Delusions, Hallucinations, and Hypo-mania … Oh My! [OPEN]

[Felicity (DELETED 4145)]

I feel good tonight, really good. The best I have felt in months. Of course I am home now, or at least the closest to a home I am ever going to get. Looking at the walls of Larch Court, I can't help but to feel antsy. I need to do something, to get out and live for once. For so long I have been the 'good-girl'. The person I was expected to be. Tonight though I am going to have fun. Dancing around my room, to music that only I can hear I smile to myself.


Finally I am just going to let go, to let myself simply be me. Control was nothing I wanted anymore, now I just want to be free again. Tonight would be fun, at least the best fun I could manage. Standing in my new room I look down at the outfit I put on. I haven't worn anything like this, in years. The black mini dress fits perfectly, the six inch black heels match. I smile, my hair in loose curls around my shoulders, and a white gold necklace around my neck with a large ruby amulet hanging from it.


I feel gorgeous, I feel so alive. Which is a strange thing to think, meaning technically I am dead. Or something near to that. I don't fully understand how all of that works, and right this moment I do not care. Smiling I walk out of Larch Court, I don't have any certain place in mind tonight. I only have one goal. To have fun.


Once outside I smile, the wind blowing across my skin I feel so alive. I can hear the music humming within me. I see the people walking past me, and I smile. I wonder what they see, though I can't say I really care right now. First I should feed, but I want to have fun with it, I want to enjoy it. I am sick of just taking what is needing and then being done, I need more now. So much more.


The lights shining from the buildings, and the sounds rolling from them make me look all around myself. I know I am humming out loud as I spin in a circle beginning to laugh. I don't care about the people around me, I am not doing anything no normal person would. Shrugging off my amazing sensations I continue to walk through the city.

[Charlotte Ruse]

Charlotte was sure she was being followed. Her latest attempts to break into a building had gone horribly, horribly wrong. She'd decided that she'd fancied a challenge, so had tried one of the more well maintained buildings that actually had a number of guards and cameras, instead of the one or two she could sneak by easily. However, she'd been too blasé about it all and hadn't been paying attention as she'd snuck around and snooped through all of the boxes and the shelves, looking to see what might have a resale value. She'd not heard the footsteps echoing around her, getting closer and closer as if it were a BBC game of Maze instead of her actual, real life.

Only when it was too late did her brain kick in and register the noises as footsteps, and she'd ended up having to pull the gun that she kept for show and using it, shooting her way free of the building. Alarms were sounding, people were shouting, she dropped a smoke bomb to try and escape - and made it out of the building. However, where she'd been unable to hear the footsteps before, it now sounded as if she were surrounded by them!

She clutched her bag to her chest as she hurried away, continually looking over her shoulder to try and spot whoever it was that was following her. It was in one of those moments, when her head was turned one way and her body was turning another, that her body came across that of another woman and ploughed right into her at speed. Charlotte lost her balance and her bag of purloined items went flying, spilling out everywhere - and as she hit the ground, she was already apologising profusely.

"I'm so sorry. So very sorry! I wasn't looking! I.... was..... no.... I'm sorry! Are you ok? Are you hurt! So sorry, so very sorry! Please! Please don't hurt me. I didn't mean to! Honest!"

[Felicity (DELETED 4145)]

Looking at the woman in front of me I smile to her, a laugh bubbles up out of me as I look at her. For a brief moment, my mind was clear, so very focused. Looking at her, I could see how the wind moved around her, and the lights danced upon her skin. It was so beautiful. Realizing she was speaking to me I drew my concentration to her eyes focusing in on her voice. It was beautiful as well, and I could see it. ”Your fine, it happens to all of us..honest no worries. I bump into people all the time.....”


Again my focus changes as I glance around at the lights from the buildings. My fingers tapping at my thigh to the music I hear within my own head, a tune, a beat only I can hear. Looking back to the woman I watch her now. My eyes examining her. I can see the beautiful streams of light wrapping around her in brilliant colors. I know its hallucination, something tells me that its not really there, but I see it how can I deny what I can see.


”So beautiful..” I smile watching the ever dancing lights before returning to look the woman in her eyes.

[Charlotte Ruse]

She was scrambling around on the ground, trying to pick up all the bits and pieces that had spilled from her bag. However, she still heard what the woman said and smiled, glad she wasn't mad at being run into. However, when the woman remarked on something being beautiful, she looked around as she thought that someone else had shown up or happened. However, they were alone on the street and the shouting voices that had been following her, could be heard heading the other way. Slowly, her head lifted and eyes blinked as she looked at the woman. Her perfectly black outlined eyes squinted as she looked her over and her red painted lips pursed before speaking, thinking she'd misheard.

"Sorry? What did you say?"

Slowly, all her stuff gathered again, she stood up and leant against the wall as if trying to vanish through it, unsure of the woman as she was with everyone.

"Look, I'm really sorry. Is.... is there anything..... how can I say sorry properly?"

However, there were shouts and calls coming towards them again - her pursuers had obviously decided she'd not gone where they'd thought and so had turned around to come back for her again, taking another route. The right route. Charlotte's eyes widened as she looked over her shoulder, sidesepping along the wall towards the woman until she was beside and then behind her with a scared whisper.

"They're coming!"