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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 06 Aug 2015, 06:16
by Skylar
♪ Seed of Doubt ♪
25 / 06 / 2015
My insecurities are kinda in overdrive. Sometimes I’m not sure if I’m just being a girl or if I’m Allurist PMSing all over the place. I gotta figure out an easier way of saying that. APMSing maybe. I dunno. Not the point. Point is. Ric seems to be a bit of a boob man and well… I’m not exactly well endowed. I honestly don’t think he cares that they aren’t bigger and I’m pretty confident that it’s not any boobs but my boobs that he likes but still. That nagging little voice in the back of my mind is driving me nuts. Seriously. Right now it’s so bad I kinda wanna blow my brains out.
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Also on this page: The naked form of a woman depicting the kind of woman Sky thinks every man wants with 36-24-36 measurements.))
Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 06 Aug 2015, 06:23
by Skylar
♪ Dodging Bullets ♪
30 / 06 / 2015
I have to learn to dodge bullets cos **** me if being shot don’t suck balls. I left the raid covered in bullet holes. I mean now I don’t need an excuse to get Ric to put his hands on me, I don’t need to play up my natural klutziness. Not that I was actually trying before but well, yeah. I could do with ruining a few less outfits. I should stick to what I’m good at. Once I put my skills to good use, I actually managed to charm a guy into giving me the keycard we needed. Ric was well impressed. Might be best to make Ric get the next one though. He’s good with his hands. And yeah I’m being a little crude. But he’s a good little thief. My bad boy has mad skills. Gotta love it.
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Also on this page: An outline of a female form with dots to represent the number and location of the bullets that struck her body.))
Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 21:50
by Skylar
♪ Inspiration ♪
01 / 07 / 2015
Inspiration. It’s a funny thing right? I mean it’s the kinda thing that comes and goes. Unless you’re a vampire and have someone who wants to make you better than your best. Which thankfully I kinda do. Usually it’s Ellie that makes sure I’m at the top of my game. Sometimes it’s Charlotte. Today it was Pat. I kinda sorta adore my cub. Inspiration to me is kinda like a mental hug, so I love knowing Ellie and Pat think of me. It’s super sweet. I try to inspire them every other day, cos I only have so much love to go around and well, Ricky gets what I got daily. Has since I met him. I kinda wonder if I could have held his interest if I met him lie a week earlier. When I had a pulse. Part of me thinks nope, never would have happened. Part of me thinks, I’d of still been me. I’m kinda glad I’ll never know. No point living in the past. That ain’t my style.
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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:06
by Skylar
♪ Knock Down Ginger, Ric Style ♪
02 / 07 / 2015
My boy’s bad. I’d ask ya to guess what he did today but you couldn’t. I didn’t see it coming. Completely out of left field and actually kinda funny… for Ric. So yeah. He hands me a poison trap. I know. Big mistake right. I swear I’ve only gotta look at **** like that and it explodes and he hands the ******* thing to me like it’s a glass of water. Anyways. Off the point. He hands it to me and tells me it’s a present for Elliot. Says I should place it at his bedroom door, knock and run. Funny right? Who knew you could get looks, brains and a sense of humour all in one package. In a guy that is. Cos yeah. I got those too. I’m no great looked but I sure ain’t ugly. Right?
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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:06
by Skylar
♪ Knocking My Confidence♪
03 / 07 / 2015
So Ric and I are talking. I know. No big surprise. But the topic turns to forever. Don’t recall why. That ain’t important. What is important is that he says “forever is a long time.” Part of me goes “duh” but the other part is like seriously ******* insulted. We’re vampires right? So forever, that’s kinda like our deal. So Ric saying what he said, the way he said it made it sound like we won’t last. I mean yeah I’m surprised we made it to like 6 month, so I kinda get it but what does that mean for us. Does he think we’ll last years? Decades? Centuries? I now know he certainly doesn’t think we’ll last forever. Buh. I need to go drink something. Numb my mind. I mean yeah, forever is a long *** time. I’m not even thinking that far ahead. Now. This month. That’s kinda as far as my thoughts go. **** forever. **** next year. That boy screws with my mind. Arsehole!
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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:18
by Skylar
♪ Mmm, Deliciously Devilish ♪
04 / 07 / 2015
So Ric is a demanding arse. I’d pause to hear if that shocks you but I know it won’t. I should just make up a stamp that says ‘Ric’s an arse!’ and save myself some time when writing further entries. Hmm… that’s a pretty good idea actually. Might do that. But I’m distracting myself and the rest of this entry is much more interesting. Not that you’re getting any real details. The details could set the page on fire. Seriously. I never knew I was into kink. Have I written this before? It sounds déjà vu-ish. So… demanding arse. He loves control. Maybe a lil’ too much. He pinned my hands with his blade and did wickedly delicious things to me. Seriously. I think my boy might have been doing more research online cos DAMN! Me being me though, I had to complain about him messing with my hands. Kinda everything I do requires the use of my hands. I can’t play guitar or make jewellery and stuff to my usual standards when my palms are fucked. So yeah I was pissed. Afterwards. Not during. But you know what. The ****** had the perfect come back. Told me I wasn’t gonna need my hands cos I was his for the weekend. Smooth.
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Also on this page: A detailed colour picture of two hands, overlapping with a blade through the wounded palm.))
Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:28
by Skylar
♪ Rationalising The Irrational? ♪
06 / 07 / 2015
Dreams. Sometimes they mean **** all. Right? Though supposedly they’re the subconscious’ way of dealing with the day to day ****. I’m pretty sure mine are just gumph. I don’t have issues that need working out. Any issues I have get worked out I my music. Can’t say the same thing for Ricky. He’s been having dreams about his childhood. And well… I asked him today if maybe his dad is to blame. The dreams started around the time the guy came to town. Personally I hope he fucks off soon. I’m semi-curious about the guy but I don’t trust myself not to throw my drink in his face. I mean Ric don’t like him and if my Ricky don’t like him, I’m pretty sure I’m not gonna like him. A parent’s gotta do some pretty awful **** to make their kid hate them. I mean mum and I don’t exactly get along but I don’t hate the woman. So yeah. Weird ****.
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Also on this page: A dream bubble showing clouds made of pink candyfloss and flying unicorns.))
Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:33
by Skylar
♪ In The Green ♪
07 / 07 / 2015
So. My bank balance took a bit of a boost today. I sold some jewellery and gave half the proceeds to Ric. I mean okay. I’m the one that made the pretties but he gave me some of the raw material. So without him the pieces never would have got made. Of course, he complained. I do what’s right and proper and he bitches. Then he empties his account into mine. I know right. Weirdo. Lol. He says banks don’t agree with him or something. So yeah. I guess I don’t mind. I mean it shows he trusts me and what’s mine is his and all that, so yeah. I guess we now share a bank account. That was a weird couple step I wasn’t prepared for. I really gotta start wrapping my head around this whole being someone’s wife thing. It still kinda freaks me out.
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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 22:46
by Skylar
♪ Married to a Stranger ♪
10 / 07 / 2015
You kinda should know people better before you marry them. Right? Not that I’m really complaining cos yeah, it ain’t my style to overthink things and I’m kinda happy with my life right now but still… Ric should know I’m not hacking people up. See, I moaned about not being able to get a key off the guards in this raid we were in and he asked me why I’m trying to kill stuff cos it ain’t my forte. No **** Sherlock. But I ain’t trying to kill no-one. I charm the guys. Well, I try to. I tell ya, my confidence takes a real knocking at times. I guess I just ain’t as cute as I think I am. Not that I think I’m that cute. Well cute maybe. Stunning, never. lol. Still, shouldn’t Ricky know I’m no killer? How many times do I gotta tell him I’m no battle babe?
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Re: ♪ Skyler's Diary ♪
Posted: 04 Sep 2015, 23:15
by Skylar
♪ Married to a Pervert ♪
13 / 07 / 2015
Damn. If I thought things were hot the other week. I don’t even know how to explain tonight. Hot. Kinky. They kinda don’t do it justice. Devastating. Disturbing. Maybe. In a good way of course. I’m not sure those words have positives usually but tonight they did. That boy ruined me. To be fair, he did warn me. He told me he was do "really bad, perverted things" to me. Such a sweet talker. Let’s just say he pinned me to the couch in his own unique way. Ruined it. But meh. Things are easily replaced and flesh heals, right? I called him a freak after we were done but I wasn’t being mean or nothing. I loved every single minute. I’m not sure which of us is more twisted to be honest. Him for doing the stuff he does, or me for enjoying it when it’s done to me. Anyways. I called him a freak and he told me that that’s subjective and that’s actually eccentric. Lol. I know right. He then kissed me and bit my lip. I kinda ******* adore him. Yep. I’m pretty sure that makes me the freak in this relationship. Oh woe is me. Hahaha.
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