I'm not who you think I am... ~Journal~

[Kira]

April 29th, 2013

Kira paced, she felt like running. Running in the city however, just wasn't appealing. "**** the fae." she said, putting on an outfit she didn't care about getting snagged on tree branches and put on some sneakers. She drove to the Triple Moon Temple on her motorcycle and parked there outside. She took off into the wilderness as soon as got off her bike. She jumped onto the side of a tree and pushed off, grabbing a hold of a branch and swung herself up onto it. She jumped down and took off again. After some time, she returned the way she came, she was lucky enough not to be missing any limbs.

She returned to her motorcycle and returned home for a shower and change of clothes. She needed to get to the shop before Puppet painted things the wrong color, not that she decided on anything yet. She couldn't find any joy behind making the place her own right now and she wasn't sure when it would return.

"Kira, about time. Dru's wraith keeps saying to paint it its colors." Puppet said, "I said it should be this color." he said, holding up lime green.

Kira groaned. "Black and blue?" she said, trying to think of what it looked like again and the mutant it was suppose to look like. "I hate that green. Dark green is better. You are so not in charge of painting."

Puppet frowned, "But what else am I suppose to do here?" he asked.

"Work on your people skills..?" Kira said, moving to the back to check on what supplies showed up. She was still working on a draft of what the place would look like, trying to tie in the elements in one space. Before she knew it an hour went by and the trash can was once again full of crumbled papers.

Kira moved to the main room again but left without saying anything else to Puppet. She returned to the temple and flopped down on the seating in the back. She took out her cell phone, pressed play on the music and set it aside. She took out a couple of daggers. Why couldn't she focus anymore? The temple couldn't be her last project.

She got up, moving to the music as her blades moving through the air in an imagery fight. She closed her eyes, she could see a random battle and what way she needed to move. Her blades twirled in her hands, bringing them in front of her. She opened her eyes. She hadn't wanted to stay in the same area with Puppet for too long, she didn't want to know what his reaction would be to the fact she went on a date with David. The man sure seemed way too happy when she said she would. Though Serenity sure was pushing for it so David would behave. Was it all that it meant? Keeping David from bugging other people? Was that really a way to live? He said he loved her...but she had no proof that such a thing was real.

Then the song changed. Heart Attack...
Kira turned towards the music, putting her blades away in exchange to just rocking to the music.

[Kira]

May 14th, 2013

Kira found herself staring up at the ceiling. "Puppet, what was I doing?" she asked.

Puppet looked over at her from watching TV. "You were sleeping.."

Kira sat up and looked at him. "I was...not.." she said, pulling the hat lower on her head. It was the same hat she wore the last time she had a head wound. The man that turned out to be a hunter and she killed him after he shot her in the head. She took his hat to cover the head wound. She sighed, yeah it was around the same time she ended up with David.

"Kira..?"

It took a moment for Kira to reply. "Huh?" she said.

"Let's face it, you haven't been able to stay awake for more than 20 minutes." Puppet said to her.

Kira sighed, he was right. Her mind kept wondering off, sometimes it took her awhile to even focus her words. "Guess...I...I should give up." she said, "Mark, are you here?" she asked.

"I am." Mark replied in the same language, leaving Puppet to just blink. He was out of the loop now.

"Good, then you can help keep watch. I might now wake up if my phone alerts of someone tripping the sensors." Kira said as she got up. She was able to speak better this way, and so far he was the only one who she could hold out a conversation with. She headed upstairs and moved Sof aside so she could lay down. Sof protested but settled back down until the dogs came in, jumped up and flopped down on Kira as well. "Bloody hell.." she muttered. Well, she suppose she was better protected here after all.

[Kira]

May 18th, 2013

Kira sighed softly, finally her head was healed. So after a long shower she was ready to get something done.

She ended up at the temple, working on music instead. She held her violin, playing a calm song.

Puppet had went to the temple to feed the fish. He stood on the bridge over the moon shaped pond, tossing some fish food into the water. He looked over at her, "See you're better.." he said.

"Indeed." Kira replied, "Since you are here. Wanted to show you that violins can rock." she added with a grin. She played Moon Trance.

Puppet smiled, "Alright, alright. You've proved your bought. But I still think you could rock better with guitar." he said. "Though you should show this music to other people..."

Kira frowned, "Dru says the same thing." she said, sitting down and set the violin aside. "Don't like doing things in front of a bunch of other people." she said, picking up her phone and looking at something. She rolled her eyes a bit. "Bloody hell, I'm a grandsire.." she muttered, sounded like it was someone he was ******* around with. She was so tempted to find David's moms, get them to make him to set her free. Why were so many men pigs? Her wraith obviously was a womanizer back in the day. Her body would stay as the goddesses temple for the rest of her long life, she just didn't care anymore but she'd be damned if she went through this long life tied to David in a meaningless marriage.

She sighed, looking at some other things. Why were women the ones always degrading themselves? She tapped her fingernail on the edge of her phone. It was time for men to work it for the ladies. She got up, "Oh Puppet, get ready to be even busier, I'm opening another place." she said with a grin.

Puppet blinked, "Hum...what?" he said, following after her.

Kira was already heading out of the temple, "Two parts...maybe with it, I may play some music but my main focus will be something else.." she said. "Hmm...should find Dru. She is a bit boy crazy....she could make the costumes."

"What...?" Puppet said, fully confused.

"You'll see!" Kira said, "Meet me at the mall." she added as she walked off.


OOC: Rather watch the music video of that song, it has zombies!

[Kira]

May 31th, 2013

As much as I've been anti-male lately, the show ponies are fun to hang out with. The Beef Cakes and I tend to just rock out after the lounge closes. Its a good thing I asked for the place to be sound proofed. Wouldn't want to bother the next door shop.

Dru still bugging me. I'm tried of being compared to that damn Britney Spears. But...how much money can I get out of my sister? heh. Suppose it might be worth it. I can put the money towards my next vacation, which will be to Ireland. I'm not sure yet HOW exactly that's going to work...because of the whole sun issue. Even if I could be become a day walker...I just can't get over that paralyzing fear of the sun. Now...if I could teleport ALL the way there...**** that would be something else. Though knowing my luck, I'd end up in the damn ocean.

---

Kira quickly saves and leaves her journal as Puppet comes in. "Wonderful timing. Wanted to ask you something." she said.

He stared at her warily. "What is it?" he asked worried.

"Do you want the guitar that you bought me back?" Kira asked simply.

"Why? You're not going to use it all now?" Puppet asked.

"Well, I found one that called to me more than a plain one." Kira explained. She got up and opened up a case and showed him the Celtic inspired designs of the guitar. "Isn't it great?" she asked. "I know there are two very different sounds but...I know you only brought that to distract me."

Puppet looked it over, "It is very nice." he replied. He looked at her now, "They are two very different sounds, much better to rock with the one you bought. So I expect to hear it!"

Kira grinned, "Alright fine." she said, "Maybe sometime at the TML." she added, putting the guitar back in its case.

[Kira]

June 7th, 2013

Since Serenity has been encouraging Kira's killing of the gangsters, she thought she head over to the High Noon Saloon since the rumor was there had been a lot of gangsters hanging out. It sort of bad sense though that they would pick such a place. She sent a message to her wraith to meet her there so they could help her scout ahead.

Kira waited outside, "I'm here my dear." Tessa's voice said, "But I have no desire to go in this place so I'll let Marcus help you out here."

Kira didn't really care who helped her, but at least Mark wouldn't be telling her that her hair needed to be fixed or she needed a different outfit. She headed inside and stopped, "Saloon with no sawdust on the floor?" she said.

"You know that?" Mark asked, moving on ahead.

"Think I read it somewhere. Sawdust soaks up the spilled booze...blood and whatever else ends up on the floor." Kira said, though she was sure there were some places that still used sawdust. Though it sounded rather messy. "Find me the gangsters so we can get out of here."

She heard Mark chuckle as he moved off. He find one after another and singled for her to come over. Kira took the time to lure them away from other people before fighting them. She cleared the place, including the back. She found a government agent playing poker.

Then Mark had wondered off towards the mechanical bull, wondering what it was and its point. He quickly followed after Kira, "Hey, don't you want to try that thing?" he asked.

"Hum, no." Kira replied, "Got other things to do. I hope you stay in control so Tessa doesn't try to get me in another dress."

Mark started to laugh. "Oh but you looked so nice in the last one." he said.

Kira stopped walking and stared at where his voice was coming from. "You saw.."

"Of course. She shared it with me.." Mark replied, grinning.

Kira growled and hurried off.

[Kira]

June 13th, 2013

Kira's dreams were jumbled together. She couldn't tell what time frame as it kept switching over and over again. One moment she felt the pain of a whip, knives cutting into her skin, fists punching, the sting of fire. There was yelling and blood. The next there was music, smoke, alcohol. The show seemed to be burlesque, her cool voice saying you can look but can't touch before her voice changed to song. Flickers of mirrors, blue eyes, why were her eyes blue. Green eyes. Blonde hair. Red hair. Black hair. Different mirrors, very old to newer. Screaming, fire. Battles, so many battles. Different times, different places.

She rolled out of bed and was on her feet. Her thoughts were a mess. Was there something she was suppose to get out of that? No, she couldn't see it. Warrior was still within her mind. Well...that could be a very good thing. She would love to be rid of that other side for good. She sighed softly, rubbing her face with her hands before sliding her hands over her hair.

"Trouble sleeping?"

Kira gasped, "****!" she said before the rest of what she was cussing at him was in Gaelic, her accent left her wraith thankful he could understand her anyway. He finally made himself visible to her.

"I didn't mean to startle you but you were the one muttering about to battle and don't touch. Must be some dream." Marcus said.

Kira rubbed her face again. "Yeah...I guess. It's like all my past lives clawing its way into my mind. It's not what I want to remember. Its the past, I don't care. But to know what happened in this life, why I don't remember anything." she said. She left her room, heading downstairs to go a few rounds with her punching bag to clear her head.

[Kira]

June 14th, 2013

Kira relaxed in the back of the temple, humming softly. Her fingers running over the strings of her guitar. She closed her eyes.

Love is a myth and you're the story teller.
I could never fall for such a cruel narrator.

You say that you love, that you live for my kiss. Was there ever any truth to your words?
You could never stay long, you're always walking on, looking on.
I'm not asking for the moon and the stars. All I asked was to be 100% yours. But you just proved that...

Love is a myth and you're the story teller.
I can't fall for a cruel narrator.
Love is a myth and the world is a stage.
There's always a tragic end in the last act but I won't be an actress in your play.

Kira opened her eyes, not surprised to see Marcus hovering there.

"Can't even sing a love song?" Mark asked.

"I can sing a love song just fine. I just can't write one. That right there is a Kira Kerr original." Kira replied, which was only the second song she wrote for no one's ears. "I have no problems singing love songs. I can...almost feel what its suppose to be like. But again...nothing more than a useless emotion and theory."

Kira took out her cell phone, pressing play on the music. My Song. She could sing it just as how it was suppose to be sung but as soon as it was over, turned the music off. "It's a lovely song. I wish I could sing it for someone. But the people here, most likely every where, there's no such thing as love. Maybe that's why love songs sell so well. People keep dreaming that its out there."

"God you're a downer.." Mark complained.

"Coming from a manwhore.." Kira mused, Mr Powerful Allurist of the past. "Were you ever in love?"

Mark stared at her for a moment before disappearing from sight.

Kira raised an eyebrow. She either hit a nerve or hit the nail on the head.

[Kira]

July 16th, 2013

The smell of salt of the ocean, the sound of the hooves of the horse on the soft Earth.

“Deifir! (hurry)” Kira said in a hushed tone, holding onto the simple rope reigns. There was no saddle, just her and the horse, she could feel its muscles move under her and on the sides of her bare legs. The horse jumped over logs, jumped up rock formations. Hardest part was making it through the forest, she had to bring her body down to avoid getting hit by a branch. Her red hair mixed with the horse’s white mane. Her slender fingers gripped the horse’s mane for a moment, her head shot up once they were out of the woods.

Now the smell of smoke filled the air, and the reddish hue of the darken sky was up ahead. She pulled back on the reigns when they go to the top of the hill, she felt herself go forehead a bit, the horse turned to the side. The view overlooked buildings that were on fire. Kira closed her eyes, her hands gripping into fists.

---

Kira sat up in bed, Sof letting out a protest as she was on Kira’s hair on the pillow. She stared at the dark room, thinking about what she just saw. She couldn’t place if it was a village or the temple. Had she been alive when the temple had been taken over? No…she’d most likely would have killed who ever tried, history might have been different.

She gave an impatient noise and slipped out of bed. She couldn’t help but feel that something was wrong. She picked up her unicorn oracle cards and sat back in the middle of her bed. She drew out the cards, shuffling them and asked if something bad was going to happen in the city. Sof came over and watched intently as Kira spread them out on the bed and picked up a card.

Yes

Kira stared at the card for a moment. She shook her head and put the card back, pushing the cards back into a pile. “That was the wrong thing to ask. There is always something wrong in this city.” She said. She looked over at Sof who just tilted her head at her. Kira closed her eyes, letting out a breath before putting the cards away. She laid down and pulled Sof over, “No since dwelling on a past I can’t remember.” She said. Her dreams were always of a past long since written in history but she couldn’t grasp anything of this life before 2010. She sighed softly, closing her eyes again and hoped for a dreamless sleep.

[Kira]

July 17th, 2013

Kira woke up again and again from the sight of burning buildings. She was trying to analyze it, did it have to do with the past or was it Warrior trying to heal the damage from the heart wound.

She reached a hand up to her chest. The wound was healed, the problems it caused still remained. Fire normally meant she would be out looking for a fight but she didn't get that reaction now. It just gave her a sense of dread.

She slipped out of bed, grabbing her clothes and headed downstairs to the bathroom. After a long hot shower, drying off and got dressed, she was trying to tame her hair. She wiped the steam from the mirror before she started to blow dry her hair and straighten out the curls. From the sides of her field of vision and the mirror, she swore there was something dark moving around behind her.

Kira set the straighter down and turned around, "Mark? Tessa?" she said, thinking that her wraith had returned from gossip gathering. There was no reply. She turned back to the mirror, her eyes widened and took a step back as it wasn't her in the mirror but Warrior with wicked grin. Something dark whipped out and the mirror shattered all over the sink and onto the floor.

"What the.." what in the world was going on? She turned to the right, where her shadow should have been according to where the light was in the room. It wasn't there. She turned to the left, nothing there. What she didn't know her shadow was changing to the other side of where ever she was looking.

Kira grabbed a part of the mirror and held it up so she could see behind her. Her shadow flipped her off and there was Warrior's face in the mirror again instead of her own. She felt a sharp smack against her leg, causing her to hold onto the mirror part too hard, cutting her hand before dropping it.

"What the ****!" she hissed. "Warrior what are you doing!?"

"I've attached to your shadow. Deal with it Dark Lady...wait, you are Kaley at the moment aren't you!" Warrior said followed by wicked laughter.

Kira growled, she was right, she would be more Kaley than Kira right now. Damn emotions. "How the hell did you attach to my shadow?" she asked.

"Think it had to do with your little trip to that dark place.." Warrior asked.

"The shadow realm.." Kira said softly and sighed. "Behave yourself or I will find a way to remove you from my head." she said and opened up the door to come face to face with a worried Dave.

"What happened?" Puppet asked.

"I just hated the way I look at the moment.." Kira replied, lying about what happened. "Anyway, can you please call someone to replace the mirror." she said before heading outside. She wasn't sure what she was going to do. She would need to meet with the Beef Cakes tomorrow...now it seemed she would need to find a way to seal Warrior away.

[Kira]

July 18th, 2013

Kira clipped some sage and lavender, she placed them on the altar before stringing them up to dry. Where to start on her research of sealing Warrior? If she tried, Warrior would know. She could send a mind message to someone else to do it? No...Warrior was within her, she would know. I'm fucked..

This new development bothered her greatly. What if repented visits to the shadow realm resulted in Warrior taking over completely? She closed her eyes. She would have to take a trip and just die, where she would not return. But did that free herself from the vampire and let her move on to another life? Far too many variables.

She opened her eyes and headed out of the temple. She was meeting Puppet at the lounge, the Beef Cakes were already left alone far too long as it was.

Though as she went inside the mall and was right outside her entertainment place. She just stared, not sure about going inside. Could she really deal with this right now?

"Come on, you can't leave them to their own devices. They might start stripping." Puppet said as he walked up.

Kira wrinkled her nose. "Can't have that." she said. She headed inside, Puppet following after her.

The guys were goofing off but at least they were dancing to some music. "Hey Boss Lady! Welcome back!"

"Thank you Cody." Kira replied, "Dave informed me that you went on without me and for that I thank you. I'm sorry I had to leave so suddenly." she said, "So, let's find some new stuff to do for the next show, shall we?"

The guys cheered and turned off the music and gathered around. They talked about what music to use, themes and outfits.

They spent the rest of the time coming up with the dances to the songs.

"Damn, why are you not out of breath." Cody said by time they were done.

"Oh I guess I'm much better shape then you all. Try working out." Kira mused and jumped off the stage, heading over to the bar and moved behind it as they guys piled out to go home.

Puppet sat down in the stool in front of her. "You can act some emotions but you can't act being out of breath?" he said.

Kira tapped her nails on the counter. "Can mimic it...I just forget.." she said. "Anyway, have you been keeping track of the inventory? Do I need to order anything?"

"Already took care of all of that." Puppet replied.

"Oh." Kira said, "What about the shop?"

"It's fine. Most likely need to make some new runes though." Puppet replied.

Kira nodded and moved from behind the bar. "Then let's go home. I'll see about making more." she said.