Pet videos ((Renee's encrypted video blog))

[Renee]

This is all recorded into Renee's encrypted files saved under the title "Pet videos" so that most would not think to look for them on her personal computer. Unless she shows you or you find a way into her house and then into her computer this is all OOC knowledge

The camera starts to record and Renee adjust the lighting around her till she is pleased. "Okay so I know I've tried to start journals in the past and they haven't worked out very well for me. I loss interest and when I go back I can't fully tell what I was thinking or feeling at the time, that's why I'm going to do this now. I can go back if I must or want and SEE what I was feeling at the time." She pointed to the little camera in front of her as if she were showing someone else in the room.

"And with the new year not long started and the literal new ME...I figured why the hell not." She let out a small sigh before she continued. "So I've been wondering where to start and I thought with my time in the SR but I feel it should be further back. A few months ago I found out about some things that had happened while I was asleep. I don't know why they happened and to be honest it's none of my god damn business. Someone I consider very dear to me told me of relations that have happened and has asked me to keep and eye on someone. Even if they hadn't asked I would of anyway because I worry about people that I have any vested interest in and this person was one. So I tracked them down to the sewers and tried to confront them but they ran." She gestured to what seemed to be someone off camera again. "Doctor then went to keep an eye out for me. He still does from time to time but someone who does not wish to be found or followed is someone who is hard to find."

She ran a hand through her hair as she exhaled in an almost defeated and frustrated manner. "And there is this I have to deal with." Gesturing to herself as she spoke. "All of this. The family decide to try and clam some land. Put us on the map as it were. That back fired. There were six of us...I don't know how many of them....we were not ready. Not by a long shot." Her eyes seemed to gloss over as she recounted events. " There was so much blood and smoke. Bullets flying about ones head and body. I remember the screams too. I assume a bit from both sides. I don't recall who fell first from our side but I remember after I saw Jesse go down, we where fucked. Not long after I died. I thought Eirki would be able to make it out but..." She trailed out and fell silent before snapping out of it. "Clover made it though. I'm not sure how but she did, thankfully."

After a few moments of silence she looked back at thecamera with a smaller smirk on her face. " I knew the chance of me returning to my own body like the others was slim. Much like Kae, I was fortunate enough to be a mystic and as such our bodies are not always our own. I woke up in the morgue in this body. Now I have a new face, voice, body and even a fancy new British accent. I shouldn't complain too much though. I'm about half a foot taller and I no longer have that dreadful scare on my chest that Axel gave me. Though it was rather upsetting when Simon didn't recognize me at all. He almost attacked me till I proved it was in fact me. That was slightly terrifying and very upsetting."

"Well, in other news." She grabbed the camera and began shooting around the room. "This is our new apartment. Well new to me, he has apparently had it for a while but hasn't done anything to it." The shots where of mostly empty space. "I brought in the lamp for light and a desk and chair for me to work from but we mostly stay in one of the other homes. I came here today because it would give me some mostly alone time." She replaced the the camera and sat back down.

"This new place has sparked some arguments though.Our wedding is in about sixteen weeks and there is so much to be done but all he is worried about is putting furniture in this place. I couldn't give two shits about it to be honest. I've got places of my own. We need to get things done for this wedding or there won't be one." She looked very frustrated as she pinched the brim of her nose. "I love him, I do, but I don't want to do everything myself." She rubbed at her face and exhaled again. "Im going to ask Clover and Ursula if they wouldn't mind helping me but I know they have things going on in their own lives too. Maybe I can steal them away one night to go get me a new dress. I should ask Kae if she would like to come as well." She shrugged. "It might work, it might not. Time will tell I guess." She reached up and turned the camera off. It quickly turned back on "Also as a reminder to myself, talk to Ursa about witchcraft and the like." It then turned off and everything went silent.

[Renee]

The camera is turned on and this time the only lighting is from the screen itself. Renee sits in front of of it and her hoodie is obscuring most of her face. She wipes at her eyes though the reason is fully unknown. She pinches her lips together as she bites into them.

"How do you tell someone that you find them intimidating? Not like a stranger or even someone you've know for a few months but someone that you look up to and respect and have for a few years. They probably won't believe you. I know I wouldn't."

Her jaw clenches before she grinds her teeth for a moment. "I put on a front most of the time. I don't like it when people know I'm scared. People tend to use fear against you. When I feel intimidated I became scared. That's one of the reasons I've never told anyone about this. Simon doesn't know. Ursula doesn't know. No one knows. I didn't even want to admit it to myself by I have to. I'm going to have to face my fears soon though."

She wipes at her face again and it clear from the shaking in her voice it's tears she is trying to hide. "I can see a few outcomes happening and none of them are good. I see only loss and that terrifies me more. I'm tired of losing people I care for. I try not to get close to people but it happens and then to lose them." She falls silent for a moment as her body shakes slightly followed by a gasp for air and more wiping at her face.

"I have to do this other wise it will be hanging in the air forever or worse, I won't get to tell my side. I just....just don't know if I can." She gets up from the seat and walks away and the video rolls on in blackness.

[Renee]

As the camera is turned on it appears as though every light in the room is on. Loud music is paying in the room. Renee jumps in front of the camera, her face is painted up like some sort of china doll and she has the out fit to match.

"The hills are alive! With the sound of music!"

She is nothing the words with music as it plays.

"With songs they have sung for a thousand years!"

The music plays on as she begins to laugh before she turns down the music.

"I have lost my mind, again, it would seem." She says with some more laughter to follow before she sits down in front of the computer. "UGHHHHHH! I barely left this room in the past few weeks! I'm so bored! I need to get out of here!" She grabs a pack from next to the computer and begins to wipe off the makeup from her face. "The holy warriors are dead and I've fully healed up, best part NO scares!" She says as she points at various parts of her body and face. "I don't know how that happened but I'm not complaining at all. I like not being covered in burns and what not all over my body." She begins to undo her hair as she continues. "I do need to find a new place to go though. I'd rather not be blown up again if I can help it."

"I guess I could go to my bar but, I already spend enough time there. I could check out Jesse's place when it's actually open to others. It might be a nice change. I think that's what I'll do." She finished with her hair. "I might even start work on some ink to this body. May even be able to do so before the wedding." She shrugged. "Whelp I'm off to change and fox hopefully, have fun. Wish me luck, or don't. Either was ta!"

She turns off the computer and the recording ends.