I'm not who you think I am... ~Journal~

[Kira]

January 4th, 2014

Kira sat on the sofa, her legs crossed and the upper leg bounced some as she was reading a book. Soon she felt small paws with nails, pawing at her moving foot. She looked down, seeing Himesh there playing. She sighed softly, trying to return to her book. Sof came around the corner of the sofa and attacked the dog, who yelped and ran off. Kira put her book down and glared at the cat. "That's not nice." she said, pushing the cat aside and got to her feet. She went after the small fluffy dog and picked him up. "You got to stick up to her or she'll never respect you." she said. The fluff ball was just a bundle of energy, wiggling around in her arms.

Tucker bounded down the steps and went straight to the door. Kira put Himesh down so he could follow Tucker. She opened the door, the animal door had been closed for now because of the cold. She liked keeping track of when the animals went out, always tracking in muddy snow.

Tucker ran out into the snow, Himesh trying to follow and went straight into a snow drift and disappeared.

"Oh ****." Kira said, she went after the dog barefoot and dug in the snow and picked up the dog. "You can't go where he goes short stuff." she returned inside and dried the dog off with a towel and let him play in the living room with some toys.

[Kira]

January 5th, 2014

Himesh was too new of a pet to know that trying to sleep with Kira wasn’t the best thing to do. He couldn’t even get up on the bed without pet stairs. When Kira started to toss and turn, he took off and hid under the bed.

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Kira found herself in her Inner World. She was on her back, on the grass that was wet from dew, the air was heavy with fog. The air smelled of salt from the sea. She wasn’t sure why she was here but she closed her eyes, trying to remove herself from this area. She heard soft footsteps coming towards her. She opened her eyes, “Not you..” she muttered but didn’t move. She was not scared of Warrior.

“Are you able to teleport to Ireland?” she asked.

The question took her completely off guard. “I don’t know. Maybe.” Kira replied. The thought crossed her mind before, she wanted to go to Ireland but flying would be a problem, the sun would be a problem. “Why are you asking?”

Warrior knelt down, “Should go there and never come back.” She said, “No one cares for you here. That one man got your hopes up and never got back to you about that little ski date. That was just stupid.” She said.

Kira rolled her eyes. “You’re tooting the same tune. Don’t you know another song?” She replied. “I had no hopes for such things. Just hopeful he would be not crazy like the others.” She said. She thought skiing might be fun but she suppose she would never know. “Stay out of my life.”

“Your life, my life.” Warrior said, cupping Kira’s face. “No one will ever love us and live. It’s just how it is. We’re cursed. Friends, family, would be lovers…they all meet an awful end.”

The touch from Warrior was creepy. Kira sat up and pushed herself away. “I’m done talking to you.” She said. She got up but Warrior grabbed her wrist, pulling her roughly towards the cliff. Kira pulled on her arm, “Let go.” She hissed, the sky rumbled with thunder and it started to rain. The sound of rattling chains worried her and she felt the grip of Warrior’s hand replaced with cold metal, then her other wrist, around her stomach. “What the hell..”

“Going to make sure you remember this. People are bad news. You can only count on yourself. If you can’t make it in this life, then I will take over and live it for you.” Warrior said, “The only thing that is real is pain.” He said, taking a dagger and started to stab Kira over and over again. Kira couldn’t move, the chains held tight, she started screaming and cussing at her first self.

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Marcus had only past through to check on everyone. Much to his surprise that Kira was screaming in her sleep. He floated off to go wake up Dave, which was hard since all he could do was yell at the man.

“If I get stabbed, I’m going to be pissed.” Dave said, still not fully away when he went to unlock Kira’s door. The screaming woke him up fully and he went to her side. “Kira! Wake up!” he yelled, taking the chance to shake her.

Kira’s eyes snapped open, her vision adjusted to the fact that she was back in her room. She sat up, bewildered and looked to Dave but before she knew it, he was hugging her.

“What in the world is going on in your dreams?” Dave asked.

Kira was tense, “Hum…” she said, not sure how to reply to that. She rested her head against him and sighed. “Thank you..” was all she said. She settled down, listening to his heartbeat. After a moment she pushed him away and rolled over.

“Are you going to be okay?” Dave asked.

“I’ll be fine.” Kira replied, looking up at where Sof was perched at.

Dave grabbed Himesh and set him on the bed before leaving the room. Himesh went over to Kira and she had to shield her face from getting licked.

“Lay down.” Kira muttered to the fluffball and he turned around a few times before settling down. Tucker soon joined them, flopping down behind Kira and Sof took point above Kira’s head.

[Kira]

January 6th, 2014

Kira was looking for a distraction from what happened the night before. She had been taking extra care to guard herself from inner attacks. She dug the dog sled out from the garage and set it up. She went inside and got Tucker suited up. He was the only dog she had, well big enough to use, she couldn’t borrow any other ones this time. “You can do this Tuck. You’re a big strong dog.” She said. She had boots for him to protect the pads of his paws. She didn’t think he needed a coat, he was made for winter. Now Himesh on the other hand, he had a lot of fluff but he was small. She figured he would get cold, he was just going to be on the sled with her. She put a sweater on him.

She grabbed Sof and put a sweater on her as well. “You’re coming too.” She said. Sof gave a disproving huff as she was carried out with the annoying yippy dog. Kira had no problems hooking Tucker up, he seemed to enjoy the activity. She set Sof and Himesh down in the sled but Kira forgot to set the brake and Tucker took off without her. Sof gave a yowl and Himesh was barking up a storm.

“Ah hell. Fuc…Tucker!” Kira caught herself as she almost said ****** instead of Tucker. She ran after the sled, taking a jump and flew in the air, landing in the sled, falling to her knees. She sat down, taking the reigns and got Tucker to slow down. Sof was growling as she went over to Kira and forced herself inside Kira's coat for the rest of the ride. Himesh just kept barking at everything and everyone as they went by. Kira knew by now they were in fae land but she was hoping she was safe. That was until Tucker saw a rabbit and started to chase. "****! Tucker! Stop!" she called out.

Tucker didn't stop until he lost the rabbit down a hole, Himesh decided he wanted in on this and jumped out of the sled and disappeared in the snow.

"Damnit, I keep losing the small one in the snow." Kira muttered, sitting up and grabbed the dog by the back of the sweat and put it back on the sled. She got Tucker to turn around and head back home. "Well, that was exciting." she said, tossing Tucker a treat once they stopped for the night.

Kira took them back inside and dumped the cat from her coat. "You know Sof, could make a little sled with wheels and Himesh can cart you around. Would that please you?" she asked.

Sof tilted her head then meowed.

"Figured as much." Kira said, walking off to the kitchen to get some hot coco.

[Kira]

January 16th, 2014

Kira moved a dagger around in her hands, god the Owl Turds were whiny little bitches. Couldn't figure out why she called them that? They liked to jump down people's throats for spelling it wrong, she didn't give a **** how it was spelled. Their name was Owl Turds. Owl was the bird, Turd was what they are. Little shits. Owl Shits didn't have the same ring, NixShit did though.

And really? The only comeback was calling someone stupid? Bunch of children. If the first thing you can come up with calling someone stupid like some child than obviously you're not creative at all.

She was done with the little name calling assholes that were on that thread. It was called being the bigger person. She was far too busy for such childish games.

"I don't like the way you're looking.." Dave said as he brought a block of clay over to her.

Kira smirked, "I'm not plotting your death or anything.." she said, she stuck the dagger into the clay and cut off a smaller chunk. "Just the people need to look at their own stupidity before calling others stupid. Isn't that a first insult for a child? Someone doesn't agree with you and you call them stupid."

"Yeah, pretty much. Doodoo head comes to mind as well." Dave replied.

Kira raised an eyebrow. "Don't know much about children...at all." she said, she didn't have a childhood.

"I can just see a smaller version of you just stabbing the person who is annoying you." Dave said as he got into the fridge.

"Sounds like me.." Kira said, might be why no one claimed her. Maybe she killed everyone who knew her. Damn, why did he have to put that thought in her head. Maybe she needed to look up mass murder in Ireland. "Fuuucccckkk." she said, walking off.

Dave blinked, "What did I say?" he said, confused as to why she was pissed off now. "Hey! You want the clay put up then?" he called out.

[Kira]

January 17th, 2014

Text from Cody: Boss Lady, I'm sorry! I'm sick. I can't make it tonight.

Kira's hand twitched. She texted back: You're not allowed to get sick!
She added another one: It's fine, just get better.

Cody: You had me worried for a moment. Thanks.

Kira grinned and sent: You expecting you're fired?

Cody: .....you know you love me, you can't.

Kira frowned, ********. She replied: Yeah yeah, my problem child of the bunch. I need to go inform who is next in line for tonight then.

She got no more messages from him as she called the next in line to see if he was able to do it, if he had time they could do some rehearsal before the show. She got the other beef cakes to meet earlier than normal so the replacement was more comfortable for the real show. "Well, I'm glad I had Dru make extra outfits just in case." she said. Cody was much smaller than this guy.

"Show time boys." she said, she relaxed backstage as they took the stage. She had no numbers tonight and she was glad for it.

[Kira]

January 18th, 2014

Kira wondered if Jarrett would make time for a social call. Somehow she doubt it. This other gangster killer would keep him busy no doubt.

"Going to tell me what this burning herb does?" Lady Baron asked.

"It cleanses an area. Negative energy, bad spirits. That sort of thing." Kira replied as she brushed out Himesh, he was so fluffy that he was full of static so when he went to touch noses with Tucker, he zapped the other dog which made them both yelp.

"You trying to call me a bad spirit?" LB asked.

"No, I just wondered what kind of effect it had on wraiths. Nothing it looks like." Kira said, Sof was tried of Kira paying attention to the dog and pushed her into Kira's arms so that Kira would brush her instead.

"Ah." LB said, "So you really saving that gangster for tomorrow."

"Yeah, I keep my word. I won't touch him until tomorrow." Kira replied, she looked up at the bookshelf and noticed the ferrets there. It amazed her where they could get into. She was glad the oven was not used unless Dave came over.

[Kira]

January 19th, 2014

Kira went to the basement to play with the gangster. This one, was worse than the rest which was why he was given special treatment. She hummed softly as she took out her daggers, deciding where to start. The screaming wouldn't reach any part of the house and in the end the fadebeasts got their snack. She took the hose from the wall and washed the blood down the center drain.

She returned to the first floor, locking up the door to the basement. Moving her way to the living room, she looked around to make sure no one was around, which pretty much just Dru. She hurried off to the bathroom where clean clothes was already waiting for her. She took a shower, and got dressed. When she stepped outside the spa area, she watched Tucker, then Himesh, then Sof go by, followed by the ferrets. "Man, starting to be a zoo here." she said. She suppose pets were entertaining enough.

CRASH

Kira blinked slowly, but animals did not have breaks and did slid across the floor and broke things. She shook her head and went to make sure none of them got cut up.

[Kira]

January 20th, 2014

Kira had changed into her animal form, a serval. She stretched to the point that it looked like she was bowing and gave a yawn. It was one of the safest ways to be with nature without having to worry about fae attacks. She went downstairs and stared down Tucker. "You know I'll beat you up with my kitty paws if you try to come after me." she sent to the dog's mind. He tilted his head. Kira lifted up one of her paws with the claws out and the dog took off. 'Heh, that's what I thought.' she thought.

Then there was Himesh, who hadn't seen her in her animal form. She was far bigger than the small dog. He couldn't do her any harm, she patted his head and he just bounced around in a hyper manner. She trotted off to the animal door, switching the lock so she could get out. She pushed Himesh's head back in and locked it back up.

'Damn its cold..' Kira thought, not thinking through that this was an African cat. She seriously needed another form, a cat that was used to the cold for the winter months. But could one take another form? She hurried off across the snow covered grounds. She went into the woods, stalking various other animals, birds, rabbits, squirrels.

She climbed up a tree to take a nap. Her tail swished back and forth as she rested her head on her furry arms. When she started to wake, she felt warmth on her back. Opening her green cat eyes, she saw the blazing sun and stiffened, falling off the branch of the tree and went deep into the snow."****!" though it came out as a cat yowling.

Her head popped up from the snow, her ears back. Strange enough, she was not scared of the sun but merely surprised she slept so long. She ran off to her home, unlocking the animal door, went inside and locked it again. She ran to the bathroom and pushed the door closed. She went over to the tub and pushed on the handle of the of the hot water, then the cold, letting the water mix and jumped in. She swam around a little, warming up before changing back. Her mind was still on the sun, she felt that fear again.

Kira turned off the water but took a quick shower after the water from the bath lost its warmth. She got dressed, leaving the bathroom and stood in front of the front door. Her anxiety grew the closer she got to the door. She placed her hand on the door knob, feeling the fear in her chest and the pit of her stomach. She slowly backed away. Why was she scared now? She wasn't in her cat form. She even had daywalker now, she wasn't sure why she bothered since her fear but...it was pointless. The fear remained but in her animal form she was not scared.

That did give her ideas when it came to traveling. It would come in handy.

[Kira]

January 21th, 2014

Kira was distracted at the meeting for the Beef Cakes next show and Cody kept getting her attention again. "Sorry.." she said. "You guys settled on what you're doing? I'm not wanting to do anything this show or the next. I got things to do. You need to be able to practice without me being here."

"Well that's no fun." Cody said with a frown.

"I know, you'll miss me but you'll just have to deal with it." Kira said with a roll of her eyes. "I'm a busy woman, you can't hold all my time."

"Damn girl, you do anything other than work?" Lorenzo replied.

Kira thought about how many gangsters she killed and grinned. "Yes, of course." she replied.

"Got a boyfriend yet?" Cody asked.

Kira frowned, "That's really none of your business." she snapped. "What songs you guys doing so I work on a different arrangement."

"Well that's a no." Cody said and handed her the paper from Sam that said what songs they were doing.

Kira glared at Cody. She looked at the list, the music running through her head. "Alright, start practicing with the normal tracks. I'll start on this." she said. She got up, grabbing her jacket and left the lounge. She found an empty spot and teleported to her home that had her music studio.

Sitting down at the keyboards, she put on a beat and went from there. Music was her second release, it would keep her from seeking out gangsters to kill.

[Kira]

February 14th, 2014

Kira stared at the frog that Serenity sent and the message.

Sometimes you'll have to kiss a few frogs. Best to do it on Valentine's Day.

She wrinkled her nose, "Rather kiss frogs." she muttered, expressly if it was between David and a frog, she would pick the frog.

Then came some odd items from Windy. She opened the box and took out a dead cupid. She smirked, it was an interesting thing to send. Sof came over and sniffed it then looked at Kira like she expected there to be something more interesting or was able to be eaten.
"It's amusing." Kira said, petting the cat.

She opened up the other box, she had been worried at first because it was heart shape but the chocolates inside were not one would expect for the 'holiday'. She raised an eyebrow. She took out a hand and bit into it. She then looked at the note.

"You remember our last Valentine's Day? I'm sure this is a lot better. ~ Anemoi"

Kira put the note down, last year was when he became a paladin to kill her. She put the lid back on the chocolate and put them up so the dogs didn't get into it, or the cat for that matter.

She left for the raid and right away she found a gorgeous sword. "Well hello my pretty.." she said, smiling. It wasn't the only blade she found within the first hour of being there but it was the best. She sat down to rest away from everyone, the group of people there made her uncomfortable. She took out her phone, there was a matter she needed to deal with. She didn't like her company's website being hacked into and she was 99% sure of who was doing it. Finding the person at where the IP was traced to and finding the same person at a computer yet again. Anyone would come to the same conclusion, and they would most likely deny it but either way they would know she was on to them.

"Just stab him.."

Kira sighed. "That would start a whole lot of **** with people I got out of my life for a reason." she replied to Warrior. She closed her eyes. Even when the reply came, she didn't read it. Her company website still ended up under attack. "And that's why I hate people. Stupid pathetic morons."

She got up, oh well. The asshole would get bored sooner or later she suppose. She stabbed a zombie wolf in the head, she had better things to do then waste her time with idiots.