Quick entry today. Thank ****. I know right? So… Ricky punched me in the shoulder today when he said goodbye. It was so ******* adorable it had to be recorded. It was like being back on the playground. Which is probably appropriate considering the content of this diary. Ha! Love it!
((Also on this page: A picture of a young girl rubbing her shoulder as a boy runs away calling “I like you” over his shoulder.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Weirdness. So, Elliot and I are still at odds. I can handle that. What I can’t handle is him speaking in my head and asking who inspired me. Like he cares. Or so I thought. I should have ignored him but, well, I didn’t. I told him Pat did it. I didn’t ask Pat to do. He’s just being friendly, as Steve would say. I adore my cub. He’s so sweet. So yeah… weirdness.
I kinda need to let the record show that I, Sklyar Elouise Hawthorne, am a gift giving genius. Or so Ric would have me believe. I saw this relic online and I kinda didn’t remember ever seeing him with anything like it, so I took a chance and bought it. He ******* loved it. Well he was pleased with it anyways and he didn’t already have one like it. So wicked. I mean what else am I gonna spend my money on but him?
((Also on this page: A sketch of a necklace Sky wants to make when she has time.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Before you say anything. Shut up. I know I sound like a broken ******* record at times.
Anyway. Ric suggested something funky today. Not good funky. Bad funky. At least I think it is. I mean I know where his head was at when he suggested it and I know he means well but yeah… I don’t think it’s for me. He suggested I go have some ritual done. One that would sever my connection to Elliot. I mean yeah he’s been a dick. Him and his missus, but still. Isn’t that the point of family? You can be dickish and still love one another? I don’t hate the guy. Not really. And I love what he made me. I’m not gonna sever from him the first time we argue. I still talk to my human family and my mum is a right ‘See You Next Tuesday.’ So yeah. Not now. Probably not ever. But it’s kinda cool there’s the option in case I ever need it.
((Also on this page: A few random lines from songs she’s yet to write.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
That guy of mine pulled all over the place today with that power of his. Not that I mind but it seriously puts a dent in my me time – or my anything time really – when he can do that anytime he likes. He forced me into the catacombs under the Mausoleum where I used to live and told me he wanted to watch me “take people down”. I probably shouldn’t have told him I can kick zombie arse. I need to practice with my sword and the fuckers are slow. Perfect targets. And I don’t need to feel guilty when they crumble because they aren’t people. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. No judging. I’m still pro-life but zombies aren’t living. Right? Right.
So me being me. I do what I’m told and show off my battle babe skills, or rather my lack thereof. He can tell me over and over that that **** don’t turn him on but he’s ******* lying. He ran off and found this little cosy (by which I mean disgusting) cubby hole for us to have sex in. And yeah. I went there. I don’t give a **** where we are; if he wants me, he can damn well have me. Stupid sod told me he wanted me to show off my battle babe skills… after he disarmed me. Not that I’d of done jack even if he hadn’t. I’m not all that comfortable stabbing people, especially not someone I’m married to. Thankfully, Ric don’t have that issue. Yeah. I know. **** off. I’m twisted and I know it.
((Also on this page: A sketch of Sky dressed like Zena, Warrior Princess.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Saw a couple of guys to replace Dillon. Not that there’s really any replacing my best mate. He may have been a bit overconfident but that guy could rock a guitar. Not as good as me. But he was still pretty damn good. If all I needed was a guitarist then it probably wouldn’t be too much of an issue, but I kinda want someone that fits with the band. I should ask Pat what he plays. I’m sure he plays something. Though maybe rocking out on a regular basis with my cub isn’t a great idea. I don’t want Ric taking an issue with him. Not that I’m saying that will happen. But it might. Oh… speaking of my arse-tastic hubby. I managed to freak him out today. I have no idea what I said but he bolted. I gotta admit I kinda love that I can still make him squirm like that. I just wish I remembered what I said.
((Also on this page: A few custom designs for guitar faces.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Had to lower my prices today. There were a couple of my blades up at auction and they were cheaper than I’d usually sell them for. I guess this is what I get for selling a job lot of my stuff to an outsider. Clearly I need to specify next time that they not undercut my prices if/when they decide to sell the goods on. So yeah. Mortll screwed me. Nice eh? Oh well. It’s not like I’m driven by greed or anything. Ric and I have pretty much everything we could ever want. So long as I have a place to crash, food to eat, my guitars and the sexiest guy on the planet in my bed, I’m five by five. Which I am. So go me! My life kinda, sorta, ******* rocks right now. Business aside. lol.
((Also on this page: A load of names written graffiti style across the page, some with ticks against them, some with crosses.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
I’ve been overcome with the spirit of giving. Apparently. Not only did I spend a couple of hours at the shelter today but I also gave Ellie a set of jewellery he could give to Pi. If he were any other guy I might make some snide remark about it possibly going to his mistress but I really don’t think Ellie’s the type to be unfaithful an well… Pi’s pretty ******* scary. So he’d have to have some major balls to go dipping his quill in another ink pot. And well. As much as I love Ellie. Which of course I still do. I don’t think the guy has the stones to do anything his woman wouldn’t approve of.
Speaking of the scary missus. She gave me a gun. Well, I asked for one. I figure what the hell. I’ve learned to use a sword. I may as well go the whole hog and get a firearm too. I really only know the basics. I can’t strip the thing or nothing but it seems pretty straight forward. Bullets go in here, pull trigger, bullets come out of there. Don’t aim gun at self or anyone you don’t intend to kill. Not that I intend to kill but going in those raids man. Those men or creatures or whatever. They ain’t narf trigger happy.
Honestly I was expecting a lecture from Ellie about that decision. Our relationships been a bit touch and go recently, so I really wasn’t sure how he’d feel about me carrying a firearm. Ellie and I are kinda alike and I know he’s not all that impressed by his dark side. Not that I’m embracing mine. I really don’t think I have one. Well. Not an internal one. I married my ******* dark side and I couldn’t be happier but we’ll skip over that cos it would be nice to write an entry that didn’t revolve around you know who. Oh shush. This does not count. Point being, the talk didn’t go bad. Ellie thinks it’s a good thing. Says it will help me vent. Not that I really need to vent through violence. I vent through music and sex. Oh and I was told I shouldn’t harm innocent people. I was kinda tempted to through Faith’s line at him, you know the one, ‘ain’t no such creature’. But I highly doubt Ellie watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer so he wouldn’t have got it.
Oh crap. I guess I’ll have to write Ric free entry another day cos I just remembered a conversation we had earlier. Basically, I want to find another person like him. One that bites. I want to know if I’m just a kinky ***** and like being bitten which means any old ****** could get me off while they fed from me, or if it’s a Ric thing. Course I can’t phrase it like that to Elliot. I might just tell him I’m curious about the whole biting thing cos I don’t have fangs. Ric don’t see the point of my experiment but me, I’m curious.
((Also on this page: The stereotypical image of Dracula with his arms around a big chested, blonde while he tells her; “I want to suck your blood.”))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
I went all weird on Ric today and told him I loved him using his full name. To my surprise he didn’t spazz out and run or anything, he said it back. He used my married name. I know. I should be used to it but I don’t use my surname. Or didn’t. I hated Higgins. But Hawthorne? Hawthorne I like. Skylar Hawthorne. Yeah, yeah. I’m a frickin’ love struck teenager I know. But damn if hearing my name from his lips isn’t the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard. I kinda, ******* adore his lips. And his fangs. Ain’t no feeling in the ‘verse like having his lips and fangs on me.
And yes. I know. My last few entries are showing my geeky side but I really can’t help it. I’ve been watching a few re-runs with the guys. I’m a closet geek. Shh. Don’t tell Ricky.
((Also on this page: Skylar’s signature over and over, written in different styles.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
We went on our first official raid as a family. I’ve poked my nose in before, hence the need for the gun, but nothing prepared me for this. I mean for one, we suck. And I’m not sued to sucking. I rock at what I do. I practice and perfect my skills. As a group. We need more skills. We need a hacker. If I knew anything about computers I might give it a go but I don’t, so I won’t. But yeah. The doors are like triple locked and well, without a hacker, you don’t get far. And my god are those creature people bad asses. They ain’t got nothing on my Ricky when it comes to style but they use guns and their aim is **** hot. Unfortunately. I don’t know where they train these people but damn.
((Also on this page: A single phrase, with the letters being made up of various weaponry; “You brought a knife to a gun fight?”.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Had a minor falling out with the hubby today. I got a bit pissed that I couldn’t inspire him. I mean, I know it’s not officially my job or anything but it’s kinda what I do for him and I didn’t like having that taken away from me so I kinda whined like a little ***** about it. He said a faction member shielded him or something. And well you know me. I had a bottle in hand when I confronted him. He don’t like me drinking my pain away but it’s my thing, it’s what I do, my coping mechanism. I hate feeling useless. Ric was kinda a sweetie about it all actually. He fed on me and then boosted my blood. Sweet right? He takes such good care of me. I love being bitten so that kinda ended my downward spiral. The ****** knows just what to do to placate me.
((Also on this page: A no entry sign containing the image of disembodied brain.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
