The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

24th January 2015

Need I do for to see where I steel blocks can acquire. Enver knows not. Charlotte said that she use of them can make, and yet help in that I cannot, as know I do not where found they can be. Check I shall online for to see where bought they can be. And for how much sold they are. Says she does that she bullets with them can make. Best therefore be it might, if Deanna for these blocks does search. Perhaps then procured they can be. That perhaps better plan is, then traced our transactions shall not be. Attention to us I do not wish to draw.

[Keara Aithne]

26th January 2015

Knew I did that Charlotte swords did make but dabbling with guns also she is. Say I do dabble but saw I did yesterday a little of her work and extremely talented she is. Obvious it is that her talents in crafting do lay. Strange it is that one whom such a kind soul has, something so lethal can make. Enver suspicious of her is. I know not why. Wonders he does why she around so much is? Think I do not that she home is more than Peter or Leif or Lorde even. Strange My Husband can be. Perhaps likes he does not that she so much time at his bench does spend. As his bench it seems to be. Rarely is it by another used. Know I do not where Thomas his crafting does, but he too quite talented is. Gave me today he did a few examples of his work. At least assumed I did that his work was. Asked perhaps I should have. Too happy I was for him to see, for of such questions to think. Next time try I shall for to remember for the question to ask.

Use of our map Enver wishes to make, for he a map for our anniversary did buy. Fitting it was, paper customary gift is for first anniversary, or so he and the internet do say. Thought I did that our marriage licence our paper gift was, for that too fitting was. The map more meaning has. Wishes he does for the map with locations to mark. Locations to which we together have been. England of course our first destination is. Though California already marked could be. Though said that I have not, as there together we were for the funeral of his mother. After that know I do not whereto I should like to go. Ven’s castle in France like to see I would. If still standing it is. Though perhaps Enver that would not wish to see. Long have I Italy wished to see. Much about it over the centuries I have read. That perhaps the perfect location for to go next would be. Unless Enver there already has been, then somewhere new perhaps choose we should. Think more on this I shall.

[Keara Aithne]

28th January 2015

Like I do that my life uneventful is. Love I do my time with my husband. Feel I never do that time wasted is, so long as with him I am. Time wasted is not, if I with family am also. Spoke today with Xian I did. He doing well is. Behaving. That good is. Hunters bothersome are. Think I do that adjusting well he is. Charlotte good care of him taking must be. See them together often I do.

Enver and I discussing have been for to Italy next to go. After we to England have been. Like I would for Venice and Rome to see. Enver says does that he to Venice already has been. But Rome visited he has not. Though perhaps matters not if we also to Venice do go. Sure I am that deny me he would not the opportunity for Venice to see, because been there already he has. Sense makes it does for both places to see while we in Italy are. Wanted I have for some time for Italy to see.

[Keara Aithne]

31st January 2015

Want perhaps I do not to know where Enver so many items did get. While afford he can for things to buy, often takes he does what needed is. So many items had he did. Stored them away I have, for now, until needs them he does. Worries me does if he so many items alone did acquire. Memorable my husband is and while chastise him I never shall for his skills, if seen he is for in these places to be, into trouble himself he might get. Want that I do not. Still. Enough items has he does for to tinker for a while. That him perhaps out of trouble shall keep. I hope. Never have I someone known that so much distracting requires does for out of trouble to stay. Not that mind I do for him to distract. In fact thoroughly enjoy that task I do. Happy I shall be, if I him for eternity distracted can keep.

[Keara Aithne]

1st February 2015

Conflicted today I am. Lost Andrew I did and liked him I did. Loyal, intelligent and thoughtful he was. All qualities from which Crash learn could. Mourn him I shall. Died he should not have. Died for me he did. For Enver angry at me was. Perhaps angry wrong word is. Perhaps at me even angry he was not. Upset he was for I with Peter did shower. But shower in our way we did not. Only held him I did so that he to his senses would come. Helped him I did for the blood from his hands to wash. Enver this could not understand. Much as I that would have understood not, if he in a shower with Lorde did step. Love My Enver I do. Cheat on him I never could. Never would. He my life is. Adore him I do. Knows this he does. Knew that he did. Help himself he could not. Love one another too deeply we do. Angry at him be I should. Would be, perhaps. If I his thrall had not killed for reasons that similar are. If react similarly I would not, if our roles reversed were. No need is there for him to forgive. He nothing wrong did. I the forgiveness need. This my fault was. Time need have I do for to reflect. Andrew’s life mine to protect was. Failed him I did.

[Keara Aithne]

4th February 2015

Suspect I do that the puppies Andrew also miss. Cared for them he did. Used to him they were. Need perhaps I do for another to enthral. A female. Perhaps. Kaylee his absence most does feel. At least think that I do. Quite altered her behaviour has been. Out of her bed she rarely comes. Eating she is. But eats she does little if compare her appetite to the others I do. Tried I did for with her to play,, but interested in me she is not. Need I do for to find, someone that animals does like. Deserve that they do, for Enver and I plan to travel do. Want I do someone that love them shall. As Enver and I them do love. That better for us all shall be. So long as she to my husband does not look.

[Keara Aithne]

7th February 2015

Someone traps in Enver’s theatre did place. Understand that I do not. Enver nothing has done for that to deserve. Certain of that I am. No-one hurt was. No-one that matters does. All the staff healthy are. Discovered the traps himself he did not. Robert him of the traps did warn. Say I would that that nice of him was, but think so kindly of him these days I do not. Not since he Deanna’s heart did break. Still recovered she has not. Speaks very little these days she does. Moves often she does not. If things of her I did not ask. Suspect I do that she never move would. Sad it is for that to see. Tried I have for with her to talk. Her to England take I shall. Hope I do that that her spirits brighten shall.

[Keara Aithne]

8th February 2015

Enver a gun to Xian did give. Least think I do that that what given was. Most pleased with it Xian was. Though expect nothing less I would. Enver great work does do and still improving he is. A golden gun to me he gave. Red and gold. Made it was from a weapon that gave him I did for apart to pull. Looks good it does, and much improved it is. Enver a talent for this sort of thing has. Think I do that Charlotte this does know. Gives him parts she does for with to play. Worry perhaps I would but think I do that stronger connection to her childe she has. See her with him often I do. Think I do that he her to life has brought. Nice that is for to see.

[Keara Aithne]

10th February 2015

Lorde sweet is. Like her father she is. Though think I do that preferred it I did when she more like me was. Tinkering she has been. More talented than Enver I think she is, though prefer I do for him at work to watch. Miss I do for the fire in Lorde’s eyes to see. Like I would for that in her again to see. Though suspect I do that Enver prefers her thusly does. Violent he can be, but prefers he does for peaceable to be. Mind that in him I do not. He my balance is. My anchor. Need I do for him my violent urges at bay to keep. Or focused. He my distraction is. Fitting I think that is.

[Keara Aithne]

13th February 2015

Leaving today for England we are. This journal here leaving I am. No distractions from him do I want. Though wondering I am if wishes he does for away with me to go. Leave soon we must and home he is not. That quite unlike him is. If business had he did for to conduct, sooner taken care of it should have been. If much longer takes he does, try I shall for him home to call. And if works that does not, summon him to me I shall.

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In the catacombs he was. Said he did that he parts for Lorde gathering was. See that I can but crash has he does for that to do. Told him as much I did. Working also on his aim his reasoning was. That perhaps better reasoning is, though know I do not why he that first did say? Perhaps wished he did not for me that to know. That side of him likes he does not, and yet drawn to that also I am. There not a part of him is that adore I do not.

Soon leave we shall. Both excited we are. See that in him now I can. Feel it too perhaps I do. Time alone have we shall. Deanna counts does not. She invisible shall be, even if see her we can. Much to her own devises left she can be. Hope I do that we all three home happier do return. Not that think I do that Enver and I unhappy are. Only think I do that happier we shall be if we no distractions from one another do have.

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Leaving now we are, And my selection made I did. Took I did a female, Sandy Fields, she my thrall now is. Quite suitable she is, and while prefer I would for time to have for her into this life to settle, think I do that she trusted can be. Order her I shall for nothing to say or do that harm to me or mine can bring. She a veterinary nurse is. Hope I do that the puppies her do like. If like her they do not, dismiss her I shall have to.