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Welcome to the inner workings of my mind

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--The following transcript was a live chat roleplay--
This RP took place on Wednesday 20th November 2013. The first section is set in two different locations in the city as the character's converse via Mindspeak 2.
Keara: Enver? If read my words you have. Hope I do that you now a better understanding of me have. Know I do that too many questions of you I ask. Ask your own you may also. Hope know that you do.

Enver: I should email her. After my whiskey's done and I've finished this last page. Why didn't she just email me or text me? She knows I'd have to hunt her down or whip out my phone anyways.

Keara: Enver? How? Erm...last page of what? Did I just your thoughts hear?

Enver: God damn it! Where are the napkins? What sort of place puts napkins way the hell over there? Put them at the god damn table in case people spill their drinks? Keara? Is...is that you? What the hell did I get up to last night? Think Enver, think. When did you become a Telepath?

Keara: I..erm...more likely me is, I suppose. Wanted too badly his voice to hear perhaps. Broken I am. Though knew that already he did. Enver? Where are you? Why do you napkin need. What do you?

Enver: Oh ****. Don't think where you are. They know those things. I think. I wonder if this place has any beer nuts. Screw the last page. Who was this asshole putting his arms around Keara? Skim, skim, skim...looking for a name. God damn it. No name.

Keara: What wrong with him is? Sounds different he does. Enver! Told you I did that questions of me you can ask. Prefer I would if you my words in full read, if you my journal do read. Where are you? What do you now? Tell me please. If summon him I must then summon him I shall. Perhaps that first plan should have been.

Enver: Yeah, I've got questions alright. Who's the jackass I need to sucker punch for putting his hands around her? Damn. Did she hear that? Did I think that too loud? Hello? I'm not at the pub that's for sure. Think of someplace else. The movie theatre. Yeah, I know that like that back of my hand. Summon me? I haven't even paid my tab yet. I hope she doesn't do that. I left it open all night.

Keara: Need punch no-one you do. Care of myself I can take. If think you do that allow another I would that not my blood is, me to embrace without slapping, then wrong you are. Surely knows this he does. Hit him enough I have and like him I do. Enver...in which bar can you be found?

Enver: Am I drunk? Is this really happening? Is this what it's like to be a Telepath? I don't even remember going to talk to the wraith guide about being a Telepath. How much did I drink last night? Beer nuts, beer nuts. There they are. I wonder if beer nuts would go over well at the concession stand? I know which bar I'm not at. Nowhere near the Wickbridge area, as I'm in my theatre, watching a flick. I wonder if she bought that. Wait. Did she hear that too?

Keara: Why will he me no direct answer give? Lie to him I never do and lies now he does to me...Worries me that does...Enver? Keep your secret you may. Matters not where found you can be...matters only if you my words have read and if you me now better understand.

Enver: I swear she's right behind me. Never heard her thoughts so clear. Never knew she could hear my thoughts. Lying is a grey area. It's not like keeping the location a secret hurts her. I don't get it. She says she writes this stuff down to reflect, but then asks me answers I don't know and gets mad at me, when all she really wanted to do is reflect? Why doesn't she just tell me this stuff? She could still reflect in her own time. Now that that's been sorted, time for another drink. I forgot if Temperance was alright with people smoking in here. Better not risk it.

Keara: *Growls* Honest with you I always am. Knew much of my thoughts you already did. You the one are that questions does avoid....Why does he this to me do? Why do I allow it? Where is he? Perhaps I Hannah must find. Question her.

Enver: Can this thing turn off? Think of nothing. I'm thinking about, nothing. : Some time passes. : When did they put this album in here? Crap. I can't think of nothing. This is difficult. F3. Yeah, that was a good song. Where is Hannah? Haven't seen her the last couple of nights. I'm not sure why she gave me that ledger thing, I already know how she feels. She's the one all hung up on her feelings.

Keara: Feelings that understand I do not! Mistake it was perhaps to think you would me better understand. understand myself I do not...Wish Ven here was. Explain it to me he would. Perhaps Deanna better answer has. Wraith she may be but crazy is she not. Broken. Hate that word. Oh Nox, what feeling is this. *whimpers* Like it I do not.

Enver: Ven. Screw Ven. Tired of hearing that guy's name. He hasn't come back. For whatever reason. I've come back. I'll keep coming back. Screw Ven. I'd punch that guy in his face too if he did come back. What the hell is Nox? I don't like this weird thing going on. I hate being a telepath.
This section of the RP took place in the Southern Catacombs.


Keara: Having failed to get any straight answers from him and given his current mood Keara decides to summon him to her, and not because she wants to work things out, but because she has an overwhelming desire to hurt him. As he appears before her, she punches out at him, aiming for his jaw. “Why do you me so mad make!” she growl. “Swear I do that torment me on purpose you do!”

Enver: He appeared before he with a drink in his hand, the male wobbling forward from his slightly inebriated state, then back before he leaned over and vomited. Due to his inability to keep anything in his stomach and the hunching over, he barely missed her punch, but did feel the wind go by above his head, which let him know she was trying to hit him. He didn't answer right away as he let all the whiskey out of his system. "Mad?" He grumbled. "Yeah, well welcome to my world. I was pretty mad yesterday." He coughed, dragged his sleeve across his lips and stood upright as best he could.

Keara: Since her first attempt to attack him didn’t work and due to the fact that she was mad as all hell, she grabbed at his wrists, enacting her ability to generate heat with her hands and pulled him closer to her. “No right had you mad to be. Nothing wrong did I. But if mad you wish to be gladly give you reasons I shall.” Her tone was off, he’d never heard her like this, hell she’d never heard herself like this. For some reason he brought things out in her she never knew were possible and in moments like this, she wasn’t sure if that were a good or a bad thing.

Enver: He growled as he felt and could smell his flesh burning. He'd never seen her like this, not even when she was killing big bad creatures in the catacombs or at a raid. It took him a second to think, maybe from the fact he'd never seen her this way, or from his drinking, but once he did, the male shrugged off the effects with one of his favorite abilities and kicked at her. "Stop it." He bellowed, hoping his kick would send her far enough away from him. "You want me to have answers I don't have. I told you what I thought and it wasn't good enough for you. I'm an Allurist, but that doesn't make me knowledgeable on how other people are feeling, damnit." He stood there, looking down at his wrists as the burn marks slowly faded.

Keara: She should have expected him to fight back, she was good at this, this was what she did and yet it came as a surprise. The blow to her stomach pushed her back into the wall, an impact that was as hard on her head as it was on her emotions. He truly hated her, or at least that was what she thought in that moment and part of her wanted to teleport him into the river. “Asked I did,” she half growled, “for your help in my feelings to define.” Her hand went to the back of her head for a moment before rubbing at her neck. “Asking how I learn is. How children learn do. How know you that this red is?” she said pointing to the lettering on her t-shirt. “Or this black is,” her finger indicated the main body of the garment. “Unless someone tells you does. Need I do someone my feelings to explain. And why you no wish Ven to return I know not. At least he patient with me was. Patient I thought you but changed of late you have. Unpredictable you are.” She looked tense, her eyes fixed upon them as if she were trying to see into the very depth of his soul.

Enver: "How I feel might be different to how you feel. Love isn't the same for everyone. I've been trying to get you to understand that." At the sound of Ven's name, the male sneered. "Yeah, well Ven didn't love you like I love you. Guy couldn't even tell you how beautiful you were. If that's what you want, then fine." He threw a hand in the air, then waved it down. "Guy was a jackass." He rubbed at the back of his neck, as he stared right back at her, his fists clenching at his sides.

Keara: “Say that to me you may not! Ven everything to me was. Dishonour his name you may not,” she growled and lunged for him. She wasn’t really sure what she wanted to do to him, the whole thing about him loving her seemed kind of lost in the haze of her anger. She wanted to bring him to the ground, to restrain him, to make him listen to her, to understand.

Enver: "I'd do more than dishonour him if I saw him here right now." He snarled as her body connected in to his and sent them both toppling to the ground. He rolled, trying to get on top of her, because he knew being below her would put him in a bad bind, or so he thought. "Was. He was. You said so yourself. Was." He tried his hardest to keep her pinned down on the floor beneath him. "I'm not dishonoring his name, I'm dishonoring his inability to be the boyfriend, the husband or the bond mate you deserve."

Keara: She stayed under him, her plan not exactly working the way she had hoped and yet he was at least communicating. Now if she could just get him to listen from his vantage point things might actually sort themselves out between them. She went still beneath him, not wanting to fight him. “Understand I do not why say those things you do?” she was still upset but her tone had altered slightly and the anger was replaced by something else. “Ven a wonderful sire was. A loyal companion. My beloved. My world. And gone he is. Hurt you do only me by those things to say. Know I do that gone he is. Think you that I here would be if thought I did that return he might one day? So disloyal am I not. And yet…think I do that like me now he would not. Changed I am. By this world. And…by you.”

Enver: "Sure. He sounds great. For a Ken doll." He kept his gaze on her. "I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm trying to get you to see. But if you're so wrapped up in Ven, then we've got a problem. I'm not Ven. I'm going to shake your world up. I'm never going not going to tell you you're beautiful and I'm never going to not kiss you." He cleared his throat as he thought on her words, then let go of her. "Great. You too." He stood and dusted himself off. "It's my path, right? That's made you change." He cleared his throat and looked away. "I get it." He nodded his head, eyes still off her.

Keara: He’d been speaking to her with a passion she’d never heard from him before. I was strange to hear but kind of pleasing to the ear at the same time. She lay on the floor and came up onto her elbows as he stood up. She watched him and something now seemed off. She didn’t know what to say or how to act around him and they both seemed to shift in mood without any warning. Was it his path? She doubted that. All she felt from him was his gift to inspire her and she liked that feeling. “Want you Ven to be I do not. Everything that feel I do, even if label it yet I cannot what I for you feel.” She pushed up so she was now sitting and crossed her legs. “Your path no part in my emotions play. Unless powers upon me used you have that know of I do not? Change in me that bring about you do good is. Mostly. Anger perhaps a little stronger is but guess I do that all things balanced must be.”
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--The following transcript was a live chat roleplay--

Enver: He nodded when she said what she said about Ven. He looked back at her when she spoke about his path and using powers on her. "I'm not that kind of Allurist." He had heard stories about allurists manipulating emotions to get people to do things. "You never got this angry with Ven?" He asked, barely able to spit the guy's name out in the process.

Keara: As was her style she answered honestly and immediately. “Tempered things were between us. Rules, restrictions, boundaries. This angry remember I never being.” She rubbed at the back of her neck again and moved her head from side to side, helping the tension to subside. “New this is all to me. Confusing. Frustrating. Scary even. But worry more I do that stop it all shall. And in passed days thought I have that often…That enough of me perhaps you have had.” Her hand dropped into her lap and she hung her head, looking down as she picked at her nails. “Understand that I do. Broken I am.” She shrugged, her tone now betraying her vulnerability.

Enver: "Enough of you?" He scoffed. "Wouldn't be here if that were true." He muttered quietly. "You're not broken. Stop saying that. Not your fault you lived in a monastery or something." He couldn't understand how people lived like that, or the fact some guy was married to her and never wanted to even kiss his wife. It was beyond his imagination.

Keara: “But here you are because brought you here I did. Tell me you would not where you were. Lied you did. Lived I never in one place long. 5 years at most. Then moved we did. Travelled the lands. Ven my home was. My constant. Have that here I do not. Did not. Till…my world different is with you around. Liked I did not when you wraith were. When returned you did…” she hesitated to go on, still looking her fingertips. “Well…know now I do that things changed for me have. If read my words you did, then know you do already that scared of you I am not. Scared only I am for where these feelings lead. For what they mean. Want to understand them I do. Want I do not my inexperience our relationship to mar.”

Enver: "Yeah, you brought me here and I can just as easily leave as you brought me here." He pointed out. "I wasn't lying. I just didn't reveal everything for reasons." He pointed to the glass he had that had been dropped and shattered somewhere on the floor. "I know you're not scared of me. Known that for a few nights now." He rubbed at his jawline. "Your inexperience isn't going to mar anything. Like I said, you'll sort your feelings when you sort them out." He pulled out his cigars, lit a pre-cut one and worked on it.

Keara: She dared to look up at him as he spoke but when he mentioned her feelings, she looked down again. He obviously hadn’t read the last few entries in her journal. “Speaking I am not just for my feelings…if…remember you do. When returned you did…That…That kiss my first was. Already this most…” she rubbed at her temples. “Physical…? Relationship is that ever had I have.” This was hard to say and yet she was sure he already knew she was just as inexperienced physically as she was emotionally, but then perhaps he’d considered her human life to have been a little more corrupted than it actually was.

Enver: He nodded his head. "I remember." He wasn't sorry he did it either. He had missed her and it seemed like the right thing to do when he saw her. It felt like the right thing to do to him. "Not scoring points for Ven's corner, you know." He chuckled as he blew out a cloud of smoke from his lungs. "I can't apologize for kissing you. Because I'd not really be sorry." He stared down at her, cleared his throat and kept working on the cigar

Keara: He knew, he remembered and yet he pushed at her boundaries anyway. She didn’t so much mind that though, what she minded was the way he reacted when she didn’t react as she was supposed to. “If know that you do. And remembered you have…Why do you so angry get when respond as perhaps I should I do not?” She cast her eyes upward and looked at him for a while before looking away again. “Know how to kiss you I do not. When your arms around me are. Conflicted I am. Want this I do but fear it also. Natural to me this does not come.”

Enver: "I only care when there's no reaction." He reminded her. "You didn't do anything. You just stood there. Think about how it'd feel if the roles were reversed." He looked away, knowing his pride had gotten in the way more than he'd like to have admit to. "Even a slap says something." He chuckled.

Keara: “But…” she began to protest and then stopped. “What if know I did not how to respond? Harm you I do not wish to and my instincts with you perhaps changing are. Yet…” she closed her eyes and ran her fingertips over her lips as she recalled the sensation and sighed softly. “Overwhelmed my senses become, for you so close to me to have. Teach you I would. If roles reversed were. Expect you do for me to know what unknown is.”

Enver: He listened, looked away and nodded his head as she played with her lips, not that he had missed it. "Might be my path. Nothing I can really do about that. The senses bit." He looked back at her. "I'm not sure what you want me to teach you, Keara." He ran a hand through his hair, eyes still on her

Keara: "Everything," she sighed. How was it not possible for him to get this? Was he really that clueless? She knew nothing and he knew it. Why on earth he kept making her repeat that fact she had no idea. She uncrossed her legs, pulling her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms under her thighs as she lay her head on her knees.

Enver: "Everything?" He repeated after her. "You want me to teach you, everything?" He tugged at his collar. "You understand what you're saying, yeah?" He watched her face intently, wondering if she knew what she just might be asking.

Keara: She nodded and buried her face so he couldn’t see her. ‘Nothing do I know. Know that you do.’ She said reaching out to him with her mind. ‘Expect you cannot response from me, when know I do not how to respond. Unless wish you do for me you always to harm?’

Enver: He chuckled and grinned wide. "Sometimes it's not too bad." He winked at her. "Alright. I'll teach you." His grin faltered as if he were talking business, because he wanted her to know just what she was getting herself in to by asking him this. "First lesson. I expect you to act how you feel when I do something. How you really feel. About us. About me." He inched a little closer to her, his hands behind his back. "So when I kiss you again, and it will happen by the way, think of what I said."

Keara: She didn’t see him wink at her as she was still hiding herself away. His reply confused her yet again. She didn’t know how to respond because she didn’t know how she felt. She had no idea what that sick feeling was and so no reaction, as far as she was concerned, was better than reacting wrongly. Keara sighed again, her posture slipping slightly with defeat. ‘If knew that I did,’ she replied once more with her mind. ‘Done that already I would have.’

Enver: "Don't worry about it." He replied. "You didn't. Not your fault. I guess I didn't realize how things really were with you and what's his face." He looked at the top of her head. "And stop hiding. If you hide, how can I teach you anything?" He slowly grinned again.

Keara: “Ven,” she growled lifting her head from her knees but still refusing to look up at him. “Know his name well enough you do.”

Enver: "Yeah. Ven. Your sire." He nodded his head, stepped closer, until he could reach out and grab her by her arms and pull her up off the ground. "He must have been great to be with him that long, but I'm here. We're here.

Keara: Somewhat reluctantly she allowed him to pull her up from the floor. Ven was a great man, she loved him and she didn’t like his memory being disrespected, especially by someone she had feelings for. His words helped to sooth her a little but still she refused to look him in the eye, her focus on their feet. “Know that…Accept that…Like here…sometimes.”

Enver: He put a finger under her chin in an attempt to tilt it up so she would look at him. "Good. Then I accept that you might not know how to react at first." He searched out her face. "But I'm going to keep trying and pushing. The only way to teach you."

Keara: She allowed him to direct her gaze and found herself looking into his gorgeous brown eyes. She was a complete fool for this guy and being so close to him had her shivering all over. It was highly likely she’d slap him several hundred times over before she was comfortable being with him and yet…she really didn’t mind that if he didn’t and the fact that he was still standing in front of her tended to suggest he didn’t.

Enver: He felt her shaking in front of him, the male still staring at her overall face. "Is that really how you feel?" He asked her quietly, stepping even closer, until their bodies gently crashed in to the other. "About us? About me?" His other hand moved to the side of her body, grazing the flesh of her arm with his hand.

Keara: The closer he got the more her senses were screaming at her to run away but she didn’t, she froze. As his hand brushed against her arm she closed her eyes and told herself over and over not to hit him. She forced herself to think of anything and everything but the sensation of his fingers on her flesh.

Enver: His hand moved up the length of her arm, to the side of her cheek where he stroked it for a few seconds. "Here's your push for the night." With her eyes closed, it seemed easier to do what he wanted to do. Or at least, do what he wanted to do before she caught on. "Return it." His lips brushed against hers, softly and only for a second. He kept his lips locked to hers, but did nothing. It was for her to decide what should or shouldn't be done after his initial initiation.

Keara: This was like her best daydream and her worst nightmare all wrapped up into one. She kind of knew what was coming, hence the reason she was shaking to have him so close in the first place. Keeping her eyes closed was just good practise, as it helped her focus so when his lips touched hers, she didn’t lash out him. He wanted her to react but she had no idea what that meant and half assumed that just allowing the act itself showed how she felt about him. When he ceased to press against her lips, she froze momentarily. Pull away! Her mind was screaming but instead she placed her hands on his chest, more to create a barrier between them than anything else but then and only then did she allow herself to return the kiss. She pressed her lips to his for a few seconds and then pushed him away from her, opening her eyes as she did so. Biting her lip she presented him with her hand, in the hopes that he would now abide by the agreed upon custom and know that she did in fact have feelings for him.

Enver: He was grinning when she returned it. Even if it had been quick and she was still shaking, it was a step forward in his mind. When he was pushed away, he allowed it, because she had done what he had asked of her and wouldn't require more, even if he did want more. There was that selfish tinge in him again. A hand was presented and he chuckled at her resilience on keeping with it. The male collected the hand, kissed her finger tips and then the top of her hand.

Keara: Keara smiled even as she continued to bite her lip. As he collected her hand, her body still trembling, she prepared herself for him to try something else, but he didn't. She felt an odd mix of relief and disappointment in that moment but it didn't show, as the overriding thought in her mind was that he respected her and that they had, for now at least, found a way forward despite the events of the last few days.
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