine...this is just another bump in the road.

I will talk to you later, Maggie...I want to keep a close eye on him. I will let you know more later. Hopefully he does not leave before talking with me first but who knows...he might have some ritual that is a dire need and I do not have a ritual table here for him just yet. I am praying for the best and I can not even begin to tell you how much Robert and I are going to need a vacation after this.

Good-night Maggie,

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft


OOC note: When Lizzie is talking about being weak from the broken bones of the Fadebeast it's because she has an injury that is Willpower -7 putting her at Willpower of 1.))

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

Yesterday was a great day. Robert woke me up from the chair that I was sleeping in as I watched over him from Sophia's seduction. He carried me to bed and we talked. I convinced him to stay in so that I could ensure that he was safe...well at least for one day anyway. Actually...yes, for one day as she stuck her harlot fangs into him once again. I have faith in him and in us. I know that in the end everything will be okay. We did a lot of talking, much of it was very heart. There were words and feelings that I would forever cherish. I love him so much.

Now for todays events...I started off the day giving Robert items for his rituals. I had most of it but Kittens and Moonstones. I told him that I would be right back but on my way back from the shop, I got overly tired and needed to rest but only for a few ticks. When I was rested enough that I could get to him, he was gone. I thought it was strange but then again, it was not as he is a busy man. I did not think anything of it really after that especially when Rocklin called a Kaie-Carden meeting. I went to the meeting, listened and made comments were they were appropriate but I was distracted. Rocklin even confiscated my phone because I was playing with it but when he did that, I could not help but let him take it and then check the Crow. Now this is where it gets weird...there was a new message on the Croft CrowNet. It is so rare that there are messages that I had to look and it was from Robert.....about Sophia.

Family - At least I hope I can call you that because that is what you are to me more than any others have ever been. I feel that we should ally ourselves with Sophia and help her in any way that we can. She has reached out to me and asked for peace and this is a huge step in her coming into the Light. If we can help her on her way then I think she will be an asset to us all. The woman is intelligent and brave, amazing and wonderful and I don't think you could ask for more in a friend. Lizzie has accepted her as a friend and she's actually the one who suggested I do this. Lizzie is amazing, my only, my love and I'm so proud of her and how far she's come on her path!

I have no idea as to what he was thinking here. I checked his memories and guess what I found. Sophia...******* Sophia. Yes, I know that I just used a curse word and I am sorry but I am just so angry with her. I will admit that I was happy to see that she had issues getting the power to take effect as she failed three times, then it landed. I am not sure as to why she used bewitch to attack him first and I am not sure why she used confuse on him but maybe that is why he thought I had brunette hair when we spoke. I am confused as to what is going on and I want to get Pi's opinion as to what she thinks is going on but Sophia...her intentions are not of a good heart and I want her stopped.

I am praying to Lux each day that we come out of this okay. That everything will be resolved and everyone that we care about will be safe and happy. Though I can not even express how much I hate...-HATE- the seduction power and I would never admit to Robert that it being used on him scares the ever loving hell out of me because I know what that power is like. I was active in the Worthington Bloodline when it happened to me and it ruined everything. I will state here and now that I would never take the action that Jacob Regan did with me as I could never walk away from Robert. I know that this is not his fault and I know that he can not entirely help himself but this is where his friends and family come into play to help and support him.

Robert is home and safe right now, though he came home with a fork in his neck. Not really sure what happened there but he could not tell me anything. I took care of the wound and then cleaned up the vomit on the floor that he so kindly put there. Noah and Kaleidoscope are cuddled up with him. I might go and see if Pi is at the Necropolis or maybe at her office while he rests. In fact...I get a lot of meetings taken care of while he rests.

I will talk with you later, Maggie.

Yours Always,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

Please forgive me...this particular entry is for Robert. I will write to you later. I promise.

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

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Robert~

After the small amount of communication that we had yesterday and realizing that I disappointed you yet again, I wonder how I can make things right without pushing you away or making you think that I will yet again slip. I have always thought that I was getting better and my path to enlightenment was bright but there are the unexpected moments that I feel that I have failed yet again. I try and do all that I can to better myself and make you proud of me but there are times that I struggle a great deal. I am not sure what to do?

I love you so terribly much that it hurts when you are in pain, upset, or even angered with me. There are the times that you are away and I think nothing of you while trying to focus on my work. I am not entirely complaining because I love the thoughts that I have about you and how you make me feel...warm and alive as if I was still mortal. It is bazaar but amazing nonetheless. The love I have for you, I feel that I can take on the world and conquer anything that my heart desires and yet...I do not want to do it without you because I want to share every exciting moment with you. You have given me so much joy and love in the short amount of time that I feel that one of these days I will wake and it has vanished but then again that is my paranoia and the thoughts from the Darkness lately have not helped with that so much. Just the love we have shared and expressed is so amazing and I am grateful for Solace as it gives us the ability to spread that love to others. There is so much good that could be done.

If I had it my way, I would not spend another waking moment without you but 1. I know that is unrealistic and 2. it sounds incredibly clingy which is not how I would hope us to be. Well...a little cling is okay but the attached at the hip to the point we make everyone around us want to vomit because we are too good and sweet together at all times. It would be entertaining but then again...I would feel compelled to clean up after them as it would be partially my fault and that is not so entertaining. Oh God...now I am rambling. So sorry. I did hear a song recently that made me think of you...it does go back to all that mushy lovey stuff but who cares...this is my journal right? I can say anything I like. I will share the words with you.

A Thousand Years
By: Christina Perri

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

I am so sorry for upsetting you and making you disappointed in me. I am trying so hard to make you happy and proud but hopefully we can work on it together. I want to give you everything you deserve and much more. You deserve all that this world has to offer, why not reach out and take it. As I told you the other day, it is all love and compassion and I quote (as well from the other day) "Change is a good thing and just think. You can use this new feeling to enhance Solace. You can not effectively be peace-loving as Solace is to those in the city if you feel hate so often." Reach for the stars, my love and I will stand by your side as long as you desire me to do so. All I ask...is not be angry with me unless you tell me why you may be upset...I hate that you get upset and I am left in the dark as to why. I will always love you, here and now, always and forever, though thick and through thin. I am going to go as I feel that you are going to wake soon, you shift a little more when you are close to waking...it is really cute to be honest but gives me warning to expect you soon.

Eternally Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

The last several days have been interesting and yet I would not have changed a thing about it. I honestly feel that this city is misguided about Robert. They fail to see the changes that he has gone through. He is a good man now and not the trouble making blood thief that he was before. He has evolved into something so much more and has so much meaning, hopes, desires, and ambitions. I want the world for him and I will help him get there...help him reach his goals because there is so much good that we can do. We can help so many people and spread the Light to those in the Darkness, filling their heart and soul with beautiful blessings of Lux.

Robert has been hiding because of the close-minded thoughts and ideals of the city. People tracking him that have no reason to do so...well outside of Malachai but I had hoped that his anger would calm down after a bit of time but I am not so sure that actually is the case. If Malachai is still angry then I can not honestly say that i can blame him given the accusation that was presented to me that was made by Robert but then again I was not there and do not know the entirety of the reason for such assumptions, I just know that both Echo and Malachai had spoken to me about it. I am trying to resolve this so that we could all move on safely as I really do not wish to see him in the Realm of Shadows again. He has already died far too many times.

Oh! Speaking on Robert's many deaths...I spoke with Rocklin and he swore that I had a hand in Robert's first death back in June. I argued with this fact because I knew that I had not. Besides...how awkward would it be to be in such a relationship that Robert and I have if I had helped kill him. Honestly...I think I would be apologizing to him every hour of the day even if he said that he had forgiven me because I would have felt so terrible. I know there are several that I had my hand in killing and I can not honestly remember who all of them are but I know for 100% sure that I had not killed Robert. Thank Lux for that.

Though this is where I should probably state why I knew that I had not...Rocklin killed those that helped the blood thieves and yes I was in Kaie-Carden then but I had never gone on those runs. One I had not known about those particular kills but I also secretly aided the blood thieves, giving them blood in exchange for the generous amount of money offered. I know that I am not a liar but this was the one thing I lied about because I was protecting myself. I told everyone that they were bad and that we needed to kill them all because I was protecting my family of the Croft lineage, keeping them safe but had not cared too much about what would happen to myself should they have found out. I know that is terrible but I was doing what I felt was right. Just like now...Rocklin was on the verge of killing me because I talk with humans as if there is not a difference between them and what I am. My best friend is human but then again...I did get to know her after I bewitched her but I would protect her with my life. Molly is amazing, she is part of my family.

I know there is a difference but why can we not live in harmony?

Why do we have to act like wild animals with the mindset that we are at the top of the food chain when we are not anymore...the Necurats are. (Which Rocklin also wanted to kill Serendipity and myself for feeding Necurats. I blame the Elders and their close-minded rules for this but we are in the clear now.) I only feed enough to feel full but I do not kill humans out of shear greed or bloodlust. No...I save the bloodlust that builds for the bullets within my gun to use against those that are against me and mine. I know that sounds Dark but it is defensive measures as I would to anything to keep my family protected. This very much includes Robert because I would die for him if it meant that he was safe. Robert has figured that out which is why now that those that actively track him, he hides and even hides from me. He does not let me know where he is but to be honest no matter how much I hate it...it is for the best. I do not even stay at our West home when they are tracking him because I would prefer to keep that home free of violence. I stay at Beta because one...I know that he will not stay there...why would he since the first and last time he was there, Tytonidae barged in and robbed him and Heather from my grasp to kill them brutally in the open streets of the city. So let them try tracking him through me...they will not find him and just think, they will have one hell of a time the moment that I get untraceable as well as the ability to summon him. They will not have the chance to touch him. I am hopeful for this.

Oh speaking of summoning. We did break the rules of staying apart when he hides. Well he chose to break them which I was grateful for because I missed him but we were texting back and forth (which I am getting better at by the way) and just when I was getting everything set up for a vacation to the Vathiá until this blew over and he was able to be at home, he summoned me from the comforts of my Beta home into his loving and welcoming embrace. It was the most amazing surprise (short lived as now I am back at the Beta home) that he could have ever given me. I am truly happy with him and love him a million times over.

I will talk with you later, Maggie. I need to keep moving to get my training in. I need to be able to protect my family and the harder I train...the better I am able to accomplish this. Oh, I should state that I got a call from Molly this morning. Aure seems to have bought me a new gun that is better than the SMG MP-5 that I have been using. I think that was very sweet of him and I am going to have to tell him thank you when I see him. I think I will make appoint to do that today.

Have a good day, Maggie.

Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

((God-mod permissions have been given by Robert's player while they are away due to health and the holidays. If there are any questions or concerns, I can be reached via PM or yim and Robert's player can be reached after the 27th of Dec. Thank you!))

Dear Maggie~

Life has been quiet at home for the last week. It has been amazing and Robert & I have been able to spend the time together as a family that we should have already been able to do. The other day he started a fire in the library fire place and then we put the Christmas tree up. You should have seen Kaleidoscope and Noah playing with the ornaments and garland. So cute! Awfully playful too as I have to keep ID out of the Christmas tree. She keeps climbing it. I think she is more excited about the tree than Robert and I were. We even decorated the rest of the house and have a Christmas tree downstairs in the main room. Everything looks so festive and it is nice to relax at home with him. It is our perfect little life. I could not be happier.

Isidora is even thinking about staying with us which I think is a good thing. She needs family right now given that her and Liam put off their wedding for later down the road. She needs time with herself and family without having the pressures of outside forces trying to cause chaos and drama. I already set up the spare room for her and told her to let me know when she was stopping by so I could let her in.

Oh and great news!! I might have the art gallery by christmas if not shortly after because I am so close to getting it. It is fabulous news and I am getting super excited about it. I am even thinking of putting an apartment upstairs so that gives Robert and I another place to stay especially if the vultures are looking for him but West Tower will always be our main home. It has everything that we need.

Everything is falling into place and I really am in a good spot right now. I could not be any happier...at least that I know of because Robert surprises me with the little things each day. He really is an amazing man.

Well I am going to go. We have shopping to do and we might go caroling later. It will be so pretty with the snowflakes dancing around us since the weather man forecasted flurries tonight. It will be great!

Yours always,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

I finally have the keys to the art gallery in my hand. It is an amazing feeling and a huge accomplishment. Now I just need to work on getting it renovated but that will come in time. Right now it is decorated for the holidays. It looks amazing. I am so incredibly happy and I can not wait to show the rest of my family and friends. This is something for everyone and I got the one place that I have been trying to purchase in such a long while. If you ask me...this is the best Christmas ever. I have an amazing man at my side, an amazing family, and now a wonderful business that I can share with the entire city.

I have to admit though the time spent at home has been great and done wonders for Robert because he looks great when he is relaxed. Not that he does not look great any other day because he is a stunning man but stress does make people look older than what they really are. He is happy and free. He has even taken time off from rituals but I know that is only for the holidays. He has gotten really good at them but everything is good in moderation.

I have been thinking about that meeting with Malachai, Echo, and River. I have not heard back from River and I do not know what is to come of it. Has it been put on hold for the holidays? Has it already happened and River decided that I would not be apart of it even though I am Robert's family. I just worry about the outcome. I really do not want him to get hurt but we will have to see. I just feel a little at odds because Robert is my companion and family. Then there is Malachai who is also my family and has been for a very long time. I really would not like that they fight but Mal was greatly offended by Robert. I just hope for a calm resolution. I will just have to wait and see but it does not stop me from praying for a good outcome.

Oh! I should tell you that Kaleidoscope has made a permanent home in the christmas trees. I know that I told you that she was climbing them, well now, she climbs them only to snuggle up and go to sleep. I can not keep her out of them. Though when she comes out, she sparkles from the flakes of glitter that rubs off on her from the ornaments. She cracks me up and Noah is just as bad but he waits for her to come out of the tree and then chases her to shake all the glitter off onto the floor. Cute to watch but leaves quite the mess.

Okay well I need to think of christmas gifts and possibly run to the store. I know there is an email that I need to send out to Wolf for a set of gift certificates. I will talk to you later.

Always yours,

Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Maggie~

I got confirmation back from Wolf today that the gifts have been sent out. It was a day earlier than I had expected but that is amazing. At least one set of gifts have been taken care. Now I just have to actually let the employees at the gallery do the job that they have been doing since before I took it over just so Molly and I can go shopping. I want this year to be special. I ignored last year, not sure why because I was newly married but I think it was during one of those times that Erik and I were not talking but let us not thing about that now. I am in a much better place now..much much better place. Robert is more than I could have ever expected. I feel truly lucky no matter if this city thinks otherwise.

I am getting excited about the holidays. I just wish everyone would be home but I do not think that I am going to get that. I miss my siblings. I want to see Brae, Riley and Dyson. I have not even talked to Dyson since he joined Solace but maybe he is just training a lot because I run past him in the sewers from time to time. I bet he is strong now and depending on what his skills are will depend on where he can help out in Solace. I am glad that I can spend time with him with something that I love and I hope that he embraces that Light of Lux like I have but I will not pressure him into it. I will be there for him, answer questions that he might have and support him every step of the way. I have faith and patience.

Is it bad that I do not know what to get everyone for Christmas? I will be spending hours at the mall and yet...I do not even know what I am looking for. What does everyone like that they do not already have. Jewelry, electronics, clothes, or power tools...I do not know. I just hope that I get the right gift and that they like it. Is it bad that I fear that I am a bad gift giver? I mean...is it bad that I started off thinking negative because I got gift certificates to the VN. Granted they offer several services but we call them often for heals. The gift certificates were a small price to pay to keep my family safe. I love each one of them. I have an idea or two for Robert though and he could even use the one for Solace. I have time...there is 12 days till Christmas. That is plenty of time...right?

I have to go shopping....I actually have to make it to the mall this time and not stop at the gallery. I kind of turned into a workaholic. I need to make time for my family. Just like I thought about Robert and his rituals...everything is better in moderation but I think it is different when you are the owner. I do not know. I will talk to Robert about it when I get home. I will have to get the presents gift wrapped at the mall so he does not sneak peeks while I am wrapping them just in case he is not working at Solace the day I decide to wrap them. Nope...I am planning ahead. Someone would wrap them for me, I will give them a considerable donation towards their organization and be done with it.

Okay...seriously...I am going now. I will talk to you later and tell you what I got everyone. Good thing Robert does not read you unless I make him and even then it is like pulling teeth. I love him! He is so careful about giving me privacy even though I have nothing to hide from him. Night Maggie!

Always yours,

Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft

[Elizabeth Constance]

Dear Maggie~

Today is Christmas eve and I am sitting at the Gallery. It has grown rather quiet given the holiday and as a generous employeer...I gave my employees the day off to spend with their families. There really is not much going on given that it is the holidays and there has not been any visitors in the last several hours so why would I not be able to handle the gallery on my own. I am just working on the set up for the Dalí exhibit. Besides, if I need any help, I could call Molly but I gave her the night off as well. She has been working so hard to help me get the gallery up off the ground with the change in management while helping everyone calm as they feared losing their jobs. I would never do that. I just wanted to own and run the gallery, does not mean that I would fire everyone to do so especially since the gallery was my Christmas present to myself. Who fires people during the holidays? If there is anyone out there that does then I will say right now that they are heartless. Nope, I am keeping them and even gave them a nice fat bonus to help with their holiday bills, feasts, or even for the last minute presents.

Presents!! That reminds me. I finally finished my Christmas shopping. I had gotten Isidora alovely pearl necklace, Serendipity got a beautiful open heart necklace, Aure received one of those new gaming consoles...a Wii U I think it was called and even got Madison a Google Nexus. I have not seen it yet but I am waiting for Madison to throw it back in my face like she did with the gift certificate. The gift certificates all went to Aure, Serendipity, Pi, Madison, Jacob (regan), Aria, Isidora, Oria, Robert, Rocklin, and Etienne. I wanted to get Pi something more but was not sure what to get her. Robert said he would take care of that for me and get her a joint gift which I am grateful for as he knows her better than I do.

I will not lie though Maggie...Robert made out like a bandit and does not even know it yet. I am going to wait to give them to him until we are able to get some alone time as he has been busy at Solace with feeding, clothing, and tending to the city homeless. I have stopped in to help but for a few hours so I can come back to the gallery to make sure everything is running smoothly. I should think about getting security in here just to help when I am away. I will tell you what I got him though but let us pray that he does not decide to read you for once since I granted him permission how many different times between now and the time he gets his gifts. I got him a nice large HD TV, an iPad mini to help keep him organized with Solace or other events/engagements that he might need to keep (I have a matching one myself to help with Solace, the gallery, and things to keep track of though I got sucked into some strange game called Angry Birds), and his final gift is his black Rolex. I hope he likes them. I took a picture of the television with the iPad as I would not be able to carry that with me should we have Christmas together at our Solace apartment.

Now that I think about it Maggie. I never did tell you how the event with the children went. It was the most amazing evening yet this holiday season. The look on their faces when they saw that I had done for them. It was incredibly heart warming. I love those kids and if I could take every one of them home, I would. They are amazing and with my help...they are going to grow up to be amazing citizens with good heads on their shoulders. I would be surprised if I hear any of them getting sent to jail because they are getting a proper education and learning the importance of staying out of trouble. Maybe I should work on buying the orphanage too. Not sure yet but that will be something that I will talk over with Robert as maybe it can be an us investment or a Solace project. I do not know...I think I have time to worry about all of that though it would not matter much right now as I fund a good deal of the orphanage now. They are good kids and deserve the best.

I will talk to you later Maggie. I am going to go and take inventory of the paintings in the basement.

Yours Always,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft