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Posted: **07 Dec 2015, 01:55**

I'm still very happy that I have started Origenes. I enjoy my nights there. I feel like I finally have found a place; even if it's alongside with mortals. I think once things settle down, I will continue to bring some of my own background and lifestyle to Haper Rock. Variety is the spice of life they say.

I have joined some school for young vampires. I was a little unsure of how useful it would be. How beneficial it could be, or if they would even let me join. I don't know what a fledgling is, or if I would qualify because I have been around for a little while now. But they did and here I am. We had our first 'exam,' and I was nervous because I did not hear anything back. But Blake says everyone did fine. They're talking about fighting or something. I don't think I want to take part in that. I've seen enough bloodshed in my nights as a human and early nights as a vampire.

I'm glad I joined it, even if I don't say much to anyone. In the short time I've been there, I've learned more than I have in the months with anyone else. I feel bad for Blake and Niklaus and the others who are there to learn or to teach people things. I saw this post on Crownet that wasn't nice. I'm no candy cane and kisses girl all the time, but I can say that they've helped me more than anyone else has in the city. I don't know if that will always be the case, but for now, I will accept anything they want to share. I think having Blake and Niklaus as teachers was a good idea. They're both easy to talk to-even if one talks a little more, I don't know the word, formal? than the other. Sometimes I don't understand everything Blake says in the Academy. Sometimes it takes me a couple nights of reading it to understand what he is saying. I wonder if he talks like that in person, or if he's just like that on pen and paper. Or on the internet.

I think I'll look for another person to hire tomorrow. With the increase in customers, I might need a janitor. I don't want to spend my entire night there.

Posted: **14 Dec 2015, 01:48**

Origenes is becoming very profitable. Steadily profitable. I bring home over one thousand dollars a night, which I think it good. In a week I will make about eight thousand dollars. I don't think that is anything to complain about. I didn't think I could ever make a business run as well as it has been, due to my lack of credentials on running anything-but maybe since it is something I know; something I am familiar with, that has helped me become semi-successful.

I briefly met Blake tonight. He gave me a lot of weapon parts. I wonder if I should be concerned with someone who carries around that many weapons? At either rate, I will use them and become familiar with the parts of a blade and forge them into something spectacular. I already made one thing this evening from the parts he has given me, while some of the other swords have been broken down and I have salvaged what I can from the process.

It's not anything special or fancy, but I think it could hurt someone, if that was what it was needed for. Sometimes I think just a little intimidation goes a long way. Mi padre was a very intimidating man, and only had to take things to the extreme just a couple times a year.

I thought Blake would be different? Older, maybe. He talks like he is older. The things he says in the Academy. He speaks very refined. That's what it is. Refined. We didn't chat long, just enough to make introductions and then we went our own ways. And now I'm trying to get rid of things I've been holding on to since I'm dragging all these parts around the city, to forges and abandoned buildings so I can craft things too.

Posted: **17 Dec 2015, 04:04**

I won the city lottery today. Don't get too excited, it wasn't anything big to get me closer to my return back to Mexico. But I won more than I put in by a few thousand dollars, so it's still a good win.

I put an ad up in the school. I don't think anyone wants or needs anything. I might just end up selling it all after all. Not much I want to hang on to or do anything with.

I don't know how to thank Blake for all the parts, so I've decided to inspire him for a little while. I don't think all the money in my account would cover what he gave to me.

I thought about decorating Elighan's old apartment for the holidays but have decided against it. Too much time and effort for just me. Maybe I could get a tiny desk tree and put it up on a counter in the cafè. Those prelit, no muss, no fuss.

Posted: **19 Dec 2015, 03:36**

I met with a guide at some restaurant tonight. That punta can talk a lot. I'm not trying to be her friend or anything, but she wanted to tell me a lot of things. I think she might be muy loco. I didn't understand any of it. I think she's old, was old. She reminded me of Blake. I wonder if Blake is an 'elder.' I don't think he is-but the way he talks and writes makes me think different.

I was scrolling through my phone looking for ideas on how to decorate Christmas trees, while eating Chinese and talking with this guide when I came on this. At first I thought it was muy estupido, but then I thought...this woman might be on to something. If you're the cheap, slutty type anyways.

I could see her saying, "Lift my skirt to see my presents," or something. I did not order it-but that's how bored I was with talking with the wraith guide. I could have just left, I guess, but-what else would I do? Talk to Winny? I talk to her almost every night. The conversations are not always the most stimulating.

So after an hour of eating and chatting, I finally left with the knowledge on something called 'Killer.' That's what she teaches. I think I accidentally went to the wrong guide. Ooops. I don't want to learn to kill things. Aren't there people who can do that sort of thing for me?

I finally picked up my Christmas Tree!

I haven't decorated it yet, but I'll think of something. Maybe put a couple hats on it or something. Why should I pay good money to throw a dying tree away in week or two, when I can have something for much longer? And if Elighan ever comes back and he hates it? I don't care. He left and now the apartment is mine until I find a better one. He can suck it. Along with the majority of the male population in Harper Rock.

I've been debating on just dating/screwing women, since I've had my taste of both genders. I have come up with some pretty good arguments in favor for it. 1. As long as we are close in size and she has good taste, we can borrow each others clothes. 2. It will always smell good in the apartment. Women smell good. 3. Nail polish, eye shadow and hair supplies-also interchangeable. 4. Shoes and purses can be swapped-again, if she's the same size or close to. In the shoes department that is. 5. Women are just better lovers. Let's face it-it's true. I haven't thought of any cons yet, but this thought is also fleeting. I don't think I'm interested in 'dating,' so much as just screwing. I kind of, sort of, did that with being-whatever and it sucked. So bad.

I should start planning my resolutions for next year and stop focusing on things that won't get me back to Mexico.

Posted: **24 Dec 2015, 02:34**

I decorated the Christmas cactus in red hats and wrapped lights around it too. Just a strand of strings around each cactus point. I'm positive no other vampires celebrate the holiday, or if they do, they don't tell anyone. I don't care. Screw anyone who wants to say something about it. I've already come to the conclusion that I'm not your normal vampire. I don't have the fangs and I'm not dead looking. Like an outcast, I guess.

I had to let Victoria go last night. Whenever she works the cash register, it's off by a couple dollars, every time. It was a difficult choice, but I can't end up in the hole twenty or thirty dollars a week. I don't think she was stealing. I just don't think she was counting right. Her English is not very good and, don't even talk about her french. I don't speak french either, but I can get by with what I know in English. I feel guilty because it's so close to Christmas. I told her to practice her money counting skills and come back in six months to try again. And then I gave her a margarita and Marranitos to go. I'm sure it's illegal, but I don't care. The taking booze part, not the cookies. I'll send her a weeks of severance pay too. I know what it's like to struggle, but I have to think of the business and the reputation I want to set.

I hired a new girl to be a baker a couple nights ago. I can cook, but baking isn't my forte. Her name is Jacqueline and big surprise....she's a latina too. From Portugal, but that's okay. I don't discriminate. We're all connected one way or another. She's older than Felicia and I, so I think she might work out alright. She has these sayings, like mi madre always had. She said to me, hands full of flour and on her hips, when I came in through the door with a coffee in both hands, "Si quieres dinero y fama, que no te agarre el sol en la cama." I laughed because I can't get up any earlier than I already do-not that any of them know that. I guess that means I am never destined to be rich again, according to the wise words of Jacqueline. I think I like her. I think she will work out more than alright. I think maybe I am starting to be alright too.

Posted: **29 Dec 2015, 02:15**

What did I do for Christmas you ask? Nada. You would think I would have done something crazy, because its me, but I stayed inside and hung out with Whinny after she got home from visiting her parents. I started watching this not so new novela called Jasmine and it's muy bein. I think I know who Maskara is, but then maybe not. Sometimes I think it is that punta Seilna because she's jealous of Jasmine, but then there are some things that make me think it is Alexis because he's just too nice. No one is that nice for no reason. I think he's pretending to be nice to get close to her. I almost kept watching it but Whinny wanted to talk about some family dilemma she got in to during her family dinner.

I've officially met Blake. I thought he was mucho older than what he actually is, but I really don't know how old he really is. He looks younger than what I thought he would be. And he gave me a bunch of weapon parts to make things. Twice now. He runs off before I can ever say anything-I think he's afraid I might bite him or something.

Velveteen and I have communicated twice. I invited her to Origenes for some food some time, but I don't think she can eat it. She hasn't stopped by. I'm not bothered by it. I said what I had to say for me and don't expect anything from her. I didn't even really expect a reply, but I got one.

I met a woman. She's nice. I like her. And she's pretty. But she's a latina too. Who knew there were so many latina's in Canada? Last month I only knew of two others and now I know four. I hope to get to know her more. I'd really like at least one friend in this place.

After Christmas, I was in the slums looking for guns, when I heard someone say something about a lot of weapons and drugs coming in by the docks. Whinny and I both went and she made me a lot of money. So, we're going to go out for New Years and celebrate her success. I was a little angry when she told me someone chased her out of the docks, but she made a speedy recovery and she seems fine now.

Speaking of New Years, I have my list compiled. It's short and sweet and to the point.

1. Make one million dollars.
2. Locate mi Madre.
3. Return to Mexico.
4. Figure out who Blake really is.
5. Make friends with Sence.
6. Do something unexpected

Posted: **11 Jan 2016, 03:21**

1. Make one million dollars.
2. Locate mi Madre.
3. Return to Mexico.
4. Figure out who Blake really is.
5. Make friends with Sence.
6. Do something unexpected

It's not even a month into the new year and I can cross numero seis off my list. I don't feel bad about it and I don't care how anyone feels about it. This was not the something unexpected I was talking about or had even imagined, but this is one of those things where there are no take backs. You can't kill someone just a little and then take it back. Unless you make them a vampire.

I don't know why I did it. I just had the thought and went with it. No one was there to tell me no, and it wasn't like it was my first rodeo. Definitely the most creative way to sire someone. Who did I sire? Elighan. He came back to the city on a high horse and he needed to be knocked down a peg or two. He apologized for leaving, which was only right of him considering the way he left. He did bring me presents though, that was a nice start.

So now what you are probably asking? I don't know. I don't know how I feel about it now, but at the moment it felt right.

Posted: **15 Jan 2016, 00:18**

I'm so annoyed I sired Elighan now. I didn't expect him to be a big fat liar. It is a little disappointing, but I've chalked it up as the everyday, typical person in my life.

I sent him an email because I haven't seen him in a couple nights and wanted to make sure he wasn't being an idiot and he says he's been busy with his businesses. Same, boring Elighan even as a vampire, but whatever. I understand it, but in the next email he's made a new 'friend,' while he's been working on his businesses.

Basically, he's had time to meet some punta on the side, but blow me off. I'm not mad he's making friends, I just don't like being lied to. Had he said that in the first email, I would have bothered replying, but I stopped responding and decided I definitely need to move to a place he doesn't have a key to. And won't find me.

On a more positive note, I feel complete again. My time in that place-I forget it's name, clung to me for a while, but I feel mucho better now. Also, my business is making a lot more money than it did the week before. I wonder if I can attribute that to Blake, or just some dumb luck.

Posted: **22 Jan 2016, 14:16**

I've tried, I can honestly say that. I've attempted to be what other people think I should be like, or how I should act like, but it doesn't seem to matter.

Elighan and I are at a stand still, I guess. I feel as if he were keeping things from me, things I don't even care about, but it makes me think what else would he neglect to tell me or withhold as time goes on? Do I care that he has a new friend or whatever she is? No. But I don't see how he can be too busy to spend time with me because he's at work and then say he's made a new friend or girlfriend. And to make matters worse, he says I turned him and me withholding my location isn't fair. I made him this way, so he should have unlimited knowledge to where I am, I guess. No, that's not how it works. It's a very two way street. So, here we are, a week or so later and he still doesn't know where I am. I'm positive he only thinks of me when I get around to replying to his emails.

Velveteen hasn't stopped by still, or replied to my email and it's been months. I'm positive nothing will come of that, which is what it is. I tried and that's all that matters. What happens from here on out isn't my fault or problema, not that I think she would care. Which reminds me to start searching buildings and looking on the auctions.

I've tried to be more nice and welcoming I guess. More open with people. None of my attempts anywhere have been successful except for Sence. That place labeled Docere is deader than dead and for some reason, no one other than Blake wants to talk about anything with me, at me, in the Academy. We still talk on occasion and inspire the other, Sence and I. Unless Niklaus beats her to the punch line. Even though we haven't seen each other more than a few minutes a month, I still know it's him inspiring me once in a while. I guess he just has one of those presences about him.

All the other ones I've made have died off, or moved on with their lives. I only really have Elighan and he's fine with keeping me on the outside of his life. It really...how do you say, it stinks? Is the pits? Sucks?

Origenes is doing well, lessons with Blake are paying off, it appears. Well worth the price of that stupid coin in my eyes. I really don't know what to make of that man yet, and still haven't gotten around to asking him how old he is. I guess that doesn't really matter anymore. I've been dead a year and still look the same, still feel the same in some respects. Here's to another year of the same crap, just a different day, and a different year for the next one hundred years, or until I get tired of it. Whichever comes first. I suspect I already know which it will be.

Posted: **30 Jan 2016, 04:52**

If you're reading this, you can stop now. That was all about the past and from here on out, I plan on writing about the future. My future, none of which is your business.

I 'acquired' an invitation to an upcoming party. It's supposedly the party of the year, but I've heard that at least half a dozen times in a single year before, so we'll see? I thought about bringing Elighan, but we're still at odds and he's wrapped up with some Cali girl, which is fine, but he's sort of becoming square again. He doesn't even get some of my jokes, or ignores most of what I say. He's become dreadfully...boring.

So, I think I will make Blake come with me. I'm not going to ask him, I'm making him. I could ask Niklaus, but I haven't seen him much, so I reckon he's unusually busy, or...something. I think Blake will be more fun, I want to crack that skull of his open and pick it anyways. He can't be all work and no play, right?

Origenes is still doing really, really well. I'm very pleased. I think in a month or two, I will start another venture. I'm still on the fence about going back to Mexico or not. Maybe not this year, but the next.

I saw a ghost from my past the other night. I didn't know what to say, or what to do. First I slapped him. More like a punch to his face. And then I hugged him, cried and even kissed him. Don't ask me why I did all, or any of those things. I was surprised, startled, shocked, angry, relieved, and finally happy. It doesn't mean anything, none of it does. There was no response. No reply. Nada. Maybe it wasn't even real. I don't know what's real half the time anymore. But I swear to all things sacred and holy, that if he tells anyone I cried for five seconds, I will personally take my Valentino's and shove it straight through his heart.

And finally, I have a meeting this weekend with Velveteen. Shocking, right? We seem to be able to speak to each other amicably, so it's a start. I guess. I'm not against talking to her, I just don't hold any high expectations. I'm not going to go out of my way to be a **** or anything, but I'm sort of the ******** childe of someone who has fallen off the face of the earth...somehow it doesn't seem to be favorable for me.

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