--Life's a Circus PRT 2.---

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So, I finally got Mikey to set me up with a training schedule. It was funny because he was all "Make sure to eat these kinds of food for more muscle definition. Five small meals." Mostly because I can't eat, but do I look like I need tips on how to look good?

Yeah, before anyone says I'm a slack *** sire by leaving CC alone in her vegetative state, I'd like to say: She's not ******* going anywhere. I've jumped on the bed once or twice, I dressed her up to be real wicked looking and she doesn't even care and the other day a fly landed on her cheek and she didn't even blink. I've got to keep training and ****. I promised DD a routine and I'm going to ******* deliver.

But, my feet hurt. Mostly the arcs of them. I've not done this **** for over a year. I mean, it's not like I forgot, really, it's like riding a bike. Once ya got it down, ya got it. I hope she won't be disappointed when I show her something real basic just so I can look real awesome. Less is more sometimes.

I still think SuperAz is wrong, but she says really nice things and sometimes it makes me feel good and forget why I thought of the things I thought of in the first place.

Back to training. I'm going to see a couple of faces that I haven't seen in a while.

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CC is ******* crazy. I save her mother ******* life and she throws it in my face? Really? Yuh, go **** yourself. Whats worse is that I sired a HYPOCRITE. She is in the wrong mother ******* family for that ****. So she texts me with an attitude about my precious DD slicing open her gut and trying to tell me I should cripple DD over it! That's flat out retarded for so many reasons. 1. It's just a sliced gut. 2. CC got crippled for killing DD, way diff than a sliced gut. 3. DD isn't my precious anything, we barely talk and 4. CC got so many free attacks on DD for weeks, so I think it's kinda funny.

But who the **** is anyone to pretty much demand I do something? Ha! Yeah right.

Anyways, Cliff wants me to take him clothes shopping, probably because I've got the best taste in Harper Rock, and its his way of spending time with me, I guess. He's backed off a little which is cool, so I'll probably help him, even though I ******* hate shopping.

Also, I got this new mini-vamp, only he ain't so mini. He's a killer and hopefully he will bring some ******* sanity to my collection if mini's!

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I'm gonna punt my Macro-vamp in his head if he doesn't get his *** moving soon.

I haven't seen or heard **** from SuperAz in days. I hope she's alright. Seems like everyone is busy ******* off or something. **** if I know.

So, I been in this **** hole of a city with all these crazy wackos for over two years now and DD somehow gets outta me something that I ain't ever told anyone before. Or maybe it was Mordie's fault. I don't care who did it, but Mordie is all like, "lead by example and ****." why does everyone think I'm a leader? I never led nothing before.

Anyways, I went ahead and gave them a little bit of info, cause I'm sure as **** ain't telling them my real name. My parents were so ******* retarded and simple minded. Plus, it's so retarded beyond retarded. I can't see anyone taking me serious with that name. "yeah, hi. My name is [blah blah] and I'm a vampire, kill things and beat up on other things every ******* night. I also own a bar where people come in and **** each other up once in a while." Yuh, no.

Anyways, I don't know what the **** is going on with CC anymore. We fell out about a week ago and she kinda just told me to **** off. And I told her the same thing. SuperAz was wrong about CC and figuring her out and ****. It's ok though, I kinda figured it'd go that way. At least the ***** is behaving, supposedly.

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There was a spark of something for a second, but it's long gone now. This is what happens when ya take your eye off the bigger picture and your goals. I adjust, always do. That's just my thing. Lesson learned, bridge burned, I don't give a ****.

I got me another mini-vamp. Yep, another one and apparently this one likes taking off her clothes too. I'm not really sure how I get all these stripper vampires because I'm not a prude or anything, but I don't have any urges to be taking off my clothes unless I'm showering or going to bed. so what the ****?

anyways, CC is back in Sangue. Scorp is giving her another chance, but if she blows it, she'll be out and doubt she'll be back in any time soon. She's trying to get me riled up, but I just can't seem to give a rats *** about much or anything that doesn't involve killing ****. Mordie's yanking my chain too, but pretty soon, I'm going to walk or ignore everyone. I really don't care about stupid **** that doesn't have something to do with much of anything.

Mordie said I changed the other night and he keeps saying that. Said I changed with the mini-vamps in my life. I think about everything and maybe he's right. Things with Cliff have been off, things with Mordie and don't even get me ******* started about CC. Things are always off with her. I'm thinking that maybe this siring thing was a bad idea, but it's kinda too late to go back now. Can't order a meal, eat half of it and then be like, this tasted like **** and try to return it.

speaking of killing **** and Sangue, seems when the misfits are bored and we've got a playground, we play and play hard. wasn't nothing personal, at least not for me. Just proving a couple things and hope it stuck in the minds of some people. I didn't take a cent of anything, I never do anything for money, it's always about the message or the principle behind things.

I have to admit that when I went to the fade and stayed there for almost a whole day, I felt like I was home. Not sure what that means, but it was nice sitting there in silence. I forgot how much I like that place when I'm going there when I want to.

Anyways, **** off. I'm done writing about things.

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lmfao. I like that Charlotte chick Scorp sired. Imma call her Charlie for short.

all I gotta say is, no one gives a ****, who is ******* who. everyone is ******* someone [except me] and we don't need no ******* advert about it.

anyways, training is going awesome! there's this new raid of cool dead **** that's creepy and bad ***. Cliff wants to bring one of them wolf things home for Killer to do something with. **** if I know. anyways, I get to the third floor and wrestle with some bears and then step in some new kinda traps I never seen before and get gutted and then kicked off that *****. ******* blows.

anyways, I'm gonna **** that place up the ying yang hard tomorrow and get back up to three.

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I'm not sure what the **** is going on with Superbia, but this **** is retarded. I think everyone's given up on DoD besides Every and Aly and me [even if I'm bad at checking the board because I hate putting in my two cents]. Every said she was gonna move our home base, but I'm not really sure how that's going. Need to get in touch with her.

Got another mini-vamp. Her name is Jessica, but I'm gonna call her Jay for right now. She needs to learn to pipe it down a little bit. No one likes a loud mouth freshie. Gotta get your fangs wet a little bit first and then get some credit; like street or city or something. I mean some people hate when Scorp and I run my mouth, but I really give no fucks. that girl cares too much about stupid **** still. like men who broke her heart. gosh, we have forever to live and I know from experience how relationships suck ***. a lot!

anyways, let's see whats new? Sangue killed Isabella Drake. Sangue killed Ivy. Sangue has a new play house and uh, that's about it. I'm done siring, I know I said that before, but I really am. too many mini's and too many bitches who want to be the baddest ***** of them all. I just luls. cause they won't have **** on me and they defo won't have **** on Scorp.

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maaaaaaaan, let me tell ya about some crazy **** going on. Jessica is a ******* emo case and I feel like blowing her brains out to try and fix it. but oh wait! stupid cc already messed up her brains when she killed her over stupid ****. and since jessica went along with the idea of doing stupid ****, I've written them both the **** off. weaken my blood, my line and Sangue over some really stupid **** and you're on my big, bad **** list.

then, it seems like that mind raper dude was trying to kill Ryland. now look, I don't know Ryland at like, ******* all, right? I seen he got a bounty and I'm gonna be a little honest with ya. if I woulda saw him, I woulda popped a bullet in his mother ******* brain too! but I sure as **** wouldn't apologize for it either to try and save face or kiss scorp's ***. she knows how I roll. I've helped kill people for a lot less than a bounty and that **** is real serious ****. I mean, you're ******* with **** and soon hunters are coming out of the wood work, babies aren't carrying bottles, they're carrying uzis or some ****. it just gets real ******* crazy in Haper rock and I'm not doing another ******* city clean up. that **** was crazy and a waste ******* time. killing **** while everyone else is ******* around was ********.

cc hacked off Azraeth's arm at some point and boasted about it. she thought it would make me feel better, but it didn't. while Azraeth is off ******* around and doing who knows what, **** is the same as it was months ago in Worthington. I think it's worse in DoD. still no word from Every on making a new home base. I'm ready to say **** it and figure out something new to do.

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woke up tonight to see on the Crownet that Ivy is working with Tytonidae? what in the ****? maaaaan, that's like below bottom of the barrel for them. must be the full moon from last night or some **** that's got them making some strange ******* calls, cause daaaaaamn. But Ry guy seems like he's in good shape, all things considered.

I'm gonna go see him later and maybe we can kick it. besides being a repeat offender, he seems alright. he just has to be careful, cause like I said, I'm not gonna be busting my *** to fix the mistakes of other people any time soon. I got other **** to do. my own ****.

gotta drop off some **** for scorp later. have me a collection of things and I'm tired of lugging it around all over the ******* place. weighs me down in raids and ****.

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I killed him.
I killed Cliff.
I didn't mean, to.
I don't even know how it happened.
But I did it.

He came at me out of no where, took me by surprise.
I didn't feel like he wanted to kill me.
Feel. Ha. What I mean is, it didn't appear like he wanted to kill me.
But I just couldn't stop.
I've had so much to say and think about for so many months and finally, finally we were training, I think.
Trying to be back to normal, I think. When things were amazing. Fun.
I just couldn't stop.
Not until he was dead.

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