My Journal (Beck)

[Beck (DELETED 2772)]

Is it strange that I never bite my victims? I am a vampire after all. My pointed fangs will attest to this fact, though they have never punctured the skin of another. Is this poetic or pathetic? I still do not know why I cannot do it, preferring to allow the blade of my knife to do the deed. It seems so intimate to drink straight from the vein. I can still feel the bite of my sire and see his eyes as they looked hard into me, drilling down into the darkest depths of my being. A shudder through my spine is always felt when I revisit those memories. Even now as I grip the pen to write, my fingers shake. Where is my sire now? He turned me and left me there to rot. I should hate him, but I am unable. No. I will not drink from the vein. I do have to admit, I enjoy watching the blood as it runs into my flask and then tasting it on the blade as I lick it clean.

[Beck (DELETED 2772)]

I have befriended a few others. They have been helpful and seem to actually be sincere in wanting to help me out. One of them saved my *** after I made the mistake in taking a sunbath and getting burned rather badly. Jonah. He is one of the elders in the bloodline that I am now a part of. Apparently my maker is rather careless and I was some kind of mistake. Just my luck right?

[Beck (DELETED 2772)]

*********** *********** ***********. There. I had to get that **** out.
How in the hell did my life turn to this? Yeah I thought my life was **** before, but now I am a ******* vampire on top of it all? I can't eat ******* waffles! ****. I just want a nice plate of waffles.

[Beck (DELETED 2772)]

HOLY CRAP! I AM A MYSTIC!