That was that, then. Blaize’s rejection of the invitation was accepted. Lyonel did not push. There was some small part of the dancer that was disappointed, but the disappointment was soon quashed by pure determination. Little did Lyonel know that the raincheck offered was one that might never be revisited. Or, if it was, it would again be rejected. Where Lyonel might have been proud of Blaize’s work ethic, his devotion to his art, it truly was unhealthy. Blaize would dance until his toes broke from the exertion and he left a trail of blood in his wake.
And yet, on the surface he appeared calm as an ocean with no breeze. His feathers were unruffled, even if beneath the surface there lingered the urge to spread them wide and leap from a cliff, like Icarus tumbling to his fate. They were feathers that first appeared strong but, beneath all of it – even beneath Blaize’s own knowledge – they were not as strong as he would like.
It looked as if Lyonel were about to leave, but instead he scrutinized Blaize who felt like a microbe beneath a microscope. His jaw hardened and his eyes were sharp. The question was asked and the hardness remained – a muscle in the swan’s jaw twitched before it was loosened, and a smile spread over pale lips. These were lips that, upon first meeting Blaize, Lyonel would know could be full of plump colour. Now they were thinner than usual, and lacking substance. But still, they smiled. He spread his arms wide as if to say look at me, do I look like I need replenishing? Blaize was lying to himself as much as he was lying to Lyonel. He honestly did think he looked the top of his game. He certainly felt it.
”Of course,” he said, letting a few seconds pass. ”Dance, and music replenish me,” he said with a laugh. He was fine. He was more than fine. That’s what he was trying to convince Lyonel.
And yet, on the surface he appeared calm as an ocean with no breeze. His feathers were unruffled, even if beneath the surface there lingered the urge to spread them wide and leap from a cliff, like Icarus tumbling to his fate. They were feathers that first appeared strong but, beneath all of it – even beneath Blaize’s own knowledge – they were not as strong as he would like.
It looked as if Lyonel were about to leave, but instead he scrutinized Blaize who felt like a microbe beneath a microscope. His jaw hardened and his eyes were sharp. The question was asked and the hardness remained – a muscle in the swan’s jaw twitched before it was loosened, and a smile spread over pale lips. These were lips that, upon first meeting Blaize, Lyonel would know could be full of plump colour. Now they were thinner than usual, and lacking substance. But still, they smiled. He spread his arms wide as if to say look at me, do I look like I need replenishing? Blaize was lying to himself as much as he was lying to Lyonel. He honestly did think he looked the top of his game. He certainly felt it.
”Of course,” he said, letting a few seconds pass. ”Dance, and music replenish me,” he said with a laugh. He was fine. He was more than fine. That’s what he was trying to convince Lyonel.