[Authors Note: This is online - not password protected. A blog type thing. Which means in the rare turn of events - I'll allow anything in this rp to be read and commented on IC by characters in anyway they seem fitting - without it being crossing. Keep in mind if your character couldn't access 'facebook' they probably couldn't access this journal.] - Also, this first post occurs just after her first head wound cleared but before the second did. I'm behind.
Shadooow Reealm - Day Sooomeething nooot ooonee
Hariasa and I had a loooveely talk in eemail ooon first day. Fooound Reeyna, shee did nooot talk to mee. I think shee having issuees. Nooot suree, but it likee shee nooot all theeree. Strangee. Maybee I goooing to see oootheers soooon. Hooopee sooo.
I can think and seeee leetteers kind ooof but I can't seeeem tooo eedit things yeet. My heead still hurts, I think I havee a heead. I havee a mind. I can seeee eemalis and reead theem and reespooond.
I hatee Asheer. Hee's soooooooooooooooooo meean. Doeesn't heelp my keeys aree sticking! Sticky sticky.. BUNNY! I gooot a bunny, ooor trieed it ran away frooom mee again.
It's oookay, thooough. I hooopee eeveeryooonee is safee.
Looovee,
Mee
PS... hacking is hard.
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Shadow Realm - Day Seven or Eight : Healed
Tonight the best thing I can say is I'm feeling better. My head wounds are gone and now I just have this retched death wound caused the moment I entered the shadows. I can actually hack, without having issues. I sent Asher the last email I'll ever send him, because all I had left to say was "**** You".
I also sent Wolf a message, saying I missed him. He didn't bother to respond either. Men, I have decided, have a natural affliction caused by testosterone that makes them complete idiots and gives them the inability to comprehend the most basic of things, like caring, love, and devotion. Either that or they choose not too and I would prefer to give them at least some credit and blame it on their genetics. In the end, maybe its just best if I stay away from men as a whole, or maybe some things need to change about the male-female relationships I'm in.
I have come to terms with these shadows, these beasts in the darkness, and now they no longer harm me. They run like scared little shits and I watch them streak by. It's almost fun.
I have drained somewhere around 10 squirrels, and taken into myself at least 3 bunnies. The bunnies tend to run. I have also come across these people, and to their loved ones I send kind thoughts...
regan
Isabella Drake
Reyna
Jasper
Phillip - Service to Callista
Caleb
Jin-Gitaxias
Castlevania
Killian
I believe that's everyone. If you can send me an email I will of course try to contact anyone you wish as a medium. I can not make any promises on being able to find them, though.
Love,
Leiren
Tonight the best thing I can say is I'm feeling better. My head wounds are gone and now I just have this retched death wound caused the moment I entered the shadows. I can actually hack, without having issues. I sent Asher the last email I'll ever send him, because all I had left to say was "**** You".
I also sent Wolf a message, saying I missed him. He didn't bother to respond either. Men, I have decided, have a natural affliction caused by testosterone that makes them complete idiots and gives them the inability to comprehend the most basic of things, like caring, love, and devotion. Either that or they choose not too and I would prefer to give them at least some credit and blame it on their genetics. In the end, maybe its just best if I stay away from men as a whole, or maybe some things need to change about the male-female relationships I'm in.
I have come to terms with these shadows, these beasts in the darkness, and now they no longer harm me. They run like scared little shits and I watch them streak by. It's almost fun.
I have drained somewhere around 10 squirrels, and taken into myself at least 3 bunnies. The bunnies tend to run. I have also come across these people, and to their loved ones I send kind thoughts...
regan
Isabella Drake
Reyna
Jasper
Phillip - Service to Callista
Caleb
Jin-Gitaxias
Castlevania
Killian
I believe that's everyone. If you can send me an email I will of course try to contact anyone you wish as a medium. I can not make any promises on being able to find them, though.
Love,
Leiren
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Shadow Realm - Amy's Day
Why in the world I had to find out about Amy from the liar is beyond me, but I guess some people decided it wasn't okay for me to know my own childe was dead. Sure, I knew it would happen. She had a very high bounty, and though I would have asked her to just let go, I doubt she did. Amy's to stubborn for that. Now, well, now I will find her. I will find her and we will hunt bunnies in the shadows together.
Asher's still a douche bag - and a liar - and now apparently Habren's ***** boy.
Wolf still hasn't talked to me. I think he hates me. That's okay. It's normal to hate me.
I think tonight I'll tell Tristan to tell Amaranthia I'm okay, I know she worries. I don't know if he even knows I'm here, but that's okay. I don't expect much from anyone I'm related too. Hopes are meant to be destroyed - in the end we all fall. I've seen it, the end - again, its there and its going to come at us like a brick wall and we will all be in here.
The only problem? Someone's going to close the rips in the world. There will be no exits. There will be no escape. We will all be in here, forever.
I hate the future. Why is it so clear to me and no one else can see it? It's driving me nuts.
Love,
Leir
Why in the world I had to find out about Amy from the liar is beyond me, but I guess some people decided it wasn't okay for me to know my own childe was dead. Sure, I knew it would happen. She had a very high bounty, and though I would have asked her to just let go, I doubt she did. Amy's to stubborn for that. Now, well, now I will find her. I will find her and we will hunt bunnies in the shadows together.
Asher's still a douche bag - and a liar - and now apparently Habren's ***** boy.
Wolf still hasn't talked to me. I think he hates me. That's okay. It's normal to hate me.
I think tonight I'll tell Tristan to tell Amaranthia I'm okay, I know she worries. I don't know if he even knows I'm here, but that's okay. I don't expect much from anyone I'm related too. Hopes are meant to be destroyed - in the end we all fall. I've seen it, the end - again, its there and its going to come at us like a brick wall and we will all be in here.
The only problem? Someone's going to close the rips in the world. There will be no exits. There will be no escape. We will all be in here, forever.
I hate the future. Why is it so clear to me and no one else can see it? It's driving me nuts.
Love,
Leir
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Shadow Realm - A few days later
I got an email from Wolf, and sent one back to him. I didn't hear anything back, but then I was hoping to feel like it was time to leave. It's not, so I can't. I can't explain why I feel I need to be here, but I do. I cant explain why I can't access the doors, but I can't. So now I'm just not bothering. I don't know what comes next, I won't know until it happens, and until then I'll be here.
I did see other faces...if you can call them faces.. Nick Bowstrong and Ripper. Think that was it for new faces. I can't find Amy, I think she doesn't want me to find her. It's really disheartening, but I guess I don't have a heart right now so I shouldn't care. I'm working on the whole 'not caring' thing.
This post was mostly to let Amaranthia know I love her, and miss her, and that I'm as safe as one can be in the shadows. Hopefully, she won't worry. Though I'm doubting she can access this, it was worth a shot.
Love,
Leir
I got an email from Wolf, and sent one back to him. I didn't hear anything back, but then I was hoping to feel like it was time to leave. It's not, so I can't. I can't explain why I feel I need to be here, but I do. I cant explain why I can't access the doors, but I can't. So now I'm just not bothering. I don't know what comes next, I won't know until it happens, and until then I'll be here.
I did see other faces...if you can call them faces.. Nick Bowstrong and Ripper. Think that was it for new faces. I can't find Amy, I think she doesn't want me to find her. It's really disheartening, but I guess I don't have a heart right now so I shouldn't care. I'm working on the whole 'not caring' thing.
This post was mostly to let Amaranthia know I love her, and miss her, and that I'm as safe as one can be in the shadows. Hopefully, she won't worry. Though I'm doubting she can access this, it was worth a shot.
Love,
Leir
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Shadow Realm - The hope for an End
I've been speaking to someone who, really, I never thought would be sending me messages. I mean, I suppose we've come to uneasy terms of acceptance, but I never actually expected her to talk to me. She's been feeling.. over used I guess? I'm unsure how exactly to word that. My smallest salvation I could have given her was to tell her that yes, the shadow realm does give you a bit of a time out of quiet time for peace, but it doesn't.
I've run into more people here then I had in weeks of time in reality and even when I try to avoid them, they are still there. They still want the same thing. Don't even talk to you, of course, just want the same ****. Everyone wants -something-. Well, honestly, I'm done giving. I'm done being me. Something's gotta change and I can't expect it to be anything or anyone else.
Love,
Lei
I've been speaking to someone who, really, I never thought would be sending me messages. I mean, I suppose we've come to uneasy terms of acceptance, but I never actually expected her to talk to me. She's been feeling.. over used I guess? I'm unsure how exactly to word that. My smallest salvation I could have given her was to tell her that yes, the shadow realm does give you a bit of a time out of quiet time for peace, but it doesn't.
I've run into more people here then I had in weeks of time in reality and even when I try to avoid them, they are still there. They still want the same thing. Don't even talk to you, of course, just want the same ****. Everyone wants -something-. Well, honestly, I'm done giving. I'm done being me. Something's gotta change and I can't expect it to be anything or anyone else.
Love,
Lei
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Shadow Realm - You know who you are.
I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss the way you take my hand and hold it in yours. I miss the way you always look at me like I'm the most important thing in your world. I miss the way you part your lips against my own. I miss the way you feel next to me, the way your skin feels against mine.
Don't forget me.
Love,
Lei
I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss the way you take my hand and hold it in yours. I miss the way you always look at me like I'm the most important thing in your world. I miss the way you part your lips against my own. I miss the way you feel next to me, the way your skin feels against mine.
Don't forget me.
Love,
Lei
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Shadow Realm - In the End, It doesn't even matter.
I think of you. Of what you have become.
And I hate you.
In fact I think I hate you more then you could ever hate yourself. I may have played my games with you, innocent ones you volunteered for, but now your nothing but a joke.
No one cares about you.
I did. Now I don't.
Go die in a hole somewhere.
Love,
Lei
I think of you. Of what you have become.
And I hate you.
In fact I think I hate you more then you could ever hate yourself. I may have played my games with you, innocent ones you volunteered for, but now your nothing but a joke.
No one cares about you.
I did. Now I don't.
Go die in a hole somewhere.
Love,
Lei
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