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You see what you've done. You liked Nathaniel so much and now he is all mine. You got your way and so I will hear no complaints about the fact that I have forgotten to write lately. To be honest, I wasn't sure how things would work. He is so nice and considerate, that I feared I may miss hints again, or even worse, that he just wouldn't see me like a girlfriend. Was he just being nice to his sister when we had those long talks and he helped me figure out where I went wrong between Sebastian and Lucas? Well, duh, we know -now- that he wasn't or, well, maybe he was but it turned into so much more. I'm glad you enjoyed hearing from him. I kinda like that he has accepted my odd ways and my energy and now even the nonsense you and I share from time to time.

So, while I am here I might as well tell you what as absolute *** the sire is. Staus has just proven himself not to be someone to depend on. My stupid fault for believing we could develop some sort of family bond. Maybe if I dressed up in a "Staus for president" banner he would actually take time to notice me. Stupid politics, what good were they anyways. Just from looking at the council members on the crownet, clearly they aren't in it for the betterment of this city, just their own twisted ideas of power. And here you thought I was a nutter. At least I keep my issues private rather than airing them on the 6 o'clock crownet while having a bitter petty war with everyone that doesn't agree with me. I haven't seen any of them that I would ever trust enough to follow. Make all the silly laws they want- we are above that if we choose to be.

Okay okay, back to the good stuff! Nathaniel, that's right. So yummy. I have decided that I am completely in love. Sure, I lust after his body...who wouldn't? My god, the things he has shown me and done to me...just wow. But there is so much more. He takes me to work with him and even got me a very special cell phone where only I can text him. He leaves me wonderful notes beside the bed before he leaves, and greets me with open arms when I wake and head to his workplace. I could gush for hours. I realize you want more of my mental instability but as long as I have Nathaniel beside me, there may not be another episode. I think I have found out who I am. His.

So, it's me again. I figure I better keep talking to you or Nathaniel will tease me again for leaving you to gather dust. He's asleep beside me now, and I had to sneak off to write a little so not to wake him. I hate that he still insists on working but at least he takes me with him, I guess. I don't know how to stop feeling this mushiness anymore. In fact, I'm not even sure I want to. I've never been loved before, started to believe it didn't exist, a fairy tale that would just remain a bedtime story for little kids. I think that I love him even more for not telling me love was real. He never said it, never reassured me with pretty words. Hell, he never even tried to. He just....he just showed me.

Stop staring at me like that. I haven't lost my mind and I am certainly not turning into you. You are weak and wishy washy. Never know what you want from day to day, night to night. It changes constantly. It was something we shared for so long. Nathaniel fixed me. So you'll have to be a nutter all by yourself.

So, I keep trying to think about what I want to do in this city. I tried to get a feel for politics but it just doesn't fit right. Staus thinks I can be intelligent and Nathaniel says he will support me in whatever I do but I know politics isn't it. It's way more crazy than you and I put together. I feel like something more is expected of me but for now, being his girl is the only thing that matters to me. I actually feel like I am whole when we are tangled up together in bed just talking. Maybe that's all we need in life, even when life is a whole eternity.

He shared something with me. Something so important and so amazing that I can't even share it with you. No, I'm not trying to rub it in your face that I know a secret and you don't. I was just telling you that he shared something really huge with me, something that I know he wouldn't have if he didn't love me as much as he says. Well, I knew and I could always see it in the way he looked at me, the way he touched me and held me so tight....but this, this put it right over the edge. It opened up a whole new life for us as a couple and I can't wait for what's to come. We talked more about it tonight and I am so excited. Safe to say, that he and I have a lot of work- the good kind- to do very soon!

Once again he found the book covered in dust. She had no time anymore to write in it. Nathaniel brushed it off, found a pen and sat down on the bed. Kacee was out so he would write in it and see how long it took her to find it. Probably not to long since he would leave it suspiciously laying on the nightstand on her side of the bed.
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Dear Kacees Journal

Once again she has abandoned you. I guess she used you to tell all her problems, and now she doesn't seem to have as many as before. I would like to think that was because of me, but maybe its because she has made a change in who she is and is rather happy with herself now. I think thats more of what it is. I did figure she would write and let her journal know that we were married on August 23. It was just a small ceremony, but it happened and I'm lucky she agreed to marry me. I know I am much happier now. Well I'm going to wrap this up for now. Just let her know that I love her if she happens to open you soon.

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Nathaniel tossed the book to land on the bedside table and went out to play with more zombies.

Nathaniel grabbed the book that he had been watching lately, since the owner wasn't anymore. This was something that needed recording.
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Dear Kacees Journal

Tonight I got into bed thinking I would play and tease my wife. For the first time she was a little resistant. I wondered what I had done wrong to put me in the dog house? She wouldn't even turn toward me. I said to her. "Kacee love, what have I done? I didn't mean to be out all day. Zombies and looking for the Fadebeast kept me busy and then I jumped in the shower at the apartment." She growled at me. Can you believe that? She actually growled at me. Once again I tugged at the blankets, and again she denied me by jerking back. "What the hell Kacee? I would say I was sorry but I dont know what I done to make you mad." There was a hiss and another growl, I reached and turned on the lights because I was tired of this attitude. When the light came on I turned to her. "Now tell me..." I was cut short as something that was NOT my wife came at me. Finally I had found a fadebeast, just not where I was expecting it. I reached for my gun and knife that I have always close at hand. I emptied a clip at it thinking surely I would hit it, which I did but it didn't slow it. My knife was no better. Then as quick as it attacked it was gone leaving me and the bed a bloody mess. I wore my blood and his blood. All I could think of was... Kacees going to kill me for messing up the new bed covers.

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He chuckled lightly and headed back to the shower. Maybe he could get cleaned up before she realized what happened.