An account of events

[Roderic]

I attempted to be social.
With Strix. Phoebe is her name.
Her birth name I guess.
It was not very good.
I was not very good.
I don't think I need to be social.
I don't really know how to be social.
But I said I'd try.

I said something really stupid.
Probably a few stupid things.
She's going to think I'm crazy.
Or something worse.
That I was hitting on her.
I wasn't.
I was trying to be nice and give a compliment.
Maybe a couple.
I was told you do that in social situations. Sometimes.
When it's appropriate.
I thought it was appropriate.

Strix sent me a dry martini.
Why did she do that?
I don't drink. I can't drink.
If I did, I still wouldn't drink.
So I sent her a Gin and Tonic back.
I don't know what she likes to drink.
She didn't even say anything.
I'm not psychic.
But I guess you send drinks back when you get them.
Even if you don't drink them.

[Roderic]

I'm thinking about getting a place.
Besides my cave.
I think only Nix and I know about the cave, but after last nights whatever that was, maybe others know about it too.
I don't like the idea of people coming around unannounced.
Being in my cave.

I got a picture last night from Phoebe.
I thought about deleting it.
I should delete it.
I might delete it later.
No hurry to delete it.
She gave it to me.

Now that I'm back, I'm thinking of starting my business.
I didn't mind working for Juliet, but if she doesn't come back, I can't stay out of work forever.
Can only make so much from selling bones and relics.

I forgot to ask Saige how Rice is doing.
And tell her what happened about Mexico.
Juliet asked me to look in after Saige and I can't say I've done that good of a job.

I think I know Paige.
She looked familiar.
I'll have to think on it a little bit.

I don't know Calix. Never met him.
Felt like shoving my fist down his face and my sword up his ***.
Guy's too touchy on too many people.
Like Nix.

Pyper seems different.
Sort of strange.
She was on about lamps.
I bet I could make her a lamp.
I could make a few lamps.

[Roderic]

I made a lamp for Pyper.
Nothing fancy.
Now maybe she can get off the topic of lamps for the next get together.
Didn't know or think lamps were that big of a deal.

Had a productive night.
Stabbed some guy in the arm. Barely missed hacking the damn thing off.
Went back to the cave to find no one there.
Nix must still be keeping it a secret.
She knows what's good for her.

Looked at some space for a place to make my crafts and sell them eventually.
Didn't find anything yet, but I'll know when I see it.

Learned about fadebeasts.
It gave me an idea.
Sort of.
Just not sure that's a road for me, but the idea is still there.

Strix touched me today.
I don't know why.
But she did.
I'm not sure I disliked it. I'm not sure I liked it either.
I wonder if she was looking for my phone.
For the picture.
I still haven't deleted it.

[Roderic]

Someone was thinking in my head.
Like Juliet did once or twice.
But it wasn't her.
I think it was Pyper.
Makes sense since she was on about lamps.
I think she liked the lamp. Hard to tell.
She was kind of rambling.

Altaire is busy. Social.
Most of it I ignore.
Some of it is useful.
There is this woman named Renee, she might be alright to hang out with.
Once in a while.
When Nix thinks I should be social, I could be social with her.

Something happened.
I'm not sure what I think about it yet.
I will just watch, wait and see.
Observe from the shadows.
I don't like people in my business.
They probably don't either.
So I'll just wait.

[Roderic]

I heard a voice in my head again.
She told me I purify myself in fire.
Who is she?
Is that what I'm supposed to do?
Is that the possible cure?
I would try it if I was sure I wasn't going back to that dark place.
The umbra. That's what I've decided to call the place we go when we all die.

I'm working on another project.
For Strix.
I think it would help her.
Maybe in another night or two it'll be done.
These things take time.

Nix says I sired two people.
I was calling them thing one and thing two.
I'm not sure how I sired them.
Or why I sired them.
One of them is a woman and the other has some stupid name.
An alias, I'm thinking. It sounds like a gay porn star name.
I've got nothing against gay people. Or porn stars.
I don't get them. Porn stars. But I don't get people either.
And I don't give a **** that he's gay. If he is. Not my business. Don't care about it.
I don't get people because the majority crave some emotion that strokes someone's ego and makes them feel better about themselves when they're only at best mediocre at their life.

I decided to delete that picture.
I should have deleted it that night.
I still don't know why I didn't.
But, I did. Tonight.

I've figured out the name of my business since no one wants to hire me.
For whatever reason.
Tired of jumping through hoops for jobs that don't pan out.
So I'll be my own boss. Make my own hours.
Don't have to worry about anyone nosing around my stuff.
I think it has a nice ring to it.
Better get back to that project.

[Roderic]

This ghost keeps following me and blabbing my ear off.
I don't like people or ghosts that talk too damn much.
If it's not worth listening to.
Sad thing is I can't kill her.
She's already dead.

A couple nights ago I heard beeps in my head.
I think that's what they were.
It was weird.
Almost like Morse Code, but when I tried to research it, I didn't get very far on what the code was.
I'll have to keep looking.
I'm not sure why I keep hearing thoughts in my head or strange noises.

I finished my project for Strix.
But I'm not going to give it to her today.
Since it's Easter. Might be sort of odd.
So, she can get it tomorrow. It's not like a night will kill her.

I've been collecting hides, skulls and paws from animals in the hunting grounds.
Got a few wolf parts and bears parts too.
Strix told me she was hunting those things so I decided to check it out for myself.
It'll be good for my business in the future.

I've noticed that there are a lot more women in Altaire than men.
It doesn't bother me I guess.
I just find it weird that there are all these female vampires around.
And most their sires are male.
I wonder if they're compensating for something.
Sure, I sired some chick I don't even know, but I don't have a whole carload of them hanging around me.
It's strange for sure.
Wonder what that will do to the natural progression of things in the human world if our kind keeps siring the majority of the women folk in Harper Rock.

[Roderic]

I gave Phoebe her present yesterday.
She doesn't celebrate Easter. So she didn't think it was an Easter gift.
She liked it.
I don't know if I'm glad she liked it, or if I'm disappointed that she liked it.
I'm trying to be social, but it is a lot of work.
And I think she wants to know more things about me.
Things I don't share with others.
That's what happens when people get social.
You can start out with small talk, but then they want to know more things about you.
The skeletons in your closet.

She was a stripper before.
I don't give a ****. If that's what she liked to do, she should do it.
I just hope she doesn't turn out to be like that one dumb stripper ***** I killed a few months back.
I don't think Nix would be happy if I killed her.

Speaking of Nix, she's getting married.
And she calls herself PhePhe.
I think she has a head wound.
I don't know for sure since I've not seen her for a while.
I'm not sure why anyone would want to get married.
Someone is always in your space.
In your business.
She has to have a head wound.

[Roderic]

Strix was in the graveyard today.
I think she's following me.
I'm not sure why. It doesn't bother me.
I'm not very interesting.
She wanted to see those big monster things I killed.
I didn't see any in there.
It was sort of disappointing. Mostly because she wasn't able to see what I was talking about.
Maybe I should make her something out of one of their bones.

She tried to attack me with a water balloon launcher.
She missed.
Then she tried to attack me with a sword and missed again. Just barely.
She managed to rip my shirt, not that I told her that.
She wants to get better, so she needs to keep working at it.
Almost isn't good enough.
I told her she could stab at me any time she wants to for practice.
We're vampires. Who gives a ****?

I thought about stabbing her back, but what if I cut off one of her legs?
Sure, it'll grow back, but she really wants that job at that strip joint.
I forget the name of it.
She will need a leg to dance.
I still think she should do her own thing. Be her own boss.

I'm thinking more about this Axel and Nix thing.
The marriage thing.
I don't really see him around ever.
Sure, he says some things here and there, but I don't trust him.
I don't like his cut.
No, I'm not jealous. I just think Nix should be careful.
She's my sire.
She's the best vampire out there.
I don't think Axel is anywhere near her in skills.
Mental, Social or physical.
I do know that if he fucks up, I'll repeatedly kill him.
Or die trying. Repeatedly.

[Roderic]

Tonight while I was out I heard something.
Or, lack of something.
Silence everywhere I went.
It was sort of comforting in a strange sense.
I can't really explain it, but I like the lack of noise around me.
It reminded me of that place.
The place of darkness.
The abyss. The Umbra.

My online business class isn't too bad.
I like working at my own pace.
The assignments aren't too bad either.
I think anyone could ace this class.
I don't plan on being a legitimate business man, just dabble in enough things to open up one shop.

Nix, or PhePhe that is, is talking about costume parties or costume events.
I don't wear costumes.
So that means I won't have to go be social.
I didn't like the idea at first, but it could work to my advantage.
I'll go to the next family get together because costume's aren't required.
I just go to watch anyways since I don't have a lot to say.

Others like to be social, so I'll not stand in their way.
Me?
I'm fine with being in the background, or behind stage.

[Roderic]

I bought my own place today.
I still have my cave, but I thought it would be best to have my own place.
Just in case.
To do my work in.
I don't like it as much as the cave, but it doesn't make a lot of sense to put anything worth any real value in a cave.

I made my first friend.
She said we were friends.
So we're friends.
Her name is Strix.
I cracked her skull and stole her leg.
I'm going to make something with her leg for my new place.
In return, she cut my arm open.
One night she will take one of my appendages. I know she will.
And that's alright.
I look forward to it. It means she's progressing.
Training. Working hard. I can appreciate that.

I'm kind of regretting deleting the photo of Strix now.
She gave it to me.
And now we're friends.
Friends don't throw away things friends give them.
It was a really nice picture of her.