The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

15th March 2014

Huge now I am. Enos moving more is. Swear I do that chewing he is on something within. Teeth or claws. Something in there me damage is doing. Say nothing for now I shall. This Enver would worry. Wish I do not for him to worry before need worry he should. Concerned I am though. Creature eager seems for this world to greet. Eager I am not for to die. Perhaps write I should instructions for Enver. In case worst happens does. Though necessary that likely is not. Speak to him I can from Realm. Hope I do that comes to that it does not. But pray more I do that if worst happens does that Enver me does leave. Run away he must. Survive. Want him I do not for me to that place to follow.

[Keara Aithne]

16th March 2014

Played I did song for Enver. Only love can hurt like this by Paloma Faith. Liked at first he did not my choice of music as said I did that it me of him did remind. Of us. Said he did that it depressing was. Agree on music we often do not. See I do his point. Song my usual taste is not. Only liked I did the lyrics. Very accurate they are for how feel I do. Explained this to him I did. Perhaps offended him in this I did but in the end…minded he did not. See I do not the negativity in the song that he had seen. Once realised he did how view it I do. How shows it does that love him I do. Happier then he seemed. Even as I am. Loves me still he does. Proves he does Deanna wrong. Good to me he is. Mostly.

[Keara Aithne]

18th March 2014

Enos gone is and rest I must. Yesterday difficult day was. Birthed it was. If that correct term is. Perhaps not. But experience different was than expected. Clawed it did for itself to free and when freed it was…disappeared it did. Healed myself as best I could. Today also I the same thing have done. But still my energy low is. Tomorrow hunt I shall. Need I do for to kill so many fadebeasts as I can. Enver likely right is. Find Enos I likely shall not. But kill I can many others for for my mistake to atone.

[Keara Aithne]

19th March 2014

Entered we did into raid today. Nice it was for out in the world once more to be. For of help to be. Culled already I have several beasts. Hunt more tomorrow I shall. Think I do that if I several daily do hunt and dispatch for week or so that my conscience eased shall be. Back to raid. Raid over was before really begun we had, but further got we did than hoped I could have. Like I do for with my family to work. Most pleasing that is. Especially when absent these last few weeks I was.

Different side of Enver in this raid I saw. Like I do for to watch him with his hand work. In any sense. Word there for which wish I do him to describe but from my lips, my pen, wrong it seems. Strange it is for a word to think and have it not of your own be. So strange it is that say it as yet I cannot. Least not in context that word wishes to be spoken does. Nor can I the sentence write. Curious that is. And perhaps yet another sign of the influence My Love over me does have. For changed I have since I him met and know that I do. Changed for the better say I should. Before read this Enver you do and the worst do think. Like I do who I am with you. Very much so. A better person you me do make. Perhaps here is where stop writing I should. Beginning I am for a conversation not have where one ought not be.

[Keara Aithne]

21st March 2014

Many fadebeasts killed I have. Easier is for them to locate if ritual you do for them to find. Though time that takes too. Ritual. Kill beast. Ritual. Kill beast. Wondered I did if tome overused become would have, as returned home too many times I did for this task to accomplish. Quite tired I am. Knows I do not how many killed I have but between this and raids that in the city all too frequent have become, quite tired I am. Wait I cannot for sunrise, then in his arms I can sleep. Hmm…perhaps if tell him now I do that tired I am, to bed early we can go. Try this I shall.

[Keara Aithne]

22nd March 2014

Worry I do for Charlotte. Rabbit blood she asked of me today. Needless to say help in that request I could not. Helped not also my mood as quite injured I was…am. Perhaps a little cold to her I was. Understand I do not this impulse for from human blood to abstain. But progress is perhaps that she from a rabbit would drink. Vegetarian she was in her first life. I think. Ask I should how rabbit different from human blood is. Still a living creature it is and humans far more blood do have, Kill them you need not for your own life to sustain. Crueller is this new form of feeding that found she has. Oh and then thinks she does that she the solution has found as healed her blood can be. Like that better solution is. Learn I still believe she should for on her own to feed. If gone I am again, or Jonah is, then starve she will. Or perhaps gorge herself she shall and then a human into death bring. Perhaps vampire too long I have been. Remember I do not the texture of mortal sustenance. Recall I do not that sensation to miss either. No problem had I for to drink from frail creatures. Fed I did upon my family when bid too I was. Though Ven always said did that born to this life I was.

[Keara Aithne]

23rd March 2014

Enver mentioned did something called a ‘Fight Club’. Then said he did that it a movie is. Like I would for that movie to watch. Interesting it does sound. Though now wonder I do if lying to me he was. As tone in his voice he gets when trying he is something from me to hide. Perhaps ask around I should, as mind I do not wounds to have. Recent raids proof of this to him should be. Though…then said he did that likes he does not when I like ‘swiss cheese’ home do return. Understood that I did not…till explained it me he did. Says he does that too many holes in me I have. But loves me still he does. Just as love him still I do when injured he is. Like I do not him that way to see. Guess I do that he the same does feel when injured I am. And yet stops us it does not from into those buildings to go. Wounds heal. And so long as part us they do not…But still…more careful I need to be as to be sent to that place worth it would not be. And well…I guess Enver more interesting wounds upon me could inflict. Hmm…consider that I shall.

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Oops? Caught me he did before post I could. Know I do not if that good thing is not but told me he did that inappropriate my response would have been. Wanted I did for her to remind that I his wife am. Typed the words I had. Quiet on that board I have been, as still waiting I am for him with his sire to speak. Lucky I am that injured I am. Think I do that his response less severe was, since burned I am from head to toe. Stepped I did on a trap. Tried I did for rituals after this to do, well they did not go. Pain the better of me did get. Still…heal I shall.

[Keara Aithne]

25th March 2014

Gifted I did my husband another relic tonight. Love I do for that to do. Just as he such things loves for me to buy. Truly blessed I am for Enver in my life to have. Deanna seeing this now is. I think. Even if admit it she never will. Her taunting of him lessened have. At least says she does less to me, though perhaps just seen her as often of late I have not.

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Glad I am that raid over is. Time had I for Alanoth’s letter to find and for him to find. Even if lost to me he still was. Hope I do that returns he does. Like I do not for of him to think in that place. Try I must for to remember for him messages in there to send. Remind him perhaps I can that this world him still does need.

[Keara Aithne]

26th March 2014

Told him I did that so intimate we should not be by the elevator and tried he did for my fears to dissuade…until Charlotte arrived did and then denied he could not that correct I was in what I had said. Need I do for him distracted to keep until we alone can be perhaps, as while believe I do not that the family perhaps mind would; there are things that only done should be when we alone are.

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Team raid ongoing in the city is. Good practice for me and mine that shall be. Loot that there found can be inconsequential is. Like I do for this kind of time with my family to spend. Nice it is for time with Lorde too to spend. Important to Enver she is. Thus important to me she must also be. From what seen I have of her thus far, like I do. Similar creatures perhaps we are. Though different too of course. Perhaps Enver attracts does a certain type of female. Though that thought leads to places that wish I do not for my thoughts to go.

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Strange it is for another about me to feel. Tonight I with that sensation must deal. Know I do not why another me inspire would. Like that I do not. Used to Enver’s touch I am. In every fashion. To feel another about me disconcerting was. When Elliot me did inspire…long ago…comforting it was. But then like him I do. He friendly is. Even if know him so well I do not, mind I did not his feeling about me. Enver’s energy more than comforting is. Explain it I cannot. Words there are not for what feel I do when he me does inspire. Perhaps psychological it is….what feel I do. Know I do not. Mind I do not…why that is. Like it I do.

[Keara Aithne]

27th March 2014

Killed we did the creature that guarding the top floor of the raid was. Seen one such as her before I have not. Know I do that others her had hit, so strange was when died she did upon my blade. Just once did I her hit. Still, mind I do not. Quite exhausted I was. Glad I am for home to return. Enver and I heal together can before we upon the next challenge do embark. Well…not just Enver and I. Lorde too quite injured is, and likely Leif too. She too into the fray enjoys leaping.

Charlotte Enver threatening does find. Know I do not why. Never have I such a feeling around him had. Even when threw me he did through the wall. Though guess I do that love me blind does make to certain emotions. Know I do that wishes me harm he does not, for I have offered for him me to harm and difficulty therein does he have…even if deserve it I do. Perhaps time together they need spend. Try I shall for this to remember. Though likely forget I hall. Upon a whirlwind feel I sit of late. So much done must be. Creatures culled must be all over the city. Need I do perhaps on something else to concentrate so that better focused I can be. Oh and ask Charlotte I must why she my powers did block. If wishes she does not for my voice in her head to hear, say that she can. Much like my Sara she is. And quiet of late she too has been. Email her again perhaps I should.