Wow. Long day. Night. Whatever. So where to start. Okay well first I learned not to use my superpowers around those creepy mannequin things. I was going to inspire Ellie up close and personal for once and well… it backfired cos the mannequin thing that was with us exploded or something. I didn’t know they did that. Ellie thinks I tried to hurt him but unless you really can kill someone with kindness… I don’t think he needs to worry any time soon. If ever. That’s just not me. I’m no battle babe, even if I think Ricky wishes I were.
Okay after that I kinda met Forsyth. Fors. Ali’s kid/lover. He seemed to know who I was, so the kid’s gotta be smart right? I mean I had no ******* clue who he was. To me he’s just this guy I tease from time to time while I wait for the elevator. Everytime I see him, he seems to be down in the tunnel. But at least I spoke to him today and got his name. that’s a first. And I was in time to help him. Kinda. He’d been burned and wasn’t planning on asking for help. So I asked on his behalf. I mean I know Ric could help him, and if the kid was just Ali’s “thing” he probably would have but I’m not sure he’s come around to the whole Ali dating him yet thing. Fingers crossed someone else in the family will help the guy out.
Then there was the festival and man that was a rush. I ******* loved it. I mean I always love being on stage but this is the most people I’ve ever played to and feeling what they feel… Wow… It was just heady. If I’m not careful I could easily become addicted to that kind of feeling as it was like the purest high I’ve ever experienced. Oh! And I met Nathan too. He’s a cutie. Nothing like Ricky but that’s probably a good thing as I don’t think the world needs two of him in it. I teased the kid something fierce. Not gonna lie. Still. It was fun. I blame the atmosphere. That place had me jumping even before I went on stage.
((Also on this page: A rough sketch of the festival from Sky’s perspective while she was on stage and looking out at the crowd.))
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So I kinda, maybe forgot to tell Ricky I saw his brother and that at the festival yesterday. I’m sure if he had it his way I probably wouldn’t have met the kid at all. Or maybe I would have but he’d of been with me when it happened. Good job Ally Cat came along, or I might not have known who the little cutie was that I literally bumped into. Poor kid. So yeah, anyways, I tell him all about it and he tells me I shouldn’t be mean to his brother. I mean me. Hello? Does my boyfriend even know me? I’m pretty sure he’s met me, unless it’s his twin brother I’ve been shacked up with all this time. ******* weirdo. Like I’d be mean to some college kid for no reason. Hell me being mean at all is a really rare ******* occasion. But yeah. Just thought I’d jot this one down cos, well… it amused me.
((Also on this page: A self portrait of Skylar as an angel with wings and a halo. Instead of a harp though, she’s rocking out on her cloud with a gold guitar.))
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♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
I guess really this is an example of “be careful what you ask” cos I couldn’t stop myself from asking Ric if it’s wrong that I kinda enjoy being fed on. His reply though surprised me. I guess I was looking for him to tell me no and that’s perfectly normal. I mean people do all sorts of kinky **** when it comes to sex, so as a vampire I’d of thought having your boyfriend feed from you was kinda… I dunno… normal or natural or romantic even. But no. In good old Ric fashion he tells me it’s wrong of me to enjoy it. Like I’m the one doing something wrong. Seriously. I wonder sometimes if he hears the dumb **** he says cos he’s the one doing the ******* feeding. I could understand if his answer was some sort of jealousy thing. Like if I was some sort of blood whore who sells their blood on street corners or down dark alleyways, and gets off on it. Okay so I do get off on it and the first time he ever fed on me we were in an abandoned building but that’s not important. He thinks – and yes he actually said this – that I like to live dangerously. Not sure I agree with that. I mean I’m not much of a thinker at times but I don’t go looking for trouble. It just kinda finds me. I’m more about the moment. **** the consequences. I really should try and find out if this whole feeding off each other thing is as risky and taboo as he says it is. Problem is, if I start asking around, people may wanna know why and well… I don’t want to tell them. Firstly it’s none of their god damn business and secondly it’s not really my secret to tell.
So… hmm... I dunno how to close this out. I guess I feel like… **** it. You know? I mean it’s my life. My blood and if I wanna help someone survive, especially someone I care about then no-one has the right to tell me that that’s wrong. Even if that person’s Ricky. It’s not like we’re hurting anyone. I enjoy it. I don’t know if he enjoys it so much, but he needs it. It’s necessary. So… yeah. **** it. I don’t care what he says. It don’t feel wrong to me.
((Also on this page: A scene that looks like it’s been taken from a child’s story book. It’s something similar to a scene in Alice in Wonderland. There’s a young woman and she’s choosing between two vials. One says “Give a ****” the other says “Don’t give a ****”. Her hand is outstretched in such a way that it’s actually unclear as to which of the two vials she is actually reaching for.))
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♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Yeah yeah. Ignore the title diary, I couldn’t help myself. So I guess I should explain it eh? Well you see… It has to do with Ali’s kid, I mean boyfriend or whatever. Ali’s guy. Yeah let’s go with that. Anyways He does hang out a lot on the tunnel. I think I’ve said this before and well, today was no different. I cross paths with him and go upstairs to find Ali. Obviously I tell her, her guy is downstairs doing god only knows what and she tells me she thinks he’s researching fungi or something. That’s weird right? I mean yeah, the world takes all sorts but that’s odd. You have eternity. You have a hot piece of arse. And you’re where? Down in the depths of some dank tunnel looking at the local fauna and flora? I can’t imagine being like that myself. Though I guess people could look at me and my music in a similar light.
Speaking of which… I need to find Ric’s birth certificate. I’m not sure he’s really twenty-nine. He used the word ruckus. I swear that’s dated. It sounds dated. I didn’t tell him that though. I was too offended by what he said. Well. Kinda. I mean he should love whatever it is I’m playing cos I rock. I mean, yes, I was playing Katy Perry’s ‘Fireworks’ which is totally not his taste. Not mine either really but you have to play what’s popular. Though really I should retire that one and find something new. It’s just kinda fun to sing. On a different but slightly related topic, I did get another pay rise though so… I must be doing something right. Honestly. I have no idea how we make so much money doing what we do. Must be all those pet crazed owners that want to keep their prized pets even after they kick the bucket. It’s kinda creepy. Honestly, it is. Though I’m no worse since I’m helping to turn them into art by supporting Ricky. Yes. I know. My boyfriend’s a freak, but I love him.
((Also on this page: A giant mushroom with razor sharp head is sitting at a table, (restaurant setting), and eating a plate of people.))
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♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
He surprises me. Still. I walk through the door and he’s holding some club. It’s cute. Breakable but cute. He apparently made it himself. I shouldn’t laugh. It’s sweet. Right? Like hes trying to take an interest in what I do. Maybe understand me better? That or he was just seriously bored. He says we should keep it by the front door in case of intruders. I don’t like it’s chances of being used for anything other than display. If we need something to keep by the door I can do a hell of a lot better than that. He gave me some bits and pieces to play with too. Which is sweet. He does that from time to time. I wish I knew more about what he does in that faction of his so I could be of more use to him. I’m not sure he’d let me help though. I mean most men have that whole macho ******** thing going on where asking for help is a weakness. Still… for a complete arsehole, he can be a real sweetheart at times. Keeps me on my toes, so I kinda gotta adore him all the more for that. Oh god. I just wrote adore. I adore him? Now that is a step too far. I’d go find the white out but I really can’t be arsed.
((Also on this page: A sketch of Ric with his arms crossed while a woman prostrates herself at his feet.))
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♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Long time, no see eh? Sorry about that diary. I didn’t neglect you on purpose or anything. I just kinda gave up on life there for a bit. Though for that to make sense I kinda need to go back a week or so and start at the beginning. So yeah… here goes…
I’m married. Yes me. I don’t need to be judged by a piece of paper. And no I haven’t told my parents yet. Wanna know why? Cos my so called husband freaked out the next day and wanted to get an annulment and caused me to go into some sort of living coma. Partially my fault though. He didn’t want to break up with me, just dissolve the marriage. Thing is. I kinda wanted the marriage. I know. Shut up. I know you’re laughing at me. But I did. I do. Women are allowed to change their minds. It’s our prerogative or something. So I left. Cos well… If you aren’t ever gonna get what you want out of a relationship then what’s the point right? He couldn’t say he loved me and he didn’t want to be married, so I had no choice. Well I did. I kinda over reacted. Maybe. Made sense at the time though. Kinda. I mean I knew I was making a mistake in leaving but you know how I get when I make up my mind about something. So here we are. Almost a week later and I’m back at home. Ric came to get me. Which is beyond amazing. I just wish I hadn’t been ******* Dillon when he showed up. Shh. No judging remember? So yeah. That’s it. He still won’t say he loves me, but he’s willing to try being married. Oh… I forgot to mention we got married while drunk, but I guess that’s kind of a given. Right? I mean how else would two people who are were so set against marriage gonna end up tying the knot?
So… I told Ellie today cos… Oh **** I missed a bit. I left. I threw myself on the sofa. Dillon’s sofa. And I kinda gave up on life. Elliot and Ali had to snap me out of it. Dillon had tried but well… I didn’t want to respond. So yeah. I told Elliot today that Ric and I are gonna give it a go. He’s not thrilled. Wishes I’d choose Dillon instead but at least he’s gonna try Ricky out. Can’t really ask for more than that. I doubt they’ll ever be besties, but if they could play nice in each other’s company it might make my life easier.
Hahaha. Elliot cursed me, the ****. Guess he thought about what I said and decided he wasn’t so okay with it after all. I know it was him too cos he apologised. Sai he meant to inspire me. Guess I know how he really feels about my marriage. As if I didn’t already. That little superpower of ours can be a bit of a pain at times. There’s no hiding from it. Unless you’re an emotional vortex like Ricky and then apparently it’s not an issue at all. Which brings me back to my husband. I know. It doesn’t sound right saying it either. I’m sure it come more naturally with time. Anyways. I think he kinda does love me. Ric that is. I mean he looked as broken as I felt when he came to get me. And the way he held me. Yeah, if I had the words for that I’d probably know for sure.
I asked for my job back today too. "Don’t make this a regular thing." That’s what he told me. Because yeah, I plan on getting **** faced and marrying him again next month before I walk out on him… again. Sometimes I think he’s not the smartest toll in the toolbox. Other times though he’s crazy smart. Though I think he was more off than on today. See… the morning after we got married he woke up in bed with me. Not such a crazy statement if you’re a normal couple but that was a first for us. He usually disappears in the night and winds up in a cave or something. But not that day. So I asked him today if that was a coincidence or not. I mean we got married and then boom. No more cave. Seems pretty obvious to me that there’s a correlation there. He’s not sold on that though and I doubt we’ll ever know for sure cos it’s pretty difficult to prove since it’s stuck. I kinda like waking up with him. Now if I could just stop him from acting weird, things might go back to normal. Ric. Weird? Yes. Why yes diary. My little freak can indeed get freakier. He’s being oddly affectionate and asking me if I want to talk and stuff. It’s… strange. I don’t know what’s up with him? Guess I’ll just wait and see if this sticks too. I have no problem with him being more affectionate and stuff, it’s just a little… new.
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((Also on this page: A signature, as there’s no room for anything else. The signature reads: Skylar Elouise Hawthorne.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
A few things to note for today. All the invites have gone oust were done digitally but we printed out a couple for some people too. We’re already starting to get RSVPs. I don’t much care how many people come. So long as the important people show up. If Ellie doesn’t make an appearance he and I are gonna have words. If Ric’s a no show I’m gonna kick him in the bollocks and make his life a living hell. Which I think means I’m already settling into this marriage thing. Though I don’t think I have to worry. Ric said he’d come and I believe him. He may get things spectacularly wrong at times but if he says he’s gonna do it, he usually does.
Speaking of Ricky, as always, he gave the entire staff a pay rise today. I don’t often see the others so **** knows what they actually do. I mean I know what they do on paper but I don’t see them in the day to day stuff, certainly not since the apartment was locked down. Not sure what made Ric boost everyone’s pay. I mean yeah the company could be doing well but I kinda like to think that he’s just that happy that we’re back together that he’s sharing the love. I know… wishful thinking, but I kinda like the idea of it whether it’s true or not.
Which leads us nicely dear diary to another Ric rant about love being an overused word that people throw around far too easily. At least this time it wasn’t aimed at me. It was something Nix said. It’s confused him because he hasn’t seen her in a while. I’m not sure if he loves her or not. I mean it’s not a word Ric throws around that’s for sure. I’m not gonna ***** about that though. I think I’ve done that one to death. So this is probably a good place to pause for today.
((Also on this page: For absolutely no reason Skylar has drawn a menacing looking teddy with razor sharp teeth and claws chasing a personified heart.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Not all that much to tell today. Oh. Gossip. Pyper is Ric’s sister. Did not know that. I’m assuming he doesn’t claim her as such else he’d of mentioned it maybe. He told me about Jules. And I don’t think she’s Doc’s girlfriend like I thought she was either. Apparently her and Beverly are a thing. And my god. She gave Beverly a freaky *** necklace with a tooth on it. I’m not sure what I’d do if Ric gave me something like that but damn. Is there something with that bloodline of his? Obsessions with dead things or body parts. It’s freaky. Though Jules is pretty normal. So… food for thought.
Oh and Charlotte caught up with me today to give me some bits and pieces. She congratulated me on my marriage. And well… she might be the first person to do that. And mean it at least. I remember feeling grateful when she said that. It felt like a milestone. It kinda hit me. In a good way. I am happy and that with Ricky. Now anyways.
((Also on this page: A sketch of the necklace Pyper gave Beverly drawn from memory.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Tonight started out pretty shitty. I freaked Ric out. And he freaked me out. I kinda love that he can surprise me. I thought he wasn’t comfortable with me telling him I love him but I don’t think it’s that. Well, he pretty much told me he’s okay with that. Which is good cos well, I’m not gonna stop saying it. So from that convo, Ric actually did this thing where he cut me and licked the wound. He cut my wrist. Not gonna lie. I maybe, kinda, sorta liked that. Yeah. I’m a freak. The weirdness though. We tried some kinky roleplay ****. He wanted me to be his victim so I gave it a go. We gave up pretty quick on that as Ric wasn’t feeling it. He was pretty cute actually. Told me something like… "You`re always my fantasy. I wouldn`t do this stuff with any other woman." That’s pretty ******* amazing coming from Ric. I want to be his fantasy so ******* bad it hurts. Anyways. Things still got weirder. Cos after all that. After giving up on the roleplay aspect, we did some pretty kinky ****. I asked him where he learned it. Apparently he’s been researching stuff online. That’s weird right? But also kind of impressive. I mean. He’s in this. He’s committed to this relationship. To me. He’s trying. That really ******* impresses me. I am so fucked up. I love this guy so bad and he killed my best friend. Still not really gotten my head around that.
((Also on this page: Some very non-PG13 images and descriptions of what she and Ric got up to.))
♪ Am I strong enough? ♪
♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
Party time tonight. Ric and I have come up with a plan. For him. He’s going to take a break if he needs it. I know he can be around people. Like groups and stuff. He’s managed to stick around for auctions. But maybe then he had a purpose to be there. Maybe that helps? I kinda hope he feels our party is worth sticking around for. I want him to be comfortable. Seriously. That’s what’s important to me. Even if he flits off, I’ll forgive him. Just don’t tell him that.
The party was amazing. Half our guests didn’t show up but I don’t really give a ****. Ellie and Pi came and they were my priority. I wanted them there. I wanted them to see Ric. To see me with Ric. Elliot can’t deny how I feel for Ric, or he for me, once he’s seen and felt it for himself.
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((Also on this page: The butterfly from their invitation has been drawn sitting on a twisted vine covered in thorns.))
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♪ I wish you well, but desire never leaves ♪ ♫ Available Melee Weapons ♫
NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
