The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

8th May 2014

Wonderful these past two days have been. Enver and I home have stayed. While true it maybe that we never far from one another are, nice it is for the door behind us to lock. Gizmo quite content also was for us home to have. Mind I do not think he does for the halls to wander when out we are, but prefer he does for at our heels to be. Like I do when we our peace do find.

[Keara Aithne]

9th May 2014

Peace never lasts does. Enver and I are arguing are not, mean I do that city active place is of late. Into yet another raid this eve went we did. Like I do for such places to explore and wonder do when tire of them I shall. Dea trapped became. Thankfully she her problem with Robert first did settle. Heard I would never have the end of this had that not the case been. Know I do not what passed between them has but quite upset seemed she did. Sure I am that tomorrow much of her objections I shall endure, as know I do that I the blame shall get for her in a trap to put. Unreasonable at times my sister can be. Knows she does that she my requests may refuse. One day learn she shall that I the reason for all her misfortunes am not.

[Keara Aithne]

12th May 2014

Written I have not for a few days. Busy I have been. Trying I am for my techniques to perfect before attempt I do upon Crash’s skin to play. Sure I am that Enver the results shall admire. Praise he does my talents usually, and while doubt his sincerity I do not, know I do that like my work he likely would even if awful at the task I was. Such is love perhaps.

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Enver very suspicious of late of me is. Like it I do not. Seems it does that when truly desire him I do, thinks he does that something wrong is. Like this I do not. Hurts he does my feelings when pushes me from him he does. Sure I am that he this does know. Then. When angry I become. Pulls me back to him he does. Then seems it does that he me does desire. So if want me he does. Why does he me of him distracting accuse? This not the first time is that he this has done.

Once truly confused I am. Fall we do into our usual routine and fight him in this I never do. Only his time it… different was. Cast another power upon me he did and curious its effects were. Seems it does to me that effects of the same power differ can when by another they are cast. Perhaps it alone Enver is to whom respond differently I do. His intentions perhaps a part in this play. Or my feelings? Be sure I cannot what it is but when overwhelmed me he did, different it felt to when Charlotte this to me did do. Interesting it shall be if he this to me again does do, as then see I shall if the result the same as this time was.

[Keara Aithne]

14th May 2014

At odds feel I do with myself this eve. My other form tonight took I did. Required that was for our task to fulfil and yet… happy I find I cannot be. Perhaps too injured I am for such things. Write that I do and yet true that is not for my hunger for my husband subsided has not. Intensified even perhaps it is. Rest this night I shall. Advice that is that for Charlotte also. Somehow worse she does look than I. Knew I did not that she so fearless was. Perhaps changing she is. Though darkness in that place took her did. Unable she was for awake to stay. More rest likely require she shall than I. Still. Proud I am of my family. Love them all I do and enjoyed I did for Kallista to see.

[Keara Aithne]

15th May 2014

Thinks he better knows he does. Tells me no. No? Allowed I am for my thoughts to say. Unreasonable that is not. Next time perhaps listen I shall not. He mine is. Not hers. Says she can what likes she does, but that the truth is not. Claimed he did his whore too. Like that I do not. Tell me he better that he spoken to her has, for if I her hands upon them see, help myself I shall not for my own hands around her neck to place. Then learn she shall that touch him thusly she may not. Perhaps Deanna following him again should be. Deanna him does loath, betray me with her he cannot. Will not. Send her away I shall if that suspect I do.

Glass in our room broken is. Lamp too. Talking to her now he is. Calls she does and answer he must. Wrong that is. Sees her he does not from one month to another. Too much power over him holds she does. Like that I do not. Need I do for over this to think. Or not think. Know I do not. Perhaps there something between them is. Unusual it is not for sire/childe bond to deepen. If he attracted to her is, know I do not what do I shall. Ask him I shall. Maybe. Though deny it he will. Ask her I shall. That better idea is. If tries she does for him away from me to summon, bring him back I shall. Have him she cannot. Mine he is. My Enver.

[Keara Aithne]

16th May 2014

My painting finished is. To Robert now it can be sent. Long it did not take for my sister to paint, her image know I do well. Nice it was for her so to see. Perhaps paint I shall another for myself. Pictures have of my family, Ven and Enver created but until now none of Deanna. Perhaps necessary I felt it was not for that to do as have her here with me I do. Still. Nice it is for her true form again to see. Yes. Draw her for myself I should. I shall.

Something odd today did happen. Leif Charlotte did attack. Messaged her I have and waiting I am for to hear why she that did do. No good excuse be there can for this. Promised she did for Charlotte alone to leave once mine she became. Perhaps something wrong with Leif is? Seen her recently we have not.

[Keara Aithne]

17th May 2014

Enver quite upset was for to discover that my painting gone was. Still understand I do not why he an issue with my project had. Paid he said I should be, but charge I will not those I love for things that do I can. While gift to Robert given was, the deed for love of Deanna was done. She my sister is and wished she did for her boyfriend her true form to see. Strange it is for that to write. Deanna no interest in men did show in our first life. Lived she did for Ven, as I did. Only believe I do not that her feelings as mine were. Though perhaps suspected that I did when newly turned she was. Poor Deanna. Little luck did she have and now no form has she. Deanna a pretty childe was. Thankfully a good mind had she also, else her company quite tedious would have been.

Enver desires does for me something for him to paint. Idea have I for what perhaps like he would, as told me has that choose I may the subject. Wondering I am why I nothing for him till now painted have? Taken he could have anything that in our room is. Though strange it would have been perhaps for a picture of himself or Ven to have. Hope I do that likes my painting he does when finished it is. Wish I do not for him to disappoint.

[Keara Aithne]

18th May 2014

Robert appraised me did. Odd it seems that he this would do. If questions over me he has ask them he may. Matters not. That not the news is that wish I do for to write. Enver suggested has that we a holiday do take. Know I do not how long gone we shall be or where going we are but know I do that wishes he does for us his boat to take. Like this idea I do. Him and me and Gizmo. Though wondering I am if Gizmo his mate first should find. Then worry we need not for them alone to leave. Watch them we can. Make sure that fight they do not.

[Keara Aithne]

19th May 2014

Perhaps need I do with Charlotte to speak. Thought I did not that this necessary would be as she averse to violence does seem. Not averse for herself in harm’s way to place. Only for another to strike. Perhaps feel she does not that for powers to use an attack can be? Confused she seemed by why Leif this could do, while she her attacks should cease. Point in this she has and still no reply from Leif in this have I had. Write to her again I must.

Every quite polite was. Though understand I did not why she the need to contact me had. Contacted Charlotte directly she could have. Told her as much I did. Aysel and Charlotte this between them surely could have sorted. Charlotte no monster is. Sure I am that she her own issues can settle for she an adult is. Wonder I do if mad at her I am not for new to this world she still is, or if I other reasons have. Think on this I shall.

[Keara Aithne]

20th May 2014

Worry I do for away this day to go. Family quiet are but Charlotte perhaps watched must be. Enver confident is that family us does not need and likely correct his assumptions are, still worry I shall. Ease my mind perhaps I can through some research to do. Though write nothing of that in here I can. Oh. Suggest also I shall that Enver and I the new puppy acquire before away we sail. Like I would for her our attention to give, much like time that spent with Gizmo was when first into our family he came. Watch too then we can how interact they. Look up now I shall some breeders. See if any litters have. Hope I do that Nox with us is in this.

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Serena a message for me left has. Seems it does that Andrew my attention does require. Quite capable my staff are. Required I am not for so much time upon the premises to spend. Strange to me seems it does that Andrew so unwilling is for with another to work. His orders seldom complex are. Work wait can though. The days that follow do to my husband belong.