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So, I bought another cello today. Hey, Don't judge me! I also bought you a special pen just for your use only. Its a purple ink fountain pen, as you can tell. I spoil you just as much as much as myself. But this cello was just so... great. I also ordered another looper. I am thinking of picking up a violin too. I need something to keep me occupied, don't I? I only have three acoustic cellos, and now two electric. I didn't know I knew how to play you know, till a few months ago I wandered in to a music shop and I heard someone trying out a cello there. Its great stress relief, though my neighbors do yell at me to keep it down. Oops. Do you think I should bring Roderic over and play for him? No, I don't think so either. You're right, it would be too... show and tell-ish. I'm not 5. I don't need to show off stuff to him. Though I would like to find someone that would be interested in listening to me. Maybe give me an opinion. I need friends for that though, right. Man, you know how to bring a girl down. Oh well.

My sire made another childe. I can't remember actually being angry, let alone livid. Yes, livid is a good word for it. I hope this one fads like the rest. I don't get enough time with my sire as it, I won't share him. Jealous? Maybe. I'll own it. But he is all I got right now. I'm going to spend the day in my apartment writing music. Music apparently does calm the savage beast.

And now I have turned a childe. What the hell is wrong with me?! ****!

It happened again apparently. Doing things I don't remember. They say I shot Beverly, but I don't remember it. She seems to hold no I'll will against me, in fact she uses hoodoo on me every day to make me stronger and is constantly giving me pretty things she finds. The perfumeni wear now was a gift from her. So unless she is just terrified of me and is sucking up(and let's be honest. Mine is not a presence that makes people tremble with fear. ... Yes, I know that is after putting my face on. ... and doing my hair, yes. SHUT UP. I know I'm scary before I leave the apartment, but I'd never leave the apartment looking like that!), I believe she trying to be friends. Which is odd. I'm not used to the friends thing but I like it. I've sworn to protect her and I meant it. No body will **** with her and get away with it. I tried offering her money but she won't accept. I need to make her something, but I'm only good at making widows.

I remember some things. From my human life. A husband... evil man. His face is a blur. Family. I can only hear their voices. I don't remember much. But some. Enough. My head is constantly hurting. Its like the past and present are melding into one, and sometimes I can't tell which is which. I smelled peaches the other day when waking, when I have no food in the house and my accent is becoming more Southern. I don't know what is going on. I still don't know who I was, or where I was from. My strongest memory is of a Bible. Was I Christian? Must have been. I don't see much use for religion in this new life.

I need my sire, but we never seem to be able to meet up. I need his advice. His sire is gone, to where no body knows. I worry for her. I need somebody to help me understand this. I want so badly to get back to Tyt, but I am of no use to them in this state. I am of no use to anybody anymore. Should I seek somewhere else besides this city? Everything I know is here, and only bad memories wait for me elsewhere, but I feel as if I have no reason here. I wish my sire could make time for me. I know he is busy with his other Thing, and other people, but... I just need him right now.

Oh, I gave a cello away today. I don't play as much as I used to. No point in having so many.

I'll open you back up in a few months I guess. I talk to you more than I talk to anyone else.

I've come home and nobody is here. Well, except for you. You are exactly where I left you. As I knew you would be. You're loyal like that. I went to the States. Just wanted to see some of those sights. I drove through Seattle and saw the Space Needle. That was underwhelming. So I went to San Fransisco and Hollywood. Nightlife was pretty great. The Grand Canyon was next. I would like to take Ric there at some point. It's a very calming area. Drove through the Rockies to Kansas city, and that's a city I would be okay with never going back to. They think the world is ending because they want to rename some street. Vermont was beautiful. But I am home now. And alone again. I am eyeing my dusty cellos and think I may play till sunrise. It's been ages since I have done that. And I should get a TV. Some background noise would be welcome.

I hope Ric turns up soon. I found some nice parts he would use. And Beverly has a mountain of those fungi she likes if she still exists. I hope she does. I liked her.